My Life's full of DRAMA. Live with it.

2006-03-25T13:00:00.000+08:00

Im off to the States tonight. I am so excited! :p

Take care y'all!

2006-02-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

why do we always have to fight? ... grabe, napapagod na ako.

this day wasnt okay. i found my calculus LT5 so hard.. mental block na naman. hayyy. i just pray i'll get a C or D there.. Lord basta wag F... and after my test, i went back to the condo na agad to chat with Tim. tapos nag-away na naman kami. ewan ko ba. ewan ko na.

GenRev night tomorrow. at least i have something to look forward to.

2006-02-14T15:43:00.000+08:00

What a Valentine's Day. This is probably the lamest Valentine's Day that Ive had in my entire life. ACK. I miss celebrating Valentine's Day in CSA. Argh. Major stuff that has driven me to write this entry:

* I didn't even see Roy in school.

* Tim and I had a fight pa a while ago.

TSSSS.

But.. Of course I dont want to miss out on this...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST MOM! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

2006-02-09T14:57:00.000+08:00

This was how I looked like this morning around 9:10.. I was reviewing with my friends in the SEC C Foyer just before my Physics Lab Class.. Fresh na fresh, eh? Hahaha. But... visit my MULTIPLY SITE to see how I looked like after taking the test.. Check out the newest album... HAHAHAHA. FUNEEEEEYYY :P

Anyway, this day was not that okay for me.. Well I still cant figure out why I didnt hear the alarm of my phone this morning.. I woke up at 7 am! and my Physics class was at 7:30!!!.. I was so late.. And to add to that, I wasnt able to hear Mass this morning.. ack, I dont feel so good. I feel incomplete.. Yeah, I went to the Chapel naman kanina, but still, I feel incomplete.

My Physics lecture and lab classes were okay naman.. Parang wala na naman ako natutunan sa Physics Lec.. Hayy.. I dont know, that subject = Daydreaming time kasi eh.. Hahaha. Buti na lang our Lab class finished early.. I was able to review pa ng konti for Math.. But then when I saw the P3 people in the caf and then they told me that the test was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARD, I didnt feel like studying anymore.. Whats the use pa, eh 1 hour na lang, Im gnna take the test na.. So.. I went na lang to the SEC walkway and then my buddies from H2 were there.. so.. picture picture time na lang.. Hehehe :P We had our usual chikahan sessions and one of the topics of our kwentuhan was... him. ***. :)

Then here comes the major thing of my day.. CALCULUS LT 4. Kainis, sir said it was easy.. and we thought na madali nga lang kasi... 3 silang gumawa nung LT4.. BUT.. HINDI PALA. OA SA HIRAP. I felt like I didnt study at all last night.. Argh... There were only 2 easy items and then the rest were ugh!!!!! Well I dont want to fret about it anymore because duh?.. there's no use na naman in doing so eh.. As if naman I could retake the test.. Hayy.. Lord.. I did my best naman eh... I offer it up to You....

Hayy. Im chatting with Tim right now, akala ko magiging masaya ako today dahil dito, hindi pala. May sinabi siya na nagpalungkot sakin... ARGH. bakit ko naffeel to??????????????? I NEED ROY. Naiiyak ako. ..................................

Edit:

Yung reaction ko kanina, according to Mary, defense mechanism ko.. Kasi it seems like history's gonna repeat itself... HAYYY. And sabi ng blockmates ko, siguro nga, I like *o* kasi I saw a certain possibility between the two of us, thats why Im pursuing him.. but deep inside, hindi ko pa rin ma-deny na si *i* lang naman talaga ung gusto ko.. Hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Sabi naman ni Ace, I should create a fine line between being a best friend, and being a lover. Sakin kasi (in my situation with *i*), blurred ung line na un, and thats where I stand right now. ARGGGGHHH.

2006-02-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

Random Stuff:

* I cant understand 3 out of the 5 stories that I have to write about for my Lit Midterm paper. I havent started writing and it's due on Wednesday already.

* Im starting to be the old lazy me again. Haha. I cut my Physics Lecture class a while ago kasi tinatamad lang ako bumangon.

* Im starting to love Physics Lab! Its wayyyyy better and the workload is wayyyy lighter than that of my blockmates who are in ES.

* I resisted the temptation to cut my Lit class tomorrow just to watch Vince's basketball game in CSA. Sorry Vince, sa fair na lang.

* Im liking Roy more and more each day. Kahit na alam kong nakukulitan na siya sa akin. Hehehe.

* I decided recently not to be the one to call Tim this month. Hahaha. Magdusa siya. Siya naman tumawag noh.

* I dont know why ang bilis maubos ng pera ko ngayon. Hmm. bakit kaya?

* Its the LovaPalooza season again and I dont really give a damn. Hahaha. Being single but being attached to Him is really cool!!

* Im not bothered by the fact that I am a member of S.A.W.I. = Samahan ng mga Atenistang Walang Iniibig. So what diba? Hahaha. The Lord loves me and I couldnt ask for more..

* I dont make a big deal out of Valentine's Day being an occassion for lovers. But of course, I get to be happy during Feb 14 because its the birthday of my dearest Mommy. And I'll be forever thankful for her.

* I cant wait til June. I cant wait to see him again. Ilang tulog na lang. Hahaha.

* I really really really want to go to GenRev Camp on April. Oh Lord, sana makapunta ako.

* I'm really excited for Summer semester. Weee. Sana makakuha ako ng French class. Weeee.

* Sana maka-3.1 na QPI ako this semester. At least 3.1 Lord. Please.

* I miss my parents and my younger sister. Hayy. Yey, uuwi na ako bukas.

* I really want to buy Sam Milby's album. YEAH.

* Im gaining weight na naman. Hello Crash Diet, my old friend. Hehehe.

Lame lame lame post. Hehehe. :) Ciao!

2006-01-19T14:20:00.000+08:00

Ok na kami ni Roy! wala lang :)

Hayy.. OA sa hirap ung Math Long Test ko kanina.. Lord, help me naman to get a decent grade.. Our 2nd sem advisory marks are coming out na on Monday.. :( I really dont feel confident about my grades this sem.. argh, malas talaga.. and 2nd sem's harder compared to the 1st sem.. oh well.. Kaya ko to :)

I wanna go to GenRev Night in Alabang tomorrow... But I have no way papunta and way home.. :(

Excited na ako mag-weekend.. Pero hindi rin.. kasi magaaral lang ako sa weekend.. Argh, Math Midterms ba naman on Monday?? What a way to start ur week eh noh?... Math used to love me naman dati eh, what happened?...

Haha. Ang lame ng post ko :) Bye.

2006-01-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

Argh. I miss Roy. Wala lang.

I've been kinda upset the past few days.. Kasi.. Hmmm.. Bakit nga ba? I don't know, I guess I just feel kinda lonely kasi I'm missing Tim too much.. or it's just because I'm so stressed out because of school.. The Big, Bad and Blue has been churning me to death.. So many papers.. So many long tests.. but there's so little time.. [+ so little motivation].... But I've always believed that He won't give me what I can't bear.. so.. I say, BRING IT ON.

Anyway, I had a short chit-chat with Steph Yap last Wednesday.. She's really one of my good friends in College and we were discussing our plans to shift either to ME or to BMH. We weighed the pros and cons of shifting.. And.. Hmm.. We ended up with this.. + Thing: Honors' courses ung mga yun... so diba?.. Honors eh. Kaya okay sobra. ... - Thing: Our grades will somehow be in danger.. I mean in BMH, the retention QPI is 3.00 ... I'm not saying that it's so hard to get that QPI but nakakapressure siya sobra.. Baka naman maka-BMH nga ako ng 1 sem tapos the next sem, balik Mgt-Standard naman ako.. Hehehe :) And sa ME naman, baka mashock ako bigla sa hirap ng Math... So.. I've finally made up my mind.. I'm staying in BS Mgt-Standard.. And.. I'll just get a minor degree either in Economics, Finance or International Business. Okay na yun diba? May future na kaya ako??? Haha. Wele leng. :)

Oh guys, I need your help.. I'm gonna take Foreign Language during the summer semester.. What should I take, Japanese or French????? I'm really confused.... I heard Japanese is really easy.. But.. I really want to learn French.. [though they say it's hard..]...

And another thing, when will be a better time to go to the States, this summer [last week of March to mid-April] or during my sembreak next school year [October sumthin- November sumthin .... which I heard would be super short, compared to our 1 month sem break this school year.. oh geez, I hope that rumor isnt true..] Ack, if I'll go to the States this summer, I guess I won't be able to visit Tim.. Coz our route will be.. LA-> Seattle-> Hawaii .. Argh, nasan ung Rocklin, CA dun?? or kahit Sacramento man lang.. Boohooo. AYOKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Hayy. 9:47 pm pa lang. Kaya ko kayang maghintay hanggang 2:30 am? Well, kaya yan! Para kay Tim eh! HAHAHA :)

Oh, I've proven once again that Retail Therapy makes people feel EXTREMELY happy and it relieves people's stress. :) Haha, sale kasi sa Glorietta this weekend and I went shopping na kanina.. I love it!

Oops, I'm getting kinda carried away na. Haha, I have to do TONS OF SCHOOLWORK tonight and tomorrow.. Math LT3's just 4 days away!!!!!! waaaaahhhh!!! And yeah, I have to watch The Chronicles of Narnia na naman tomorrow night.. 3rd time na yun ah.. Haha. Peter Pevensie/Willam Moseley=HOTNESS! Haha, well hindi lang naman yun ung reason eh.. I have to watch it again coz I'm gonna have a test on that on Monday.. Hahaha :) Oh, ayos na ung laptop na nabasag ko!!! Yey! haha :) I missed it!!

Gotta go! :) Byeeeeeee!!

2006-01-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

I cant understand why guys are like that. When they get a hint that you like them, they start acting weird around you. Naiilang daw. RIGHT.

I thought this will be a good day for me. Hindi pala.

But yes Lord, I know he isn't the right one for me. Thank You for using Apple to show that to me.

2006-01-02T22:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS! It's 2006 already and it's a fresh start once again. In 2005, I've been through so many ups and downs but I'm still hangin in here. Now I'm gonna make a list of the things and the people I'm thankful for during the past year.
For the list of the things I'm thankful for, here it goes. [This wouldnt be ALL coz Im thankful for SO MANY STUFF :) ]

1. My 18th birthday. ..

2. Graduating from HS with honors

3. Good health [not only me but my family as well]

4. Stronger friendship with Tim

5. My new cellphone :)

6. Being accepted to my dream school

7. Closer friendship with my Chums though we dont go to the same school anymore

8. Good grades during the 1st sem of college

9. Strength I always receive from the Lord when I feel like I'm the weakest person on earth

10. His call to serve Him again but this time in GenRev :)

Now I wanna say thank you to these people who have helped me get through during the past year..

1. OF COURSE, THE LORD. For being my Strength, my Sweet Song after every sigh, my Protector, my Triumph after every failure. I wouldnt have gone through the past year most especially if not for YOU. :)

2. My family. For never failing to believe in me, for always being the reason why I want to go home every Friday night, for giving me their unwavering support in whatever endeavor I undertake.. You're my heroes :)

3. Tim. For never giving up on us although our situation is getting harder and harder everyday, for forcing yourself to stay awake just to talk to me.. For never getting sawa of my ka-dramahan and katopakan... For always ensuring that I'm okay.. For being my shock absorber whenever I talk to you after taking a hard exam in school.. For being the same Timmy I met two years ago.. I love everything about you.

4. Nic. For always being THERE for me.. For tapping my back whenever I feel like crying.. For being my walking/jogging buddy in admu.. For making me realize a lot of things whenever Im bein selfish.. and for the terrific surprise you prepared during my birthday.

5. Ate Toni. For not getting annoyed whenever I seek your help in Math. For not giving up until I fully understand the point of the lesson. For washing the dishes for me whenever I'm tinatamad to do so.

6. Mae. For tolerating my natural pang-asar attitude.. For letting me use the PC for several hours when Im chatting with Tim.. For understanding "our" situation.

7. Mary. For never getting tired of replying to my text messages when Im bored. For not taking "my mean hirit to you last year" seriously and still staying friends with me. For listening to my Josue-related rantings.

8. My GenRev family. For reviving my passion in serving the Lord.. For making me realize a lot of things regarding my life and my spirituality in particular. For making our LRT trips to New Manila SO WORTH IT. For making me yearn for the Lord more.

9. P Unit. For helping me get through the first sem. For making our 3 hour breaks FUN instead of boring.. For never failing to believe in what I can do. Walang iwanan ah?..

10. My Tropang Chums. For making our friendship stronger even though we dont go to the same school anymore. For the suprise song number you prepared when I celebrated my 18th bday.. For never changing and staying as the same people that I shared my life with from grade 7 up to now. and yeah, until the day I die.

11. Tini and Miko. For inspiring me through your deep faith in Him. For influencing me to revive my zeal to serve the Lord through your blogs. For listening to my non stop kwentos in YM even though technically, we havent really met as in MET in person. For your generosity kapag nakikitext ako sa States. I can't wait to meet you both in person SOON. :)

There. Cheers! For greater things in 2006! Here's to more fun happenings with these people.. Ciao! God Bless all of you!

2005-12-19T17:17:00.000+08:00

I'M FINALLY EIGHTEEN. ♥♥♥

I'm sorry if it's only now that I got the time to blog.. Last week was just really hectic.. Nako, school-related pa talaga.. So yeah, screw my recent entry.. Two hours after I wrote that [12 midnight], my ate and Nic prepared pala a suprise for me.. So much for being "LONELY".. Hahaha. I really found it sweet.. They gave me a bouquet of flowers, balloons, a cake and two folders containing L2's and my GenRev family's birthday messages for me.. AWWW.. I love surprises.. Hehe :) My birthday in school was fun too.. For the first time, my close guy blockmates didnt make me asar kahit once lang.. Haha, they knew it was my day so sorry na lang sila.. Hahaha.. :)

So last Saturday, I had my birthday dinner at Hard Rock.. It was fun coz it was nice to see my barkada again.. Oh yeah, Josue, my ex-bestfriend was there.. Hmm.. Wala lang.. Im glad we're kinda okay now.. thanks pala to Mary and Nic coz they were the people who kept on reminding me to fix na the stuff for my birthday.. HAHAHA :) My blockmates sang All My Life for me.. and my chums, grabe! nakakagulat ung song nila.. Haha, they sang "What is Friendship, what is Love?".. To the Augustinians, hmm.. I'm sure you know this.. Haha, its one of the Augustinian songs kasi.. HAHAHA. Natawa talaga ako dun.. :) and ung 18 memories ko, goodluck.. ang daming hirit tungkol sa lovelife! buti na lang talaga hindi napansin nila Daddy.. Hehehe.. Yeap, there were like 51 people lang who attended.. Which is good coz I want an intimate thing lang naman.. [And, hindi siya ganun ka-mahal. Less than 50 thou ung nagastos.. Yipee! may shopping money pa ako!!! Hahaha :) ] After my birthday dinner, we went back to the hotel since I had to change.. [Alangan naman naka-gown ako sa birthday ni Sassa noh?] then we went na to Ponticello.. Sassa's party was fun! :) I saw people who I truly missed.. Like sila Mika, Mar, Kim, etc :) Hmm.. for the record, hindi ako uminom.. YES. :) Hehehe.. Grabe, it was such a crazy and wild night.. Haha, Right Mary? .... Around 1 am, we went back na to the hotel to bond in our room.. Haha, yeah, I was a sleepyhead coz I slept early.. Hahaha, nakakapagod naman kasi noh.. And parang first time din to ng friends ko na hindi masyadong uminom.. Sayang ung dala ni Dee.. hehehe.. Oh yeah, scary coz the people pala in the rooms beside ours were complaining na kasi we were super maingay daw.. Hahaha... they wanted pa nga us to pay $40 each.. hahaha, goodluck naman!

Hayyy. Last school day of the year tomorrow. :) MATH LT... oooohhhhh.. Pray for me.. :)

Oh yeah, for the pictures, CHECK THIS OUT. :) Enjoy! :)

Argh. I miss Tim. I got to chat with him kanina pero mga 20 minutes lang.. He said I looked very pretty nung Saturday.. Uish! Galing mambola! HAHAHA :) Sabi ko "I couldve looked prettier if you were there.." And he said "Nah, you look perfect. :D" AWWWW. ISWIT. Hahaha :) Oh yah, he got na the stuff I sent through FedEx.. Astig! Im so happy coz he told me he liked my gifts.. :) Weeee!

2005-12-14T21:59:00.000+08:00

Two hours na lang, birthday ko na. Pero bakit ganon, parang hindi ako masaya?

Kachat ko si Pattee kanina. Eto.

ringpatring : last na

ringpatring : may interview ba pag pasok ng ateneo?

Ysel : wala

ringpatring : (grabe, halata bang sobrang nappraning nako dahil sa college? HAHA)

ringpatring : ooooh, alright!

Ysel : halatang halata.

Ysel : haha.

ringpatring : bat ka sad?

Ysel : o balikan mo na si paris at hector. [i was telling her to go back to her Iliad session]

Ysel : haha.

ringpatring : or busy ka?

Ysel : sad?

Ysel : hmm..

Ysel : mejo sad.

ringpatring : parang lang

Ysel : di ko alam kung bakit..

Ysel : hehe.

ringpatring : is it because of tim not being with you tomorrow?

ringpatring : magkikita naman kayo eh

Ysel : nako. mas lalo mo lang ako pinaiyak. haha. wala lang. feeling ko lang incomplete. yun lang. pero kaya to. salamat bading.

ringpatring : bakla ka talaga, umiiyak ka?

ringpatring : wag naaaaaa

ringpatring : papanget ka sige

ringpatring : hahaha

Ysel : haha. naluha lang ako. isa lang. haha

ringpatring : wahahah

ringpatring : ok ok

ringpatring : sige mag aaral na ko

ringpatring : si bitenggot gusto pa pumunta dito eh

ringpatring : parang tanga

Ysel : hahaha. magaral kayo together.

ringpatring : wag ka na malungkot, ok? God loves you!

Ysel : okay I know. Thanks for reminding me

ringpatring : wala pa nga kong alam eh

ringpatring : hindi, mang ggulo lang yun, like always!

ringpatring : He really loves you kaya.. wag ka na sad

Ysel : Yup :) Sige, back to Achilles ka na..

ringpatring : :D

There. Hindi lang naman yun ung reason kung bakit hindi ko makuha maging masaya talaga. I wanna be "okay" kasi with someone. Para diba, wala na akong dinadala sa damdamin ko. Ewan ko ba. Pero dont get me wrong, thankful talaga ako kasi birthday ko bukas. I dont know. Kakaiba lang talaga tong naffeel ko.

Sana maging okay na ako bukas.

2005-12-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

New phone. Old picture. I'm missing the good old days.

From the Philippines with love <3

To:

Hayy. I dont really feel like blogging but since I can't fully understand Anton Chekhov's In Exile and I have nothing else to do, here I am again, brightening up your day with some of my "kung ano ano lang" pictures. Wala lang. Yey. 2 days na lang, birthday ko na. Im really not excited about my exact birthday.. Coz yeah, it's a Thursday and I know I wont be able to see my parents and my younger sister.. And my chums are too busy to visit me here in Katipunan.. Yeah, Im excited about the birthday dinner that Im gonna have with my friends on Saturday.. A while ago, I went to Glorietta to meet up with my cousin so I could order my cake.. I love my cake. Haha. It's Little Mermaid! HAY LAVVV EEEET. :) Haha, we even came across my dearest Mom who was also there with her HOLD sisters.. haha, bingo. Di naman ako nagpaalam na pupunta ako dun.. Hahaha. :) Hayy. Kanina ko lang nafeel na nakakapagod pala mag-commute. Goodness. Grabehan naman sa hirap mang-box out ng mga tao sa MRT ah. HAHAHA. Hmmm.. Ano pa ba, ay, nagpa-FedEx pala ako kanina.. Diba sabi ko sa recent entry ko, P1500 aabutin? Soreeee, umabot ng P1900. Hahaha. Argh. Dahil madaming late sa Math class namin kanina, nag-pop quiz kami. Good luck naman sakin, pagkuha na nga lang ng critical values, di ko pa nagawa ng tama. BOO. Haha. After Math, nagbunutan kami for our Block Exchange Gift thing sa Christmas party. Soree. Napasigaw ako nung nabasa ko ung nasa paper. HAHAHA. Meant to be daw kami. HAHAHA. Clue: *August boy* .. HAHAHA :)

Oh yeah, kahapon, Nic and I were in National Bookstore.. She had to buy something and I had to have something photocopied on acetate.. Edi ngbabayad na kami.. Sakto, pinatugtog ung "Christmas wont be the same without you.." So nagtinginan agad kami diba.. Haha, tapos smile.. Tapos eto pa, ung guy na nasa harap nya sa line, parang malaking stuff ung binili.. di ko talaga makita kasi may nakaharang na tao.. Tapos.. nung turn na nung guy na un, nilagay nya dun sa table ng counter ung binili nya.. HAHAHA. Balikbayan Box pala.. Kamusta naman kami ni Nic diba??? OH WELL. They were haunting us!!!!!! :)

....... *21*

2005-12-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

Random Bloggie.

Johara. Me. Nikee. @ the caf before going to Glorietta

Since we had a free cut in Math last Tuesday, my close blockmates and I went to Glorietta.. hmm.. coz we had nowhere else to go to.. Haha, ayaw naman namin sa Eastwood or Galle.. Hehe.. After havin lunch at Fridays, the girls went shopping.. and the guys.. Timezone galore. HAHA. Boys will always be boys.. Hehe :p

Me and Laura at... TENEN! JGSOM! :)

Hehe, kami ulit.. Close up :)

I really wanted to have my picture taken at this area.. Hmm.. Why? kasi.. Wala lang.. ang ganda nung thing eh.. hahaha :) JGSOM. haha :) Wala lang.. Magsshift pa ba ako??? HAHAHA. Lord, I need discernment.. hehe :) Yeah, these JGSOM pics with Laura were taken knina before our GenRev gathering.. Hehe, :) As usual, our GenRev gathering was fun.. and of course, the preaching was amazing too.. It was very meaningful.. * Message: Always be ready for the Lord's coming.. * :) And ang saya coz dumadami na ung GenRev-vers.. YEY. PRAISE GOD. :) Oh yeah, the "Ginto sa Lusak" Christmas play that we watched last night was really great! :) Good job Nica, Kits, Happy, Eyette and everyone who took part in the production :) ..

Hehe, Im really not feeling well right now.. Ive had colds since yesterday.. And feeling ko, magkakalagnat na ako.. Hayyyy...

Oh yeah, happy ako today.. coz.. I got to talk to Tim on my cellphone.. and I got to chat with him before my English class kanina.. Hehe. :) Ang saya. :) Super. :) Bitin ung YM conversation namin.. but okay lang, super short but sweet.. :)

BIRTHDAY SHOUTOUTS: Kent Dela Guerra (8) , Cel Opaco and Ryan Que (9) .. :)

Yey, no classes tomorrow.. :) But guys, dont forget to hear Mass alright? ALRIGHT! :) Ciao! :)

2005-12-05T16:00:00.000+08:00

YEY! I DIDN'T FAIL IN BATALLER'S LT!!! Haha, I got a B :) 78/100.. Haha, that's a low B but I dont really care coz Im soo happy! Haha, I really expected a D there.. :) Yipeee! :) That really made my day.. Haha, kanina when Sir Bataller was distributing the papers, super nervous na ako.. Haha, he arranged the papers from highest to lowest.. He grouped the A papers, the B papers, so on and so forth.. He called the people who got a C.. then D yata.. then C+.. eh hindi pa ako natatawag.. Tapos wala daw naka-B+.... Impossible naman na maka-A ako noh? hehe :) So yun, B. YEYYYYYYYYY. THANK YOU LORD :) I was trying to call Tim... Para naman mashare ko sa kanya ung happiness ko.. Pero.. Feeling ko nung tumatawag ako, he was in the banyo making ligo. HAHAHA :)

This day went quite okay.. Hmmmm.. I had a suprise quiz in Lit.. Haha, good luck na naman sakin nito. HAHA. :) Tomorrow, I only have one class.. PHYSICS pa.. haha, 7.30-9.00 pa.. But hindi ko iccut yun.. kasi.. Im happy when Im in my Physics class.. Dahil kay.. :) HAHAHA.

I called FedEx a while ago to inquire... Kasi.. Ipapadala ko na ung gifts ko kay Tim.. haha, edi sinabi ko ... its not too heavy kasi basta.. konti lang naman un.. HAHA, alam nyo ba kung magkano? $28.84 yata.. so mga P1600.. Yehes. Ang mura lang noh??? :) Tapos sabi sakin, if ngayon ko daw ipapadala, by Dec. 7, nakarating na yun dun.. Ang bilis. HAHA. Ang saya. :) PERO. KAILANGAN KO PA BUMILI NG ISANG GIFT BUKAS OR ON THURSDAY. Hehe :) Para sulit naman ung pagpapadala ko.. Duhva?? :)

I just found out kanina that Sassa's leaving na pala on March... She's gonna study na in the States.. Specifically in LA.. sa Fashion Institute for Design and Merchandise.. :) Thouh Im really gonna miss her, Im super happy for her coz I know na yun talaga yung gusto nya.. Bakit ba lahat na lang ng tao kailangang umalis? HAHAHA :) Bitter amp. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN PROTACIO :) Uyyy.. part ng past ko.. HAHAHAHA.

Ayun lang. Wala na ko makwento. Haha. :) Ciao!

2005-12-04T10:28:00.000+08:00

11 days till I turn 18. I CAN'T WAIT. :)

I was checking my Multiply Message Board a while ago and I was tempted to open this album of Mary, a dear chum of mine.. The album was entitled "At Jing's Place.." .. So yeah, I opened it.. I saw pictures of my other chums Renz, Allenie, Mica, Anica and of course Mary taken during Josue's party.. I really felt bad when I saw those pictures.. I mean yeah, I knew that he didnt invite me.. but nakakainis lang.. kasi.. alam ko namang hindi sila close nung ibang chums ko dun tapos sila, ininvite nya, tapos ako, bestfriend nya from grade 6 to 2nd year, hindi??? .... And to think okay naman kami kapag we get to see each other.. hi, hello, blah blah.. Parang nakakagago lang.. AYOKO NG GANUN EH. AYOKO NANG NAGMUMUKHANG TANGA. AYOKO NANG NAGMUMUKHANG GAGO. Im willing to "revive" the friendship naman eh..pero ngayon, parang ayoko na.. Nakakapagod na rin, ikaw na nga yung nage-exert ng effort, tapos parang baliwala pa... ARGH. I didnt even invite him and his friends sa birthday dinner ko.. Kahit aaminin ko, masaya kasama ung mga kabarkada niya.. How I wish I could still invite Emman, Jiggs, Von and Ayo. ARGH talaga.. Siguro nga ung pagiging best friends namin nung grade 6-2nd year, pagkakamali lang talaga yun.. Siguro God wanted me to meet the wrong one first before I meet the right one.. And buti na lang, nakilala ko na si Tim. Ay, for fun lang, I'm gonna post his "message/letter" nya dun sa "Dedication Book" ko before 7th Grade Graduation...

Best friend,

Its been since last year.. You're the person I know the most out of ur barkada.. Look, I know this year has had its ups and downs.. I'm really sorry if there are some times that I dont get to talk or spend time with you much.. Its not that I do it on purpose or anything.. I dont mean to get you pissed off sometimes.. For that, Im really sorry.. As a best friend, I know that I havent done the best job.. but I just want to let you know that what I show you, is not really how I feel about you.. I just fail to express.. You mean much moare to me than what I show.. What Im trying to say is, I fail to show you how much I really love you.. Best friends forever!

- Josue

YEAH RIGHT. "BEST FRIENDS FOREVER" YOUR FACE. I really feel bad.. I really do.

Someone asked me once why I treat Tim like that, yknow, why I sacrifice a lot of stuff for him.. why I was willing to do anything just to make him happy.. Maybe its because I dont wanna think of my friendship with Tim as another mistake.. I dont want this to go wrong... I dont want this to be like what happened between me and Josue.. Ayoko na ulit masaktan. *and Tim, wish ko lang, hindi mo gagawin ung ginawa ni Josue..*

HAYYYY. Sheesh, miss ko na talaga si de Dios. HAHA. :)

2005-12-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

I really had fun today. Thank You.

Ay, Im gonna make kwento muna about yesterday... I had a not-so-nice day in school but I didnt really care coz yeah, it was Tim's birthday.. haha.. My Math LT was not easy.... Hayyyy.. I still feel bad about it.. After the test, my blockmates invited me to go with them coz they were gnna go to Eastwood.. But I didnt go with them coz I had a YM date with Timmyboo. HAHAHA. After YM-ming with him, I went to Raffi's house and we bonded.. hehe.. Raffi and I went to this adoration chapel.. It was so beautiful.. Hehe.. Around 8 pm, I met up with Nic for dinner.. Grabe, that was my first meal of that day.. as in since 6 am, di pa ako kumakain.. Hehe.. After dinner, we went to Starbucks to grab our favorite Belgian waffle and then, Kiddo was there din pala.. So yeah, we stayed for a while and we had a little chit chat.. Talking to Kiddo is always inspiring.. :) Nic and I really had fun having that meaningful conversation.. Then.. We went back to our own condo units.. I watched TV first b4 I hit the sack.. Hehe, but Nic slept around 4 am na coz of her Lit Reaction paper..

TODAY: I woke up around 8.30 and I went to Ateneo around 9.30 for my ACP. Hehe, it was fun since I was with Nic, Jose, Ron and Tonton. I miss those guys. :) I really got to appreciate the film that we watched kanina as our Alternative Class. I really learned a lot from it.. :) After the film showing, Nic and I left Katipunan and headed to our 3rd home, Glorietta.. Hahaha. My ate went with us and we had lunch in Fridays.. After having lunch, we watched Just like Heaven..

I LOVE THIS MOVIE. IT'S SUPERB. It was really sweet.. and I really couldnt stop my tears from rushing down my cheeks.. I've always loved romantic comedies like this and I guess this movie was really "heaven sent".. hehe.. I was texting Tim before the movie and he told me "I bet you're gonna cry.." and I really did cry.. A LOT. Haha, Tini is right, my tear factory is so overworked! Hehe, Im a hopeless romantic kasi and Im a sucker for movies like this.. haha, :) So this beats If Only as my 2nd all time favorite movie.. hehe, If Only's third na lang.. Syempre, 1st pa din ung My Best Friend's Wedding.. Haha, anyway, I really liked this movie.. I also like the cast.. I've always loved Reese Witherspoon and yeah, Mark Ruffalo too.. Hehe, I liked Mark coz of 13 going on 30.. hehehe.. Particular line that really made me go "Awwwwwwwww..." : Reese: "I think I know what my unfinished business is.. It's you.." .... Teeeheeee.. Watch it! It's better if you watch it with someone "special" though.. Hehe, kami kasi ni Nic, wala eh.. walang pwedeng makasamang "special.." ang layo kasi nila. HAHAHA.

After watching, Nic and I went window shopping.. Hehe, I was looking for another gift for Tim but yeah, I can't really make up my mind.. So ikot ikot lang kami ni Nic.. Our last stop was U.. We cant really leave Glorietta without going to U.. Hehe, so we checked out new stuff in the Havaianas corner and poof! I saw something that looked really cute.. and yeah, that's the picture..

Hehe.. It's a new style, it's called Havaianas Joy.. Haha, and yeah, for me, Havaianas=JOY. HAHA :) I just love Havieee flipflops.. Hehehe.. There were hawaiian flowers pa beside nung havaianas Hehe, naisip ko when I was in the counter na.. "Sorry na lang Tim.. Sa Sunday ko na lang bibilhin ung isang gift ko for you.." HAHA :)

Oh yeah, kilig time na naman.. Tim and I were texting a while ago and when he was about to sleep na, he texted me with this really sweet message.. "goodnight.. thanks for making my birthday better than ever.. :) hehe I love you.." ... Sweet ba? haha :) Wala lang..

Alright, I have to go, I'm sleepy na.. :) God Bless you guys!

2005-12-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TIM!!!!! I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu dearest bestfriend!!

Hehe, ang saya. 18 na si Tim :) Wala lang.. Im truly grateful kasi.. birthday niya.. Diba.. Ang saya talaga. 3 years na naming cine-celebrate ung birthday niya together.. Well not really TOGETHER.. coz nasa States siya ngayon pero.. yeah. together.. :) Sabi na we'll grow old together eh.. Ayos mehn. Haha. Ang sweet na masyado. :) Anyway, nitext ko na siya kani-kanina lang.. Pero.. hindi pa siya ngrreply kasi siya ay nasa iskool at natututo ng mga bagay bagay. Haha :) Hmmm.. O, seryoso na.. thankful ako today kasi its the birthday of someone who has been one of the people who have made my life much more meaningful and indeed, much more worth living.. Kasi through Tim, binigyan ako ni Lord ng: ULTIMATE BEST FRIEND, happy crush, shock absorber everytime may problem ako, crying shoulder/Kleenex na available anytime, # 1 fan ng corny jokes ko, driving force, clown na parating benta sakin, major inspiration, hmm.. ano pa ba? di ko na masulat lahat dito noh.. Haha, basta, nararamdaman ko na lang iyon. HAHA. Mushy na masyado to. Haha. * Oy Tim, uwi ka na dito, libre mo ko! HAHAHA * .. :) Hayyy.. Im really thankful kasi dumating siya sa buhay ko.. Bawing bawi tuloy lahat ng past hardships and sorrows ko with Josue. Galing talaga super ni Lord. :) Wala akong masabi.. Hayyy.. Sana makita ko na siya ulit.. Hehe, alam ko malapit na yun.. Ilang months na lang... pero Lord sana maging mas malapit pa.. HAHAHA :) Napapadalas na yung pag-iyak ko sa sobrang pagka-miss sa kanya eh.. UISH! DRAMA. hehe :) Pero totoo yan. *sorry, parang Im giving Tim a big break here ah!* HAHA :)

Yehey, di ako F sa 2nd Math Quiz ko.. D lang. HAHA. SOREEEE. 11/20. Hahaha. Napakahirap naman kasi eh.. 7 lang yata kaming pumasa. Teeheee. MATH LONG TEST KO BUKAS.. :) Sana maging okay naman.. Nako, ung ITM test kanina, SOREEEE. BAGSAK AKO. for sure, my gesh! napakahirap naman ng Excel na yan, feeling ko tuloy computer illiterate ako. Word and Powerpoint lang nagawa ko.. KAINIS TALAGA. ARGH. Dahil dun, hindi tuloy ako nakapag-GenRev kanina.. Sinayang ko lang effort at oras ko dun. Hahaha. :)

Hmm.. Siyempre, 7.30 class ko bukas tapos gising pa ako noh? HAHA. :) Hinintay ko talagang mag-12 para matext ko si hot bestfriend eh.. Hahaha. :) Tapos na-tempt ako mag-online.. Kaya blooooooogggg galore na naman ako..

Sana hindi umulan bukas. Kasi ang hirap maglakad sa Ateneo pag umuulan, lalo na kapag naka-Havaianas ako. Hehe. :) Ayun, Im gonna go to sleep na.. coz baka EYEBAGS GALORE na naman ako bukas.. Hahaha :) And may Long Test pala ako bukas, ay MAMAYA PALA. Haha, parang ang kulit ko na. :) Sige, ciao! God Bless! :)

2005-11-29T22:07:00.000+08:00

Something that completed my day:

Tim made me this testimonial in friendster.. "exclusive? wow, i feel so special haha this ray of sunshine is my bestfriend, my guardian angel on earth =) i call her "ate" even if technically i am older by 14 days, haha shes just like the sis i never had, one of the reasons why shes a treasure in my life, sometimes i dont wanna share my treasure but then that would be selfish and im not really selfish...nvrmind haha anyway shes funny, (kinda corny but i like it hehe), friendly, religious, and my definition of a true friend =) she wont let you down and shes always there when you need her.. hey ate, just wanna say that if i were to die in a minute or two, *knock on wood* id thank God for that one moment in mirc when i saw a "hi" next to your nick =) who wouldve thought that out of a million others, i would meet the one person who i now call the best, even if you are far away, you'll always be in my <3.."

Hayy. Now, that was really touching. Duhba? Minsan lang maging sweet yang si Tim kaya pag dumadating yung time na yun, big deal talaga sakin. Hehe, Yung part na "sometimes i dont wanna share my treasure..blah blah".. I asked him kung kanino niya ako ayaw i-share. Sagot nya? "Kay Josue." .... Awwwwww... Wala lang. :) I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu Tim! Hahaha.

Anyway, I shared that with Mary.. Hehe, tapos yung reply nya: "Awwww.. the sweetest thing..." hehe, then I replied with something, nakalimutan ko na.. But her reply was "Im happy with what Tim said to you.. Lam mo un, kahit malayo, kahit minsan lang, kahit kailangan talaga ng effort, bawing bawi naman diba?"... Hehe... So True.

School was okay kanina. I started my day with Physics Lecture, then during our 3 hour break, we hung out lang sa Moro.. then after, Math time na naman. After math, I went home na agad coz Tim was waiting for me.. Then.. Chat galooooreeee.. Hehe. *Happiness* ... :) Nic and I went jogging kanina.. Ang gwapo ni Wesley Gonzales.. Wala lang, Gec Chia pa din to.. Hahaha. :)

Jonah, Tim's classmate, asked me to make him a testimonial for his blue book thing.. Look at what I wrote..

Indeed, Jonah is a genuine embodiment of simplicity and chastity, which his name literally connotes. It’s not only I who could attest to the fact that he really serves as an inspiration to a lot of people when it comes to his kind-heartedness and strong faith in the Lord. Beyond the crazy, wacky and reserved side of this guy, there lies the indescribable and incomparable personality of Jonah Faustino who never fails to enliven the lives of the people dear to him. Having someone like Jonah in your life would give you a sense of contentment. Definitely, he is someone you would absolutely love to be with in your next life. DRAMA NOH? Haha.

Hectic day na naman tomorrow.. Pray for me guys, I'm gonna take my ITM test bukas.. God Bless you all! :)

2005-11-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

"Your days of grief will come to an end. I the Lord, will be your eternal light, more lasting than the sun and moon." - Jeremiah 33:20 ... I visited Pattee's blog a while ago and I found this verse there.. Sakto. Tagos sa laman Pare. Astig talaga si Lord. Alam na alam Niya na that's what I needed.

Hay grabe, nakakapagod tong araw na to. SHOPPING GALORE. Gumising ako ng 9 am yata tapos nag-Greenhills kami. OA naman sa dami yung tao. Nakakainis. Pero okay lang, may mga nabili naman ako. After Greenhills, akala ko pagod na si Mommy. Hindi pa pala, kaya pumunta kami sa World Trade Center.. May bazaar daw kasi.. Nako, OA din sa dami yung tao sa bazaar. Actually, there were 2 bazaars sa World Trade kanina. Tas meron pang isa sa Le Pavilion. Hehehe. Sa World Trade, may nabili akong mga clothes. tapos.. May binili pa akong notepad for Nic and me. Haha, ang cute kasi. So gusto ko meron din siya. Hahaha.

When I got home, nagtagumpay na naman ako sa pag-box out sa kapatid ko pagdating sa PC. Haha, Baket? Online kasi si Tim. Ayun, masaya na naman ako. Pero parang OA na kami sa pagka-sweet. Nilalanggam na ako eh. Hahaha. Pero okay lang, kaysa naman sa cold diba? Mas okay na to. Actually, ako naman nagsisimula nyang mga kabadingan/ cheesy stuff na yan. Nakakakilig naman kasi eh.. And pag wala kang boyfriend, sino pang sasabihan mo ng ganun kundi ang best friend mo.... DUHBA??? And sinusulit ko na din tong weekend kasi alam ko na pag may classes na ulit, di na naman kami makakapagusap niyan.. Kahapon nga pala, one year na siyang wala dito. Wala lang. Ayoko na magdrama pa. Pero one year nang may puwang ang puso ko. Hmm.. May sense ba yun??? Basic Filipino ah? ... Joke. Haha. Ay sabi pala ni Tim kanina, "you were sweet when you were drunk.." ... Loko yun, parati kaya akong sweet sa kanya.. Di niya napapansin un? HAHA.

After chatting with Tim, nagsimba kami nila Daddy. At take note, 6 pm ang mass.. 5.20 yata andun na kami. Special kasi ung Mass kanina coz of the "ceremonial lighting" of the Christmas lights dito sa base.. Haha, Pasko na nga talaga. So dahil maaga kami, we went to the Adoration Chapel muna.. I love being in that place.. Iba ung feeling eh.. Thank You Lord for letting me be with You kanina.. Anyway, pagka-light nung mga Christmas lights, tumugtog ung PAF band ng mga Christmas songs..Haha, ang kulit, sakto, sabay pa kaming kumanta ni Daddy. Tas ung Latin lyrics pa nung O Come Let Us Adore Him ung kinanta namin. Haha, Junior talaga ako nun. Ang saya.

Yehey, no classes bukas. Dahil kay Andres Bonifacio, Atapang Atao. HAHA. San ko ba pinagkuku-kuha tong mga sinasabi ko? Waaah. Nababaliw na yata ako. Haha. Pero hindi pa rin ako free bukas. HELLO CALCULUS BOOK, MY OLD FRIEND. SANA LAHAT NA LANG NG LIMITS DITO SA MUNDO, HINDI NAG-EEXIST. SANA HINDI MARUNONG MAGDERIVE NG KUNG ANO ANO YUNG MGA TAO. PARA WALA NA KAMING PROBLEMAHIN SA CALCULUS. HAHAHA. *Pero joke lang yun ah, gusto ko naman ang Math eh. Nahihirapan lang talaga ako ngayon. Haha, Kailangan kong ayusin to. 6 UNITS BABY. Haha, Kundi, Goodbye to the Dean's List.

3 official school days lang kami this week sa Arneyeo. HAHA. Sa Friday kasi, ACP day [Alternative Class Program].. Sayang ung GenRev na ACP. Gusto ko pa naman talaga yun.. Kaya para magka-ACP kami, magf-film showing na lang kami. Hulaan nyo kung anong movie!.. HAHA. BATAS MILITAR. Yes. Ang saya! HAHA. Okay lang, at least wala kaming 4 cuts sa English. HAHA.

Gusto ko mag-States. Now na. Sana kaya kong lumipad. HAHA.

Wala na ako masabi. Inaantok na din kasi ako. Hihihi. :) Good night! God bless!

2005-11-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

Hey! My day yesterday didnt start out so good, first period was Math, we had our 20-point quiz.. And guess what, F na naman ako.. ARGH. I really felt so bad.. Coz I know I studied naman but then it was just really hard... So after, I called Tim coz I know Ill feel better if I get to talk to him..

Anyway, my remaining classes were okay naman.. Had Fil, English and Lit.. After my classes, Nic and I went to New Manila via LRT2.. We attended GenRev night.. It was AMAZING. The challenge to us that night was for us to be devoted, to live devoted lives. Devoted in the truest sense of the word. :) We met more GenRev-vers and it was really fun.. We cant wait til Dec. 30, the GenRev night for next month.. JOIN US! :)

After GenRev, we went back to the condo and Nic and I had a one on one vodka session.. Goodness, sobrang wasted. Hahaha, that was our way of celebrating Thanksgiving coz our best friends were busy celebrating Thanksgiving in Fremont, California and in Reno, Nevada.. Hehe.. When I was kinda tipsy na, I called Tim and I told him stuff.. like uberly sweet stuff.. Feelng ko he got gulat eh.. Haha, for the first time, I threw up.. and ilang beses un ah.. sa condo.. sa labas ng Prince David.. hahaha.. Buti na lang hindi madali malasing si Nic.. Im really thankful coz she took care of me.. Haha,sino pa ba mgaalaga sakin eh one on one session nga un? hehe :) Pictures are at THIS ALBUM

Yey, long weekend.. pero dami naman homeworks.. ARGH.. *hmm.. Magis dapat..* hahaha :) Ciao!

2005-11-25T07:33:00.000+08:00

I read Kiddo's recent entry in GenRev.net a while ago.. Kiddo is like our "GenRev leader" and I really got inspired by his entry.. So I just thought of placing it here as well to inspire the people who drop by my blog :) ...

"I had this classmate growing up. He was stocky, of average height for a kid his age, with curly brown hair, green-brown eyes, and a densely freckled face. His name was Nicholas Bolt. But my friends and I fondly referred to him as "Bolt," as it is very cool for elementary school upperclassmen to refer to each other by last names. If you ask people who knew me as a child, you might hear stories about how I would play naughty practical jokes, body slam people to wake them up, turn on elevator and fire alarms, eat bugs and food peeled from the ground, torment my older sister, and randomly pull my younger brother's trousers down in public. I wasn't the nicest of kids.

But I was second rate compared to Bolt who was in a league of his own. While I enjoyed being involved in some degree of chaos, Bolt was a true troublemaker. I had a strong distaste for consequence and getting told off; but Bolt seemed to thrive on getting reprimanded by authorities. It was like when the teachers would tell him off, he would interpret their intense anger as impassioned pep talks encouraging him to pull more effective pranks the next time around. At age nine, he was into BB guns (which were illegal in Singapore, where we lived) and would go around shooting birds and sometimes neighbors; he was involved in the BB gun economy with high-school kids. On the playground, he would mercilessly tackle anyone in his way, mowing down younger and more fragile children, left and right, on impulse. One day, we were rollerblading, and one of my novice buddies was struggling to stay on his feet. Along came Bolt rolling at full speed with a smile on his face, twirling a fist in the air, and soon lodging a solid upper-cut into the solar plexus of my friend the novice skater who landed back first on some steel grating. One Saturday morning, Bolt decided that he would invite himself over to my house. In panic, I tried to talk him out of it over the phone, but to no avail. His dad dropped him off, and Bolt waved goodbye to his father with the kindest smile. And as soon as his dad was gone, it was time for trouble.

When we moved on to middle school, I realized that I didn't want to be associated with a person like Bolt any longer. It's not that I feared Bolt, but I felt as though frequenting his company would...ruin my life forever. When I would see him at school, I would literally run and hide, with that pre-teen fear of being uncool by association (class "A" troublemakers are rarely cool), and the aversion to getting into trouble with teachers and such. Troublemakers tend to send people running.

But strangely, I've come to an insight where the role of "troublemaker" is a quite positive thing. I think God has called us to be trouble-makers. Not in the way Bolt was, but in the opposite way, in a more poetic and positive way, making trouble for the evil in the world. We've got this nice and friendly view of the Christianity, but if you look throughout the Bible, God's people were the Devil's worst nightmare! Their holy living and audacious, outspoken faith in God, their notorious conversion and transformation were weapons of mass destruction in the world of darkness, evil, injustice and sin.

When you step onto the scene at your school do the demons tremble? Do you feel the authority of Christ in your bones, empowering you to make a difference? When you begin talking to your friends about Jesus, do the forces of darkness hear minor key organ music, heralding the end of days? When it comes to dealing with darkness, I believe we're called to make trouble for the enemy, war in the heavenlies. Not trouble for people, for our struggle is not with people, and the war is not against them. But we've got to walk with the authority of people who are going to make it difficult for the darkness to prevail through holy living and unashamed witnessing in word, action and lifestyle. That's how Jesus made "trouble" back in the day. That's how the saints and heroes of old did it.

"For our struggle is not against enemies of blood and flesh, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers of this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places." Ephesians 6:12 "- Kiddo

AMEN. :) Anyway, Im really excited for the GenRev Night tonight.. But yeah, I need your prayers guys.. I'm gonna take my 2nd mind boggling Calculus quiz in roughly an hour... God Bless you all! :)

2005-11-24T15:53:00.000+08:00

I never thought that the 2nd semester would be this stressful and this frustrating. It's only the 2nd week of the sem but I am already worrying about my grades. I know that's so grade conscious of me, but I really think I won't do so well this time around. My Physics class is really different. It's not like the other sessions that are book-based. Basically, we talk about anything under the sun and connect it to Physics. That's why Im kinda worried about our Long Tests... Coz I really wouldnt know what he'll give to us sa test coz yeah, un nga, our discussions are not like the normal discussions.. Oh well, I think I just have to be optimistic about this.. Sabagay, I enjoyed our discussion naman kanina so okay lang...

To add to that, I think I'm not gonna do so well in my Ma19-Applied Calculus for Business class under Mr. Bataller. Yes, MR. BATALLER. He's really a great teacher. I mean, I enjoy our Math sessions with him but the tests he gives are just so... UGH!... Two days ago, we had a short quiz.. Guess what score I got, 2/10. Argh. F. To think I already had Calculus when I was in 4th year, I still failed Sir Bataller's test.. Tomorrow, he's gonna give us a mini long test.. I studied with my blockmates a while ago in Moro but I'm gnna study again later.. I'm just taking a break from all the schoolwork.

Anyway, something kinda scary happened a while ago after studying in Moro. I went to the Ateneo HS campus coz Im doing a birthday video for my best friend so I went to the 4-F classroom.. Then suddenly, the guard approached us and told us that shooting a video or taking pictures of the campus wasnt allowed and we have to get a permit first.. My heart was really pounding coz I thought he's gonna ask us to go to the Principal's Office or something.. HAHAHA. But fortunately, he just told us to secure a permit first next time coz I showed him my Ateneo ID naman... HAHAHA. Talk about getting in trouble for your best friend. HAHAHA.

Im really excited about the GenRev night tomorrow. I really enjoyed when I went there last September 29. Nic's gonna go for the first time and I pray that she'll find it fun :) ... I love GenRev. I really do. Yesterday in our regular Wednesday GenRev session, I once again received the Lord's assurance that , just like what a song says, "He will make a way when there seems to be no way".. Romans 8:28 says: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

Oh yeah, I already cancelled my 3 Friendster accounts coz Im scared that some hacker will hack that na naman. Goodbye to the Friendster world. HAHA.

Ah yeah, Happy Thanksgiving! hehehe :) I have to go, ciao!

2005-11-21T15:36:00.000+08:00

21 na naman ulit ngayon. Ang saya. Pero sad kasi di ko siya nakachat. Kasi naman, nung break, I was looking for Johara kasi I wanna use her XDA.. Hehe, im-message ko lang sana si Tim sa YM.. But she went somewhere daw kaya yun, di ko na tuloy na-message.. Anyway, Happy 21st dear.. Thanks for always putting up with me.. Hehehe.. I love you for countless reasons.. You know who you are. :)

To my surprise, I've been enjoying our Math sessions with Mr. Bataller.. But tomorrow, we're gonna have a quiz so I need your prayers for that.. Hehehe.. Ack, physics again tomorrow.. But malay natin, my teacher will eventually turn out okay din naman pala..

Oh yeah, I saw my "happy crush" kanina sa caf.. Pero hindi nakatali ung hair nya eh.. Okay lang, cute pa rin naman.. Hahaha..

We had a quiz in Lit kanina lang.. Goodluck naman, madami akong nakalimutan dun sa pinabasa niya sa amin.. Haha, sana i-consider niya ung ibang answers ko.. :)

Anyway, wala na akong makwento.. Dami ko pa kailangan gawin tonight.. Hayy. Back to reality na nga talaga. Ciao!

2005-11-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

Yehey, weekend na naman. Ang saya, I've been looking forward to this weekend ever since Monday.. Wala lang.. I just miss my family.. and our house.. Hehehe..

Ay! Goodluck na lang sa akin sa Physics Lecture.. Ung prof ko, it turns out na hindi pala siya okay.. C+ lang ung highest grade na binigay niya dun sa class ng friend ko last sem.. Naman! C+.. eh NatSci lang naman yun eh.. Nakakainis.. Pero yeah, I want to look at this as a challenge.. Hmmmm.. Bring it on! But feeling ko, ung high QPI ko last sem, one time big time lang.. Medyo malas ako sa teachers ngayon eh.. Pero kaya to..

Napanood ko na ang Harry Potter 4.. At last.. Ang ganda.. Natuwa ako.. Di sayang ung 120 pesos ko.. Pero sabi nung mga nakabasa ng book, the book's better daw.. Malay ko ba.. Di ko naman binabasa ang Harry Potter.. Pinapanood ko lang ung flicks.. Hahahaha... Basta, okay siya.. Pero jologs ung mga nasa likod namin eh.. Kainis. HAHA.

Ano pa ba, hmmm.. 27 days na lang, 18th birthday ko na.. Wala lang.. HAHAHA..

May new happy crush nga pala ako.. ComTech ung course nya.. Haha, masaya ako pag T-Th.. kahit na sa mga araw na un ay may Physics Lecture ako.. Basta. HAHA.

Oo nga pala, medyo happy ako today.. kasi naka-YM ko si Tim kanina through Johara's XDA.. Wele leng.. Tas nagpunta nga kaming Glorietta diba? eh midnight madness, kulit namin ni nic.. Pumunta kmi sa Terranova tapos ngtry kami nung mga winter coats.. Ang saya.. Hahaha

Ayun, wala na ko masabi... Maaga pa ko tomorrow.. Bibili pa ako ng Calculus book sa may Quezon AVenue.. Naman kasi.. Out of stock sa ORP and sa National Bookstore- Katipunan, Glorietta and Greenbelt yung Calculus book namin..

2005-11-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

Hmmmmm. Tinatamad talaga ako mag-blog. Wala kasing exciting thing na nangyari the past few days. Pero dahil wala talaga akong magawa, sige na nga. HAHAHA.

Ayun, 2nd sem na sa Ateneo.. Okay naman ung teachers ko.. Pero goodluck na lang sa Ma19.. Goodluck na lang sakin pag papaulanan na kami ng Long Tests ni Bataller...pero dont get me wrong, masaya kami sa class pag Math time, kulit kasi ni Sir Bataller.. ang hilig magsabi na nice daw ung mga functions nya. Weird lang. HAHAHA. Sa English, ang saya kasi Darvin pa din kami. Yahoo. And ung Fil teacher ko, masaya kasi.. di siya straight na guy. HAHAHA. Syempre beadle ever pa din ako... Ang saya talaga. Pero namimiss ko pa din si Mr. Popa.

Grabe, nag-GenRev ako kanina. Astig talaga. Sarap talaga ng feeling kapag nakakapag-GenRev ako.. kaya GenRev ung pinili namin ni Nic for our Alternative Class Program.. Thank You Lord for that. :)

Showing na ung Harry Potter 4 today. Yehes, into Harry Potter na rin ako.. dahil kay Tim. Haha.. Wala lang, ang saya din pala noh? HAHAHA. Kainis, nakanood na si ate.. tapos tong si Nic, bukas naman manonood.. OA tong si Nic, hala excited na excited na para bukas.. Di na daw siya makakatulog mamayang gabi.. hahaha :) Di naman ako ganun ka-fanatic... Ang di lang siguro makakapagpatulog sakin ay yung pag-uwi ni Tim kinabukasan.. IF EVER LANG DUMATING NA YUNG ARAW NA YUN. Shucks sana malapit na. HAHAHA. WALA LANG.

Hala, ang lapit na ng birthday ni Tim.. Di ko pa nasisimulan ung birthday video na gift ko sa kanya.. Hayyy.. Busy daw kasi ang Ateneo F boys ngayon... Naku.. Sana naman magmaterialize yung plano ko noh... Syempre bestfriend ko yun, ayoko naman na simple birthday greeting lang... Lord help me...

Oh well, yun lang. God bless! *Tim and Tini, miss ko na kayo! HAHAHA*

2005-11-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

I HATE THAT EFFIN HACKER. Naiinis talaga ako.. Now kailangan ko pa problemahin ung pagbabayad dun sa mga taong naloko niya??? ARGH.

Hayy. Dahil di ko na talaga kaya tong nangyayari, tumawag ako k Tim sa States. Biglaan. Hayy. I really feel so bad.

*Birthday shoutout to Bryan Pineda.. Happy birthday. :)

Hayy. Kalungkot, bumalik na sila Jedd sa Hawaii. Im really gonna miss that kid...

Im really not in the mood to blog. Warning lang to everyone: start securing your passwords.. Baka maging victims din kayo.. HAYYY.

2005-11-07T17:26:00.000+08:00

BACK TO REALITY. That's what I told Nic a while ago when we got to the flyover before reaching Ateneo.. Haha, we really are back to reality.. Tapos na ang maliligayang araw namin..

Nic got here around 7-ish and we went to Ateneo around 8-ish to get our grades and our regforms.. When we got to the Cov Courts, we saw Nic's blockmates already.. Chika chika ng konti then we lined up na.. GEEZ. SOBRANG HABA NG PILA.. Lesson learned: Wag maging atat at magpa-late sa pagkuha ng grades at regform.. Mas maiksi kasi ung pila around 11 am.. HAHAHA.

Anyway highway, nung nakapila na ako, sobrang kinakabahan na ako.. I was praying na "Lord.. sana at least 3 ung QPI ko.. please..." So yun, ako na, so binigay na sakin ung course card ko.. una kong tiningnan ung English grade ko.. S. YAHOO. Kahit basic, at least S.. HAHAHA. Tapos I looked at my semestral QPI. Goodness. 3.65.. YEAH BABY. Nung nakita ko un, tumingala ako tas binulong ko sa sarili ko.. "Thank You Lord." .... Hehehe.. super saya ko talaga.. And dun ko pa lang tiningnan ung individual grades ko.. Yehey, in-A ako ni Sir Popa sa Fil 11.. Tapos ung C ko sa ES lab nung middle ng sem, naging B+ na.. Yipee.. and ung Math grade ko, B.. YEYYY! I love Mr. Muga!!! hihihi :) Sorry kung para na kong ewan dito.. haha, masaya lang kasi talaga ako..HAHAHA.. Sa sobrang kasiyahan, di ko na naubos ung Spongebob lollipop ko na favorite ko pa naman.. HAHAHA..

After getting my grades, sinamahan ko si Nic sa line nya then we went to Dela Costa Hall to get Nic's Lit grade.. but her teacher wasnt there so we left na lang.. While Nic was with her blockmates, I went with Mary muna kasi wala siyang ksama to get her grades.. Tapos after, Nic and I went to Gateway.. I bought tickets for Wednesday's PBA games.. we had lunch.. Ikot ikot.. Hanap birthday and Christmas gift for Tim.. HAHAHA.. OA pala sa mahal magpa-DHL or FedEx noh? haha, isang CD lang ipapadala mo tas aabutin ng 1000+??? Naku, mamomroblema na naman ako nito.. So yun, window window shopping lang kmi... Then nakasalubong namin si.. ACE.. hahaha.. gulat talaga kami ni Nic.. tas ayun, I ended up bringing Ace home kasi super haba daw ng pila sa MRT.. kawawa naman diba.. HAHAHAHA... Pero at least we had time to bond sa car.. Teeheee!!

Yeah, when I got my grades nga pala, I wanted to text my parents na.. But naisip ko, wag muna.. surprise na lang pag-uwi.. so hulaan nyo kung sino tinawagan ko? .... HAHA.. Si Tim.. mahal nga eh.. 40+ pesos nabawas sa prepaid ko.. 2 minutes lang un ah.. pero okay lang.. Mahal ko naman ung best friend kong un eh.. hahaha..

Anyway, this day has been REALLY AMAZING. Thanks to You. Astig Ka talaga! Ibang klase Ka Lord! To You be all the glory!!!

Tulad nga nung YM status message ni Jam kanina, "I'm all set for the second sem!".. God Bless you all! :)

2005-11-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

Got this from Tini ..

10 years ago I…

— Was in my 2nd grade

— Was always well-behaved in my reading class

— Had the best adviser ever.. yipeee.. ms dimalibot. haha

— was already addicted to pictures/camwhoring

— Was already outgoing

5 years ago I…

— Was in 7th grade.. 7G.. YEAHBOI. Champions in vball, softball.. bsta champion section!

— Had my first boyfriend. huwaw. december 8. haha.

— ran for gssg grade 7 rep and i lost. HAHAHA.

— Was kinda humiliated by my HELE teacher, Ms. Laig, during one of our baking classes.. HAHAHA.

— became bestfriends with my now ex-bestfriend Josue Jamlang..

1 year ago I…

— was an ALL-AROUND GIRL.. student/student leader

— had the most amazing school year..

— got an 85 in English nung 3rd grading period.. [lowest grade ko un buong HS life ko..] THANKS TO ILIAD. boo.

— was deeply hurt by my ex-bestfriend Josue..

— Was left by someone who I dearly love..

Yesterday I…

— went swimming with my chums!

— was ala- DR. LOVE.

— sang my heart out in RedBox

— got frustrated when Sam was voted out

— talked to Timmybaby.. Just like every day..

5 snacks I enjoy…

— Breadsticks from Tea Square

— Mrs. Fields cookies

— sour cream w/ a scoop of butter popcorn from Taters

— nachos ng fridays

— crepes from crazy crepes.. hahaha..

5 songs I know all the words to…

— Bring it all back ng S Club 7.. YEAHBOI. hahaha

— Now that You're near

— No one else comes close

— Inside your heaven

— By Your side

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars…

— Donate to charity.

— Visit Tim in the States

— Buy a yacht..

— Go to Venice

— Have a shopping spree!

5 favorite TV shows…

— One Tree Hill

— Gilmore Girls

— Desperate Housewives

– FRIENDS

– Amazing Race

5 biggest joys…

— A call/text message/YM message from TIM

— being with my family on a vacation

— having prayer sessions with GenRev/YFC

— When my Chums have get togethers/beach trips

— when im excelling in whatever im doing..

Ayun. Patapos na ang sembreak. Balik Ateneo ako bukas to get my grades.. WAAAHH.. PRAY FOR ME GUYS.. Teeheee..

Naffeel nyo na ba ung Christmas spirit? AKO HINDI PA. HAYYY.

Ciao!

2005-10-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

HEY THERE. It's been quite a while since I last posted an entry here. Anyway, yesterday was SUPER FUN. Mary's dinner first @ Fridays then Anica's party/inuman session @ her house. PICTURES? YEAH. Click the "PICTURES GALORE" link jan o.. sa left.. HAHAHA. I went home around 1 am. TIPSEEEYYY. WASTEEEEDDD. RED AS A TOMATO.. hahaha. Yeah, I went home early nga eh. But no choice eh, if I stayed later pa, wala na akong way home. HAHAHA. When I got home, I texted Nic and I asked her if Tim was online.. And yeah, I kinda rested first then I called Tim na. Grabe, my voice was like super NOT OKAY. coz I made the most out of the Magic Mic. HAHAHAHA. We talked til like 2.20 then we went online pa after. I slept na around 3 am since Tim had to prepare na coz theyre gnna watch a movie daw..

My sister woke me up around 8 am kanina coz she told me to pack my stuff na coz we're gonna go to batangas coz yeah, my tito died na.. around 7 am.. I was really shocked when I knew that.. I wasnt able to utter a single word.. Hayy.. That news really made me sad coz that tito of mine loves to make me kulit... Hayy.. I'm really gonna miss him.. But I know naman that he's in a better place now.. I know Siya na ung bahala sa kanya.. So yup, when my parents got here this morning, they told us to stay here first then sunod na lang kami there tomorrow.. coz my sister was still in baguio.. so we'll leave tomorrow morning and I'll be gone for like 5 days or so..

I was bloghopping a while ago and I saw Tricia M.'s previous post and I decided to make a similar one.. So yeah, I hate to admit this but I miss my school.. *Not the schoolwork ah, basta. HAHAHA. Konti lang yata to pero okay na to. HAHAHA. I LOVE ATENEO

- dahil duh??? Ateneo yon. HAHAHA.

- dahil maganda ung college campus..

- dahil mapa-kanan o mapa-kaliwa, may HOT, quality guys kang makikita.. Teehee..

- kahit ibang level ang Math ng Ateneo..

- kahit walang aircon karamihan ng mga classrooms..

- dahil free kami pumili ng PE namin.. HAHAHA...

- dahil may mahaba kaming sembreak..

- kahit na may summer classes kami..

- dahil gwapo ung UAAP players namin..

- kahit madulas ung mga walkways kapag umuulan..

- dahil super cool ng mga Atenista.. YEAHBOI.

- dahil masarap ung Roastbeef ng Gui sa Caf up.. HAHAHA.

- kahit maraming higad sa Quad 1..

- dahil hindi ganun ka-terror ung mga professors..

- kahit sobrang daming papers na pinapagawa..

- kahit may dress code sa JGSOM..

- dahil hindi ganun ka-polluted ang environment compared sa Taft? HAHAHA.

- kahit di kami nananalo sa Cheerdance competition

- kahit di kami nanalo against La Salle this season..

- kahit sobrang nakakagulat ang biglaang pagtugtog ng babble sa Caf down during lunch time..

- dahil lahat ng tao, nakangiti palagi.. Ü

- dahil at home na at home ako sa school na to..

- at syempre, dahil DITO ko SIYA nakilala two years ago..

* Win or lose, it's the school I choose. This is the place where I belong..*

Wele leng.. wala lang ako malagay sa post ko.. HAHAHA.

Happy birthday MIKA RAFLORES, ANICA REYES AND KEVIN MIZUCHI! Love you all!

Anyway skyway, I'm gonna miss Y!M-ing and YOU. Yeah, you know who you are. I'll be back soon. God Bless!

2005-10-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna think of this as another mistake...

Hayy. I'm B.O.R.E.D... So what were the FUN stuff that I did today?.. Hmm.. I was online, watched TV, watched Saved!, talked to Jam and Nic on the phone, then watched PBB. ANG FUN NOH? Can someone please save me from this boredom.. puhlease!

I was chatting with Tim knina.. He had some "topak moments" again.. Hayy.. ~~Nahihirapan na ako... Paulit ulit na lang kasi eh..~~ Oh well.. Best friend ko eh.. Kaya ko pa to..

Yey! Tomorrow, DVD marathon ako @ Nic's place.. Yipeeee!! I really cant wait for Saturday... Mary's 18th back to back with Anica's 18th.. FUN!

Sheesh, wala na akong masabi. Sige. Paalam.

2005-10-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

Mas madaling mang-iwan kaysa maiwanan...

Tim I hope you could read this.. So you'll know how I feel everyday..

Today was just amazing.. I slept around 3.30 am na.. Haha, I know, EYELUGGAGE na talaga.. But no biggie.. Para naman kay best friend eh.. Hehehehe.. I called him around 1 am.. [GOOD THING THE PLDT BUDGET CARD WORKED NA..].. We talked for like 40-ish minutes.. Hehehe.. It was fun.. LIKE SUPER KADUPER.. Hayy.. That conversation made me miss him more.. We talked about super random stuff.. Hehe.. It gave me this feeling that he's just there in San Juan.. It didnt seem like we were a thousand miles away from each other.. After talking, we chat naman in YM.. Haha, O diba, di kami nagsasawa sa isa't isa.. Hehehe.. I stayed up til 3.30 nga.. I wouldve stayed up later than that pa but ang kulit ni Tim eh.. He wanted me to sleep na.. So yeah, I slept na.. I woke up kanina around 11.40 am.. HAHAHA :) HUWAW. Record un ah.. If you are one of my close friends, you would know how early I wake up everyday.. HAHAHA.. Something went wrong in the middle of our conversation.. I dont know, bigla lang kaming naging moody.. Haha, but it was all good kasi naayos naman namin eventually.. haha, astig, we fit together talaga...

Anyway, Im excited for tomorrow.. Yeah, Nic and I will be going to CSA!! HAHAHA.. Wele leng.. Yun lang.. Hahaha, basta happy ako today.. Bakit? Birthday ko ba? WHAHAHAHA..

Thank Youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu Lord. You're AMAZING.

2005-10-21T11:30:00.000+08:00

Hayy.. Im kinda pissed off.. We were supposed to have a slumber party tonight at my condo.. My dad said okay na last night, but he texted me this morning and told me that there's gonna be this big rally so its kinda dangerous. ARGH. I wanna leave this country. Everything's just so effed up. BOO.

Renz just texted me and told me na plan B daw, sa house na lang ni Renz.. so nagpaalam ako.. and Yehey, hindi ako pinayagan. Damn. I hate being treated like a child. Come on.. I'll be turning 18 2 months from now. ARGH. Hayy.. I love being a military daughter.. NOT.

It's during these times when I appreciate Tim's simplest attempts to make me smile...

tim: i love you

tim: super extra kaduper

tim: hehe

ysel: pauso ah.. hehe :)

ysel: mwah!! :)

tim: haha ok ba?

ysel: ok! hehe :) wala ako masabi.. hehe :)

ysel: hottie, 11 na :)

tim: hehehe

tim: time to go na?

ysel: yeah, u have to sleep na.. .

tim: alright

ysel: happy 21st again :)

tim: happy 21st again

tim: ay

tim: hehe

ysel: gaya gaya ka ng sinasabi ah! haha :)

tim: haha

tim: sorry i was thinkin the same thing hehe

ysel: haha, bestfriends talaga eh.. haha :) amazing :)

tim: hehe

tim: cant explain it

ysel: yeah.. haha :) goodnight dear :)

ysel: sleep well :) good luck on ur test tom :) i know ur gnna ace it na naman.. :) mwah!

tim: goodnight

tim: haha i hope so

tim: thanks

tim: goodnight

tim: talk to you tom hehe

ysel: ill catch you tmorrw :)

tim: not if i run fast

tim: nvrmnd

ysel: righttt.. haha :)

ysel: its funny :)

ysel: u made me smile.. haha :)

tim: hehe

tim: hahaha

ysel: sige na :) byee :) mwah!

tim: thats one of the things i miss most

ysel: what?

tim: your smile

tim: hehe

ysel: hahaha :) ang cute mo talaga :)

tim: hehe

tim: byee

ysel: ull see it again soon :) haha

ysel: byee :)

tim: haha

tim: i know i will

Happy 26th Timmyboo. No goodbyes beb. I love you like crazy.

2005-10-18T18:39:00.000+08:00

This is the ultimate sign of BOREDOM... Posting a blog entry every freakin' day... And to add to that, it's friggin' SEMBREAK! I shouldnt be BORED! I should be HAVING FUN! But thanks to my DLSU friends who I love so much but who are under a trimester RULE, Haha, I cant have absolute fun [on a daily basis, on that case..].. We can just go out during weekends of this month-long sembreak.. Damn.. Maybe I should do what Mika V. told me the other night.. "Make the most out of your Atenean friends!" ... HAHAHA ... O, Atenean friends ko.. Gimik?? Outing?? Game ako! HAHAHAHA *wink*

On a lighter note, even though I'm b.o.r.e.d., I still have a reason to smile since I GET TO CHAT WITH TIM EVERYDAY... huwaw! diba, JOVIALITY! BLISS! HAPPINESS! HAHAHAHA... Oi! Kung gusto niyong makakita ng gwapo, click nyo to.. YOU'RE SO HANDSOME! Hehe, Ayos ba? Best friend ko yan! HAHAHA, Sorry Tim, wala talaga akong magawa eh.. HAHAHA :)

Oh yeah, my sister received this email from a friend and she shared to me what's in the message.. and Im gonna share it to you as well.. This is what Precious Lara Quigaman, the Filipina who recently bagged the Ms. International title, answered during the Q&A part of the pageant.. And reading this answer made me prouder to be a Filipino...

Q: "What do you say to the people of the world who have typecasted Filipinos as nannies?"

Precious Lara Quigaman: "I take no offense in being typecasted as a nanny. But I do take offense that the educated people of the world have somehow denigrated the true sense and meaning of what a nanny is. Let me tell you what she is. She is someone who gives more than she takes. She is someone you trust to look after the very people most precious to you - your child, the elderly, yourself. She is the one who has made a living out of caring and loving other people. So to those who have typecasted us as nannies, thank you. It is a testament to the loving and caring culture of the Filipino people. And for that, I am forever proud and grateful of my
roots and culture."

Anyway, Im excited to watch a movie and go shopping tomorrow... But we'll go to the mall AFTER I chat with Tim.. HAHA, Kung hindi, masisira ang daily routine ko..

Oh yeah, I have a dilemma.. Coz on November 7, our course cards and our regforms will be distributed in school.. And last night, I found out that TanTan's gonna be celebrating his birthday on that day din pala.. And he'll treat his block daw during lunchtime.. And he wants me to be there.. I REALLY LOVE TANTAN, I mean he's one of my closest college buddies and I want to be there.. But the situation's kinda messed up pa.. basta.. ARGH. Sige na nga, bahala na lang.. Gagawin ko to for Tan.. HIHIHI :)

Sige, magdi-dinner na ko.. Toodles!

2005-10-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

Ang puso, ginawa para magmahal at taguan ng nararamdaman.. Kaya bago mahuli ang lahat, ung nakatago sa puso, iparamdam na.. Baka kasi mahal ka rin niya, naghihintay lang pala siya...

Thanks for that Pepi..

Anyway, I was kinda weird today coz I only had 7 hours of sleep... Hahaha.. I slept around 3 am and I got up around 10 am.. Then I opened the TV and YEHEY. HOMEBOY na.. and guest si JOHN ARIGO! So I immediately texted my # 1 John Arigo fan buddy, Nic.. HAHAHA :) Yeah, in the show, he sang Magtanim Ay Di Biro.. He was SOOO CUTE.. There was this part of the show when Boy Abunda asked the guests what they love about the Philippines/Filipinos.. I love what Ann Curtis answered.. She said na she loves the fact that Filipinos are always smiling.. Despite all the troubles that we may be experiencing, we still get to laugh at those trivial stuff.. And yeah, I found out from this news show that we are the 6th happiest people in the world.. HAHAHA ang saya! WELE LENG..

Oh yeah, Tim and I were chatting til 3 am nga last night diba? And yeah, umiral na naman ung pagka-selosa ko... Argh, pati sa kanya ba naman, pinapairal ko yon.. Look at this..

ysel: im super selosa.. and pati sayo, nagiging ganun ako. argh.

tim: you are? why? ysel...

ysel: un nga ung problem ko eh..

tim: youre my best frnd

ysel: parang ang hirap pigilin eh

tim: first priority ka

tim: no girl or guy can take that away from you

ysel: yeah i know that pero minsan, alam m un,ang hirap pa rin pigilin.. kaya super naiinis ako sa sarili ko.

tim: wait pigilin ung selos?

ysel: yeah..

ysel: hay, forget it :) ill deal with this myself. :)

tim: sorry

ysel: its okay :)

tim: you need help?

ysel: i can handle this.. :)

ysel: kaya minsan, pag mejo nffeel mo na masungit ako, one reason could be this.. okay?

ysel: lalo na pag feeling ko, may pumapalit na sa position ko.. gets?

tim: it'll never happen

tim: i mean dami na nag try diba?

ysel: i know... but im jst kinda warning you :)

ysel: sinong nagtry?

tim: like other peeps pero close parin tayo

ysel: yeah but ung fear ko nga, baka may maging closer sayo coz u like the same stuff, blah blah.. gets? so parang may pumalit na sakin as ur bestfriend.. diba? haha :)

tim: no need to fear, ima man of my word and if i say na wla magpapalit sayo untouchable ka na hehe seriously

ysel: kahit si *TOOT#1*???

ysel: HAHAHA :)

tim: kahit si *TOOT#2*

ysel: seryoso??

tim: yeah, that big

ysel: hayy.. okay.

tim: :)

ysel: thanks. i was going nuts na knina. haha :) ginulo ko pa si chug. hahaha

tim: hahaha goin nuts? how?

ysel: bsta. HAHA :) u dont need to know. i was panicking na. hahaha :) after hearing what u said knna about her i was like "sheeshh.. mukhang mapapalitan na ako ah.."

ysel: hahaha :))

ysel: and to the rescue si chug.. haha

tim: hahaha cmon

tim: never ever

tim: kasi tayo forever ever

ysel: for real?

tim: fo shizzle

HAYY. HAHAHA. FO SHIZZLE. nagiging ghetto na si Tim.. But yeah, I love my best friend to death.. HAHAHA. And I know he knows that already. *wink*

Anyway, another BORING SEMBREAK DAY tomorrow.. I WANNA GO TO THE LAND OF THE RED AND GOLD EAGLES.. ehem.. CSA!!! Ack, I cant wait to go out and go shopping on Wednesday! *Nic sama ka samin!* HAHAHA Toodles!

2005-10-16T17:54:00.000+08:00

Ive finally made up my mind. Goodbye good ole John Gokongwei School of Management, hello School of Science and Engineering... I know it'll be tough but I guess this is what I really wanted from the very start.. I was just blinded by the glitz of being in JGSOM.. Dont get me wrong, I love being in JGSOM.. I love my blockmates.. But yeah, I just feel that being in the entrepreneurial world is not meant for me... BS Health Science, here I come.. *sheesh, sana makashift nga talaga ako..*

I was chatting with Tim a while ago.. And yeah, we were chatting since 11 am to 4 pm... HAHAHA... I was forcing him to sleep na nga coz it was late na there but he didnt want to.. He was EXTRA MAKULIT kanina.. I dont know why.. But I had fun.. I realized that I really miss those super kulit moments with him... Ack! Im starting to miss him more.. Here I go again.. HAHAHA. Excerpts from our conversation:

tim_impossible: wait i need ur help

yselbautista1721: why?

tim_impossible: i hav this presentation on monday

yselbautista1721: about?

tim_impossible: press conf

tim_impossible: im the pr agent

tim_impossible: and i have to wear somethin like formal

yselbautista1721: uhhuh.. like how formal?

tim_impossible: im gonna wear a tie my new old school golf tee

yselbautista1721: can i see? picture

yselbautista1721: :)

tim_impossible: should i wear khaki pants?

tim_impossible: or jeans?

tim_impossible: cge hehe

yselbautista1721: khaki na lang..

tim_impossible: di ba parang sobra

tim_impossible: coz il be in school rin eh

yselbautista1721: ah parang OA?

tim_impossible: yeah

tim_impossible: kasi its just a ushist thingeh

yselbautista1721: ah.. sige jeans na lang..

tim_impossible: bootcut dark jeans nmn noh? hehe

yselbautista1721: yup.. conyo jeans ba?

tim_impossible: yeah

tim_impossible: and our teacher is like he really likes it if we dress up eh

yselbautista1721: eh what if mag-khaki ka for that subject.. tapos after,change to jeans?

yselbautista1721: hassle ba?

tim_impossible: yeah eh

yselbautista1721: jeans lang naman un eh.. :) hehe, baka + points un sa prof mo kung hindi ka magjeans para kinda more formal?

tim_impossible: dunno eh

tim_impossible: should i?

tim_impossible: or not?

yselbautista1721: comfy ka ba na naka-khaki the whole day?

tim_impossible: yeah i wore it na eh

yselbautista1721: un naman pala eh.. diba?

tim_impossible: so un nlng?

yselbautista1721: yufyuf :)

tim_impossible: cool

tim_impossible: hndi ba OA?

yselbautista1721: di ko kasi ma-visualize eh..

yselbautista1721: try mo nga isuot tas mgpicture ka tas pakita mo sakin :)

tim_impossible: cge il try it tom

tim_impossible: then il send you a pic

yselbautista1721: okay :)

yselbautista1721: wow, bestfriend na, fashion consultant pa?

tim_impossible: haha

tim_impossible: im so lucky

tim_impossible: hehe

yselbautista1721: RIGHT. haha :)

tim_impossible: but seriously i am

yselbautista1721: tim, ang cheesy mo na naman eh. haha :)

tim_impossible: not when i say seriously..

yselbautista1721: tim, minsan ba hindi mo naisip na alam mo un,sana iba na lang naging best friend mo?

yselbautista1721: kasi parang ur stuck with me like forever?

tim_impossible: uhm..no

tim_impossible: never..

tim_impossible: im happy and satisfied with my bestfrnd na..

tim_impossible: kaya nga best eh hehe

Hehehe. Wele leng. Ang saya ko. HAHA. Bakit kaya? Di ko naman birthday? HAHAHA. Wag kayo magalit sakin kung naccornyhan kayo, hirit ni Tim un eh. HAHAHA.

Im stuck na naman here at home.. Boring sembreak.. HAHAHA. Anyway, photoblog muna.. Toodles!

2005-10-15T21:07:00.000+08:00

A MUST-READ!

Tim left for college on a Saturday and I on a Sunday. It would be the first time we had ever been apart over the course of our high school friendship. Ours was mo re than a normal boy/girl friendship, though. OUr close connection was the envy of others. I was in awe of his amazing personality, his hilarious jokes and his little boy looks. He could read my mind, finish my sentences and bring me to hysterical laughter with only a look. We adored each other. As our last summer together approached, our bond only grew.

The summer started off slowly, with Tim trying to get my mind off the jerk I now refer to as my ex-boyfriend. Tim was dating one of my close friends and had been for a couple of months. I had to sit by and watch as she ridiculed him, made a joke of him in front of our friends and eventually made him cry when she finally ended it. She broke my bestfriend's heart and I ached with him.

We spent hours talking on the phone late at night, comforting each other, giving each other advice and worrying about college. Over the rest of the summer, both of us were single, so we spent all of our time together. Late at night after work, we would meet at cafes and just talk for hours. We grew even closer that summer. I only wondered why our friendship had to get so close now, as we were both preparing to leave for college.

As the time approached when we would have to say goodbye, we went shopping together for school supplies and planned our first rendezvous as college students for a month after we were both at school.

As I left that Saturday morning to take him to school, I was extremely nervous. I kept wondering what was wrong with me during the three-hour car ride. Of course I was going to miss him, but this was not a sad feeling-this was nervousness. As we finished packing him into his tiny room and making it feel like some semblance of home, it hit me-and it hit me hard. I was in love with this guy! And it wasnt the friendship kind of love that Ive felt for him throughout high school; it was something much deeper. I felt helpless. I had finally realized my true feelings for my bestfriend when it was too late. Tears filled my eyes as I sat on his springy, steel bed. I said goodbye to my bestfriend and the love of my life-wondering if we were really going to meet in a month as planned.

That night at home as I packed my stuff I cried, scared that things would never be the same. We were both going to have our separate lives and would probably barely think of each other. Just then the phone rang and as I wiped my tears and tried to utter a quiet hello, the voice on the other end let me know everything was going to be okay. It was Tim. Before even saying hello he blurted out, "Tina, we are going to have to make that rendezvous earlier than I thought. How about tonight?"

I was grinning like crazy as I practically hung up on him, jumped in my car without directions and headed for his school. How I got there in such a short time (an hour and forty-five minutes) is irrelevant. What is relevant is that the second I got there, I hugged him and told him I loved him. I had actually done that numerous times before but this time, he pulled away from my embrace, looked into my eyes and told me he loved me too and he kissed me. It was a kiss that seemed to contain months, even years, worth of love for each other.

When I left for school the next morning, I had Tim on my mind and in my heart. As I picked up my wallet to get money out to pay for a Coke, a tiny piece of paper fell out. It was from Tim and contained words that touch my heart to this day and still make me smile. "Tina, I am so mad at myself for waiting to tell you... I love you!" My eyes welled up with tears and I felt truly happy and at ease with our situation.

I still keep that note from Tim, and we continue to share a remarkable friendship and always will. Only these days we also share much more- three beautiful children and the same last name..

♥♥♥

How sweet noh? Hayy.. I read that in my Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul III book.. Hehe, out of boredom, nagbabasa na lang ako ng books kahit sembreak.. Hayyy..

Anyway, super tagal kong hindi nakapag-online coz nasira PLDT namin.. and kanina lang siya naayos.. so yeah, SEMBREAK ko na nga pala.. Hehe, yesterday, I went to JJ's house at VV1 kasi may lunch gathering kaming block.. Aalis na kasi karamihan sa kanila coz sembreak na nga.. Tapos magsstates pa si JJ {in fairness, ang cute niya kahapon.. ganon ba talaga? kailangang maging mas gwapo pag ppuntang states??}.. hahaha, anyway, the states thing nga.. when i was watching him pack his stuff, isang bagay lang ang naiisip ko.. KAINGGIT SOBRA!!!! haha, anyway, the final get together for the 1st sem was fun, kaso di nga lang complete.. boohoo..

After, I met up with my chums [Ace, Renz, Allenie, Mica, Monch, Jam] and we ate at Kitchen sa GB3.. Syempre we met up muna sa G4 food choices for a change.. Haha, Yey! I saw Nikole ♥, my CSA crush.. He was so cute.. Hehehe ♥ Yeah i know, its weird coz guy siya pero Nikole name niya.. hehe, but ang cute nya talaga.. and natouch ako kasi he still remembers na student administrative coordinator ako last year.. Snaps for me! hahaha.

Ang weird pero I miss school. Hahahaha. BOO kasi ung mga sisters ko may mga out of town trips with their friends tapos ako, wala! ARGH. Hayy. bakit pa kasi trimester ung La Salle. Di tuloy kami makapag-outing ng kumpleto..

So ayon, I went to Glorietta [ulit] this afternoon kasi pinatingnan ko ung digicam ko.. Nasira kasi kagabi.. but not totally sira.. basta, sira ung "controller" nya.. tapos i lost the receipt pa.. ack!!!! haha :) Ayun, we heard Mass then we had dinner at Italiannis with my cousin and her friends.. And biglang dumating si Mommy and Daddy and sabi ko gusto ko mag-states.. sabi ni mommy next sembreak na lang daw.. SANA TOTOO NA TO. hahaha. ALAM NYO NAMAN KUNG BAKIT GUSTONG GUSTO KO PUMUNTA SA STATES DIBA? ...

Miss ko na si Tim. I even bought this PLDT budget card kasi I want to talk to him soon. hahaha... wele leng..

Ayun, medyo mahaba na yata to.. Haha, I have to go. Toodles! ♥

2005-10-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

One down, one to go.

The English finals kanina was okay.. Sir Darvin was cute in his rugged look.. Hehehe.. Hayy.. I had some time alone kanina.. Coz I commuted lang on the way home.. hehehe.. It felt good to be quiet din naman minsan.. hahaha.. Madami ako napagisip-isip.. Hehehe..

Anyway, my blockmates got our Math LT4 scores.. Guess what i got? a B. 85/100 .. Hayy.. 5 points each kasi ung Multiple Choice.. Bad Vibes.. So for tomorrow, I MUST get 153/200 so that Ill have a B on my course card.. hayy.. PRAY FOR ME GUYS..

Im actually taking a break from studying.. I still havent understood the graphs of the log functions yet.. HAHAHA. boohoo..

Ayun, HAPPY AKO TODAY.. kahit PUYAT ako.. I stayed up til 2 am kasi.. coz of TIM. hahaha :) but it's all good.. hehe..

Sige na, my Math 11 book misses me already... Ciao! MATH DEPARTMENT, MAAWA NAMAN KAYO SA AMIN.. hahaha! :)

2005-10-09T08:40:00.000+08:00

YEY! WE'RE OKAY NA!!! ♥

Haha. I was super worried last night na baka he is still mad at me.. But yeah, inunahan ko na siya itext.. I got up this morning, around 3 am and I texted him ♥. Its 12 noon there eh.. wele leng.. Hahaha. He just finished playing basketball with his brother daw. And yeah, their mom picked them up and they ate somewhere.. When I was texting with him, I told him na I emailed him and my email was super madrama... and I told him also to say hi to his mom for me.. His reply was.. U did? What dd u say? My moms asking if ur goin here.. Ahehehe.. Kahit na 3 am na nun, bigla akong nabuhayan.. Haha, ang bait talaga ni Tita Kay.. Weee :)

Ha! Ang saya nung eviction night sa PBB kagabi.. Si Racquel ung natanggal.. At last. hahahaha. Ewww. Yung suot ni Chx kagabi napaka-slutty.. hahaha.

50 First Dates was showing in HBO last night... Awww.. I really love that movie.. But since I was chatting while watching the movie, I didnt cry coz hindi nga ako nakafocus dun.. Grabe, my ate was crying talaga! hahaha :) Afterwards, we saw that A Walk to Remember was showing in Studio 23.. Dun na ako umiyak.. Hahahaha :)

Im currently finishing my Critical Paper for Fil and after, I might start na with Math.. wele leng..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUIGI CUSTODIO!! ♥ I heart ya beb! Hehehe!

2005-10-08T13:02:00.000+08:00

NEW LAYOUT! ♥

Turquoise is my new favorite color. Haha! Obvious ba? And I LOVE this song.. The chorus goes this way "I just wanna be with You O Jesus, I just wanna praise Your name forever.. I just wanna bask in Your glorious presence.. I just wanna be with You O Jesus..." O diba? Ang ganda! amazing. :)

Anyway, yesterday was the BOMB . Well, yeah, aside from my mind boggling Filipino Long Test, everything that happened yesterday made me super kaduper happy. haha :) After that grueling test, Nic and I went to Glorietta to meet up with Ace.. We got to Heaven and Eggs before Ace did so we chose this super cool area.. hahaha :) But it was kinda hard to eat on that area coz your chair is always moving. haha. But the food was yuumm.. delish! :) Pictures are at my MULTIPLY

After, we went window shopping/shopping then we saw Mica and then Monch.. weee!! kwentuhan galore!!!! So we were headed to Food Choices (AS USUAL) where we hang-out and watch people.. Haha! Yes, that's one of our favorite pasttimes.. people watching. We saw SO MANY augustinians.. I kinda miss CSA na.. hehehe.. I saw my HS crush pa.. He's in 2nd year pa lang ngayon eh.. He was with his gf yata.. hehe.. I saw "the brothersss" din.. I missed them!!! hehehe.. Ang saya.. We hung out pa with Mr. Trinidad.. And itong si Nic, nagpaturo pa ng Math! grabe! Oh yeah.. highlight? we saw Alex Compton! He was so cute! hehehe :) Gusto sana namin magpapapicture pero parang nakakahiya so hindi na lang.. hehehe.. When Ace, Mica, Monch left na, Nic, my sister and I went to the grocery to meet up with my mom.. Then after, we went home na..

So yeah, this morning, Tim and I had this MAJOR FIGHT. Hayy.. Boohoo. Boohoo. Sana hindi na lang siya umalis. Boo. Alam kong selfish pero yun ung naffeel ko eh... Hayyyy.. ARGH ARGH ARGH..

Im taking a break from doing my Filipino Critical Paper... Hayy.. Two more grueling school days and Ill be the happiest girl alive. hahaha. MONTH LONG SEMBREAK! *but I'll miss my new crush.. I wont be seeing him for a month.. kainis naman.. hayyy..*

*Lord help me ace my finals in Math and English and my previous LTs in Math and Filipino..*

Im out! Toodles!

2005-10-03T19:16:00.000+08:00

Pagod na ako umiyak. but thank You for wiping all my tears. I love You Lord.

anyway, i havent been the uber HAPPY AND JOLLY ysel that ive always been.. you see, something happened last wednesday night.. while typing my plant care project report for ES lab, accidentally, bumagsak yung laptop and nabasag ung LCD... hayy.. i cried right then and there and i sought help from one of my cousins and her husband.. the next day, they got the laptop and i thought, my problem has been solved.. However, Ate Gail texted me yesterday and told me that an LCD for my laptop is not yet available here in the country since its a new model so i have to order sa states.. i checked this site where they sell LCDs tapos it will cost me $352 pala.. from that time, super troubled na ako.. i know napansin na un ng parents ko.. i even made a letter for them to tell them what happened.. this morning, i woke up and i was still troubled.. i went to the lanai and read the newspaper.. my mom asked me when my exams would be and i told her next week pa.. and she asked me what my problem was.. so there, i told her. just as what ive expected, she and my dad got REALLY mad at me.. i really cant stop crying..

i went to school na and i was still troubled.. during my fil class, i hardly understood the report of the groups since i cant get that out of my mind.. after fil, my mom texted me and she told me that hindi na daw namin ipaparepair ung laptop coz of certain reasons.. i really felt bad coz im willing to sacrifice my dream of having a debut just to have that fixed... oh well. i was really crying.. and i talked na lang to my tita to seek comfort from her.. she told me na ganun lang daw talaga sa una.. coz nabigla pa ung mommy ko.. i just slept after talking to her coz i was tired of crying..

im here in a net shop along katipunan since i wanted to check my mail.. and knin-kanina lang, my mom called me sa cell and asked how i was.. and she let me talk to my dad and my dad asked me if okay lang kmi dito sa internet cafe.. sabi nya nangyayari daw talaga ung mga bagay na ganun.. and i told him na hindi na ako magddebut coz of this.. but he told me hindi daw pwede.. kasi dapat may remembrance naman daw ako ng 18th birthday ko.. hayyy.. Lord, sana hindi na sila galit sa akin...

dami ko pang stuff to do for this week.. wish me luck! toodles!

* Lord, sobrang thank You for never leaving me.. I know kung wala Ka, hindi ko ito makakayanan... You're just amazing..

2005-09-24T16:47:00.000+08:00

Ang galing galing talaga ni Lord. Sobrang galing tumiming. Wala talaga ako masabi.

My day yesterday didnt start out the way I wanted it to.. Up until now, my eyes still hurt from all the crying I did yesterday.. But I dont want to dwell on that anymore.

Anyway, yesterday, the Lord offered me this chance to have the greatest night of my life. And yes, I took that chance and I did have the greatest night of my life so far. I remember, ever since I was in 1st year high school (4 years ago), Ive been wanting to attend the GenRev night. However, since the venue is sooooo far from makati, I never had the chance to.. But last night, I felt so blessed when I was finally able to attend.. I was suppose to go alone.. I could deal with all the commuting that I have to do just to be able to join my co-GenRev-vers in this monthly thing.. But I guess God is so good since He gave me Kara who went with me yesterday.. Siguro kung di ko siya kasama, super na-lost na ako.. hehehe.

So yeah, being in the GenRev night for the first time gave me an overwhelming feeling. IT WAS AMAZING. It was a ROCKING praise concert.. There was one instance in our Opening Worship when I didnt hold back my tears.. I dont know the title of the song but the striking lines were "Jesus' blood never fails me.." and we sang those lines over and over again..Kiddo kinda said something before we continued singing.. He said something like "I know some of you went here because you feel burdened..some of you went here because someone might have hurt you.. someone might have failed you.. But dont forget that there is someone who will never ever fail you... its Jesus... Jesus' blood will never fail you.." When I heard him say this, there. Tears came rushing through my cheeks.. And thats when I said to myself "Galing talaga tumiming ni Lord..." .. You see, yesterday, I was deeply hurt.. And I needed someone who would remove the pain that im feeling.. Maybe thats the reason why last Wednesday when Kiddo announced that theres gonna be a GenRev night on Friday, I said to myself.. "I want to attend. I really want to attend." From that time, I was wondering how I could go there. I even printed the map so I wouldnt be lost..

So there. The teaching was amazing too.. I mean I was able to relate to that teaching since I know Ive been called by the Lord to serve Him a few years ago pa..
I joined this org in my own parish.. I joined YFC.. and here I am, an active member of GenRev.. but sometimes, I feel that I lack the confidence and the willingness to let God use me... Sometimes, I find it quite hard to talk about my faith because Im always thinking of what other people might say.. I feel like Im not clothed with Jesus Christ.. After hearing the teaching, I felt challenged to stand up for my faith.. I said to myself that each day of my life, I should be like Jesus Christ to others.. I would try to resist temptations and try to be pure and chaste.. I choose to be holy.. I would try to be holy just like Him.. and starting last night, I made that commitment with the Lord.. and Im gonna do my best to fulfill that..

After the GenRev night, somehow, the pain that I was feeling was eased... not totally, but yeah, it helped me a lot.. and i mean A LOT. Im really thankful for last night.. thank You, Lord.

Now, I admit that I still feel hurt but I guess I really dont mind.. For if the Lord is with me, who could ever be against me?... Maybe what happened yesterday morning had its purpose.. For now, I may not understand that purpose yet but eventually, God will allow me to. Hesus, Mahal kita.

* Thanks rin to my best friend Tim, Nic, my blockmates Fred, Nikee, Nicole, Laura, Gabe, Johara, Benson and to my other friends Gello and Jam for being my sources of strength when I needed it the most. You were there to console me and to make me feel loved even though I felt like the worst person on earth. You guys are the best.

* Oh yeah, Congrats to the Seniors for emerging as Champions in CSA's annual Cheering Competition :) and to the CSA PAYA basketball team who won against Ateneo this morning.. whohooo! ;)

2005-09-20T10:50:00.000+08:00

when i saw him last Friday, just one thought entered my mind. I missed him. But dont get me wrong ah.. si Tim pa rin ang one and only best friend ko. :) hehehe.

anyway, im here sa RSF right now.. 3 hour break ko kasi but knina pa tapos ung group meeting namin for ES reporting.. and Im waiting for Tim to go online.. ang tagal.. nakakainis na..

hayy.. 3 more weeks to go... Wala daw kaming finals sa Fil.. paper lang.. yipee! :) sana ill get exempted din from taking the ES finals para diba.. math and english na lang...

by the way, i just checked my best friend's new photo in friendster.. haha. parang hindi naman siya nagpagupit.. ganun lang rin itsura.. HOT PA DIN. haha :) [oops... nagffeeling na yan si Tim.. hahahaha :) ]

* Im currently missing Tini, TIM, and my CSA boys.. di ko pa pala nakikita si mike since he got here... i must see him soon.. hehe..

Kaira, my ES classmate, made me smile last night.. i saw her sa lobby ng prince david and we talked about our Fil Critical paper.. I told her naka-5 pages na ako.. and she was like "may nasusulat ka ba talaga?" and i went "oo naman.." then she said.. "hay ysel.. wonder woman ka talaga!" :) hehehe.. *kakatuwa :)

natapos na akong magblog pero hindi pa rin online si Tim.. argh.. math class in 55 minutes... MAJOR BOO. toodles!

2005-09-18T17:49:00.000+08:00

I WANT A DEBUT PARTY.

I really want one.

Hindi na nga uuwi si Tim eh. And yun na ung next best thing for me. tapos wala pa. WHOHOOO.

Lord, I know it's not about the grand things, pero I want to be happy on my birthday.. and ito ung way para maging masaya ako.. tapos wala pala..

I NEED A HUG.

2005-09-14T15:26:00.000+08:00

Since we had a free cut for our English class today, I decided to just stay here in RSF (a computer lab in Ateneo) and kill time. I have to wait for TonTon and Nic til 4.30 since we have to watch the Cheer Rally for the Cheerdance Competition on Saturday later.. Required kasi eh.. Nakakainis..

I still dont have tickets for the game tomorrow.. but Nic told her friend na that we're gonna get the two Upper Box B tickets worth 300 each.. wtf?? P300 for a ticket that will give you not-so-good seats.. I envy my blockmate who got 3 patron tickets from the Blue Eagle Gym ticketing office around 11 am this morning.. my gosh, I was there around 10 am to buy tickets for the Cheerdance.. I didnt even ask if there were still tickets for the game tomorrow.. stupid me.. haha. I even heard na there's this guy who's gonna sell his patron tickets for 15 thou.. my goodness.. will there be people who are gonna buy that??? oh well.. it's an ADMU-DLSU game.. Need I say more?

Just when I thought that Ill be able to rest this weekend, *drum roll..* here comes an email from Sir Popa about our Fil Critical Paper due on the 23rd.. My goodness... I have to analyze A LOT of poems na may super kaduper lalim words.. hayyy... I cant work on this on Saturday since I have to watch the Cheerdance Competition and in the evening, I have to attend Tin's debut.. Hayyy.. good luck talaga.. STREGASSLE NA NAMAN TO!! whohoooo! BUHAY ATENISTA NGA NAMAN.

I feel so bad kasi ilang GenRev gatherings na ung nami-miss ko.. and I wasnt able to join my sister sa YFC thing namin nung weekend.. Even though I talk to Him every morning in the College Chapel and every night before I go to sleep, I feel kinda far from Him na.. *Lord, I'm sorry.. bawi talaga ako sayo next time..*

Anyway Gokongwei, Glads and I were talking on the phone yesterday afternoon.. Grabe, I miss that bruha na.. We were talking about my plans for my debut... which is like 3 months away.. Hala!! If you have suggestions regarding a fab place, just tag sa tagboard ko.. okie? hmm.. naisip namin.. Instead of 18 Roses, pwede kayang 18 Thousand na lang?? haha.. astig un.. each guy bibigyan ka ng Php 1000.. haha :) in cash dapat un ah.. hehe. kiddin :)

Yipee! Nakachat ko nga pala si Timothy Francis Dizon De Dios kanina.. Ayan eh, sinabi ko pa talaga ung buong name nya.. haha.. Kaso mga 1 hour ko lang siya nakachat.. kasi.. si ate.. dadalhin daw niya ung laptop sa Ateneo.. so instead makipagaway ako sa kanya, binigay ko na lang.. kahit na ngsstart pa lang kmi magsaya ni By.. hehe. :) By na nga pala tawag ko sa kanya.. Oops.. hindi Baby yan ah.. kundi... CHUBBY! :) hehe.. as if naman hindi ako chubby diba? hahaha.. pero ang chubby na talaga ng best friend ko ever since he moved to the States.. haha. nakakatuwa talaga.. :) ang sarap KUSI-in.. hahahaha :) *thanks for the term Tonton!*

update lang sa lovelife ko: AYOKO NA TALAGA. I SURRENDER. tenkyu. bow. :)

sige, wala na ako masulat.. ipag-pray nyo naman na okay ung score ko sa Math Long Test ko.. okay? olryt!!! :) toodles!

2005-09-09T08:38:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad this week is over. hahaha :)

wednesday: FIL LT Part 1.. it was okay. the mind boggling part was the multiple choice.. hayy.. but i think i did quite well in the identification part.. haha.. i just love that type of test. haha :) anyway, I wasnt able to go to our GenRev gathering coz my dad txted us and asked us if he could pick us up since my mom got confined in Makati Med. So even though I had to do some scul stuff that night, I agreed to visit my mom.. since.. duh? she's my mom.. and I wanted to know how she was doing.. super grabe yung traffic nun.. we left katipunan around 6 and we got to makati med around 7.30.. hayy.. oh well.. buti na lang my mom was okay na.. :)

thursday: ES lecture was okay.. we have a new topic.. but yeah, my group is not yet done with our case study thats due on tuesday! waahhh.. cramming na naman.. argh. anyway, I think we did quite well in our ES lab orals yesterday.. (I HOPE.) hehehe :) after, Math class again.. in fairness, I kinda understood what Dr. Muga taught us.. LT 3 on Tuesday! waaahhhh.. I had my practical test in PE.. for Reggae.. and I got an A! whohooo! :)

Oh well, it's a Friday again.. the only "highlight" of my day is the Fil LT Part 2... hayyy. sana maging okay naman... :) i just love Fridays.. coz I get to be with him.. ehem ehem.. Sino naman kaya to? hahahahaha :)

argh.. papayagan kaya ako magsleepover kila Nic? GUSTO KO TALAGANG SUMAMA. .. Nic, alam mo naman siguro kung bakit.. Hayy.. mahal ko na ba?? mahirap yata ito..

anyway, I'm waiting for Tim to go online but I think he wouldnt.. hahaha :) anyway, i gotta go.. last minute preparations for my Fil LT :) toodles!

2005-09-07T08:52:00.000+08:00

a D in my midterms. my first ever D in my whole life. i hate this. Math used to love me when I was in HS. but I guess it just go tired of me. Sorry but I'm tired of it as well.

Last Saturday was THE BOMB. i had so much fun with Nic, AJ, Keanne, Jose, Ron and Tonton at Tita Kaka's party. yeahboi. pictures at mi MULTIPLY

Although I'm tired of Math, I decided not to go out this weekend. FOR REAL. I'm gonna spend time with my good-ole bestfriend, my Math book. Long Test 3 on Sept 13.

Argh. I have a Fil Long Test pa later. THIS IS THE LIFE. yeah. whatever.

The only thing that makes me excited today is the fact that I'm gonna attend the GenRev gathering later. Hayy. You're the best, Boss. :)

I'm really not in the mood to blog. toodles.

2005-09-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

"I urge you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, your spiritual worship. Do not conform yourself to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect."

- Romans 12:1-2

AMEN. that was what Kiddo talked about in our GenRev session last Wednesday. I really felt good after that session.. I mean I felt like it was really God who talked to me about these teachings... That verse really struck me since most of the time, people do things just because society dictates those are good or those things conform to their own, worldly motives and desires...but in truth, those arent good because those things dont conform to the will of God.. Now, that's a challenge to all of us since we must do only what's pleasing and what's good in God's eyes... Hayyy... I just feel so blessed since I got the chance to be a part of GenRev Ateneo.

To my schoolmates, if you are free next Wednesday afternoon, you are invited to join us in our GenRev gathering at SOM 210 or 211.. Spread the Word!

this week has been fun.. bonding galore with L2.. anyway, it's already September so in a month, we'll be having our sembreak na.. hehe.. 6 weeks na lang yata!!! i cant wait for all of these stressful stuff to end.. hehe.. :) oh yeah, i've been enjoying teasing Nic to PP.. hahaha :) Ysel-AJ conspiracies have always been successful.. FUN! :)

its another hell week for me next week.. ES long test 2 on Tuesday, Fil long test on Wednesday... Actually, I decided not to go out this weekend so I could study but yeah, I have to attend two parties this weekend.. One, tita kaka's birthday/despedida party at Nic's house and after, Kim Yao's party at Jaipur.. I really don't intend to go to the latter but AJ eh.. hindi ako makatanggi... oh well, like what we've been saying before,we'd do anything for that guy.. hayy.. right Nic? ANYTHING FOR AJ. hayy.. buti na lang, my sister has a party rin that night sa Fort..

it's a friday again tomorrow.. ilang days ko na hindi nakakausap si Tim.. super miss ko na siya.. hayyy.. kahit nagoonline siya, hindi pa rin siya ngapaparamdam sakin.. hayyy.. it's been 10 months since he left for the States and minsan, di ko pa rin maintindihan kung bakit kailangan pa namin magkalayo.. every night, may hinahanap hanap pa rin ako na kausapin.. sometimes, i just feel so incomplete.

toodles!

2005-08-28T14:57:00.000+08:00

heya! i have a new layout.. haha. obvious ba? haha.. im kinda proud of this kasi i was the one who made this. haha. :) comment on it nalang.. negative comments are also welcome.. haha. :)

wala kaming pasok bukas.. whohoo. :) pero the next day, ibibigay na ung results ng math midterms ko.. hala..

yahoo. panalo Ateneo kahapon. :) sana matalo FEU ngayon. para tied na ung ateneo and feu sa 1st spot.. haha.

kachat ko si tim ngayon. yahoo. ang saya saya ko. :) hehe.. kachat ko rin si nic.. nako, hindi na talaga kami nagsawa sa isat isa.. haha. wala na ako masabi. sige, later na lang..

2005-08-26T15:59:00.000+08:00

andito ako sa RSF ngaun and 30 minutes ko pang hihintayin si Nic. hehe. :) It's a Friday once again pero di ako uuwi sa bahay ngayon kasi may Freshmen Academic Orientation kami bukas ng umaga.. Hayyy. and may Camp Math pa pala..

Mejo sad ako ngayon. may shinare kasi sakin ung ultimate crush ko na sobrang grabe. Hayyy. hindi ko talaga ma-imagine. :( parang wala na tuloy ako magawa para mabago ko pa siya....

anyway, astig. nakita ko si alex compton nung wednesday. sinamahan ko kasi si Nic sa Moro for her Taekwondo promotionals.. hehe. ang tagal kong naghintay grabe. tas dumating si Alex Compton. haha. :) nagsmile ako sa kanya. after ng promotionals ni Nic, kinausap pa nya kami. haha. NagTagalog siya. haha. nakakatawa. :) dahil din sa taekwondo thing na yan, may bagong crush na naman ako. haha. si Anton Del Prado. :) Taekwondo varsity siya. and sobrang cute nya. haha. kaso parang ang tipid ngumiti. tapos sabi ng isang friend ko na kakilala nya, chickboy daw siya. hayyyy.

i had my cha-cha practical test kahapon. badtrip. A ung partner ko tas B+ lang ako. haha. kasi naman. nakalimutan ko ung isang step. hayy. haha. pwede pa daw umulit sa Tuesday pero parang ayoko na. hehe.

after PE, nanuod kami ni Nic ng game ng UP and Ateneo. haha. yahoo. panalo Ateneo. ang galing talaga... favorite ko na si Macky Escalona. hahaha :) sa game, nakita ko pa si Pao Goco, classmate ni Tim. hayy. namiss ko tuloy siya lalo.

kahapon, nakita ko rin ung 2nd new crush ko. haha. si Mik Daez. player siya ng ateneo uaap jrs team. haha. :) kamukha nya ung kuya nya sa college pero mas cute pa rin siya for me. i found out din na honors class pala siya. hehe. + pogi points. hahaha.

nakakainis. i made a wrong move this morning. nagdecide ako magsuot ng white na cropped pants tas pagbaba ko sa lobby, hala, umuulan pala. tilamsik ever na naman. haha. i saw tin sa overpass. haha. makikipagtagpo yata kay al. hahaha :)

kahit na umuulan, ngccrave pa rin ako for ice cream. hayy. bibili nga ako after ko magblog dito. hahaha. anyway, wala kaming gagawin ni Nic tonight so baka manuod na lang kami ng IAC game ni Ayo. or manunuod kami ng training ni AJ and ni PP! hehe. :)

nakakainis. two days na siyang hindi nagttext. sabi ni Nic, baka daw dahil may pasok na siya.. eh hello? may pasok din naman ako ah. bakit ako, nattext ko siya diba???? badtrip.

2005-08-24T08:37:00.000+08:00

what a day.

it was just an ordinary tuesday.. i had my usual classes.. i got to chat with tim during my 3 hour break.. and yeah, i got a B+ in my Math LT2.. sana okay rin ung midterms ko... anyway, my PE class was fun.. we have a new dance, reggae.. and my partner and i are getting the steps.. so okay pa naman so far..

after PE, Nic and I went with AJ to Loyola Memorial Chapels in Guadalupe.. the lolo of AJ's bestfriend died kasi so he asked us if we could accompany him... so we said its okay.. ANYTHING FOR AJ. hehe :) so yeah, we rode the LRT2 going to Cubao through Gateway then MRT going to Guadalupe.. tapos we walked along EDSA since Loyola Memorial Chapels was along EDSA-Guadalupe..

at the wake, we got to meet Bronjay and CJ, AJ's close friends.. grabe they were so madaldal.. hehe :) but they were fun to be with naman.. :) we stayed there til 7-ish and Mark and JanJan fetched us then we went to the SK office since Ace was there daw.. When we got there, Ace had left daw so we went to her house na lang.. grabe.. super pagod na kami.. naglakad lang kasi kami eh.. hayyy.. we stayed there til 10.20 then we rode a cab going back to katipunan..

i had to print my En homework at nic's condo so i still wasnt able to sleep yet.. grabe, i went back to my condo around 12 mn na.. hayyy.. buti na lang, my class is at 11.30 pa today.. hayyy..

ANYTHING FOR AJ.

hehehe.. :) two days ago, i got my Advisory Marks.. En-S.. ES10-A.. ES12-C.. Ma11-C+.. Fil11-B.. i computed for the qpi, its 3.05.. hayy.. sana my grades will get higher pa..

waaah.. im still sleepy... and im still tired... toodles.

2005-08-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

my YM Status Message for today: "Whohooooo. 2 years. thank You for Tim." :) hehehe.. this day marks the 2nd year of our wonderful friendship.. I was planning to send him something but i got so busy in school so next month na lang.. Instead, I bugged my sister to teach me Photoshop stuff.. haha. :) and voila! here's my 1st ever maayos na masterpiece..

Yahoo. :) nakachat ko siya kninang mga 12 something am pagdating ko from Pearl's party.. pati kninang mga 3 something pm.. whohooo.. :) shucks. namimiss ko na siya sobra. when we were bidding each other gudbye in YM knina, i told him na nakakabadtrip kasi we're not together to celebrate this ocassion.. last year din, we werent able to celebrate coz he had DWTL.. hayy.. he said sorry and i told him na lang na there will come a time naman when we will get to celebrate it together.. KAILAN KAYA YON?... hayyy.. :(

Anyway, Pearl's party last night was fun.. pictures are at my multiply.. :) I bonded with Jech, Pearl's prom date who's studying in Ateneo HS.. grabe his grammar monitor was naka-on the whole night! hahaha :D

Hayy.. another stressful week ahead of me.. Pray for me.. And yeah, Tim's 1st day of classes will be two days from now na.. And he feels kinda nervous. Wala lang. Just sharing.. I have to go, I havent prepared my clothes for this week yet.. Ciao! :)

2005-08-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

may gusto lang ako ikwento. kanina, nasa galle ako tapos g4 kasi walang pasok. shopping galore. tapos nakita ko si emman. nung mgkasama na kami, nkita namin sila redge and steph tapos ngkwentuhan kmi with them. tapos sabi bigla ni emman, ang tawag daw nila kay josue, TSIRK. sabi ko bakit? sabi nya baliktarin ko daw. KRIST. hahaha. manunukso na nga lang, hindi pa kumpleto. hahaha.

it was fun seeing some of my batchmates a while ago. :) haayyy, kahit college na kami, bahay pa rin namin ang glorietta.

meron akong community service ko for IntACT tomorrow. IntACT stands for Introduction to the Ateneo Community and Tradition. astig noh? pang-atenista talaga. tapos sa gabi, debut ni pearl. bonding time with jech.

hanggang ngayon, i still feel bad because of my Math Midterms. sana hindi ako bumagsak. :(

ang kati ng mata ko. feeling ko sore eyes pero sana hindi..

miss na miss ko na yung best friend ko. seryoso. :(

2005-08-14T10:48:00.000+08:00

When I got home last Friday night, the first thing I did was get my Yearbook.. Then after reading the write ups of my batchmates, I realized that I miss my batch. I miss my High School. I miss CSA.

It's just different from college. Anyway, I want to post my yearbook write up here. :)

BAUTISTA, KRISTLE ANN SANCHEZ

ysellie, ysel, tabs, bakista, c cute.. cool chic ng honors' class.. certified baki queen ng barkada.. deeply rooted in faith.. laugh trip lagi.. contagious halakhak.. sexy.. galing pumorma.. can carry herself well.. wala yatang top na may sleeves.. J.Lo... ms congeniality.. ateneo die hard.. ateneo or nothing.. basketball fanatic.. pep squad forever.. picture-picture=VAIN.. has tons of corny jokes.. true to herself.. not shy to show everyone who she really is.. "Girls, where's your refinement?'.. ysel+reeca="BEST!" basketball varsity muse.. kremil-s girl.. the voice. megaphone.. "Juniors!! Flag Cem!".. lakas magcadence pag ACP.. henyo sa math.. high powered memory storage ang brain.. whiz sa memorization.. super calm and never crams.. bilis magaral yet gets high grades.. colorful lovelife and social life.. born leader.. Ms. Mu Ep.. the ever remindful HSSC assistant sexytary treasurer.. the HSSC officer whose heart will always stay with the batch.. chickgirl.. knows everybody.. kahit saan pumunta, may kilala.. the best ka-kwentuhan.. excessive texter and shopper.. mahal ng lahat.. mababaw ang tears.. heart over mind.. class clown.. mahirit.. charming.. parating naka-on ang grammar monitor.. knows what she wants and how to get it.. dynamic and awesome personality.. daming achievements pero down to earth pa rin.. brightens up anyone's day with her smile.. a blessing to all.. you wouldnt trade her for anything else in the world..

hehe. :) henyo sa math daw.. haha. dati lang yon. ngayon, hindi na. :) I miss HS days.. punong puno ng saya. ngayon sa college, hmm.. masaya na lang kapag anjan ung block P and block L2. hayy.

Math midterms on Wednesday. pray for me guys. :)

*** Jon-d, thanks for listening to my kwentos and for all your advices.. i will never forget our chikahan sessions in YM and even our exchange of warm hi's and hello's in campus.. :) i will super kaduper miss you.. hehe. ingat ka dun ah. :) im sure ull take New York by storm.. Have a safe trip, dear. :) God bless you.

2005-08-11T21:23:00.000+08:00

Hayy.. I miss Nic. hahaha. :) Although we saw each other a while ago before my Math LT and her Botany Lecture, I still miss her.. hehehe. If she gets to read this, I guess she'll laugh her heart out. hahaha. :) Minsan kasi, I tell her na nagsasawa na ako sa kanya kasi parang we're together for like 24/7.. hehe :) Wala lang.. I just wanted to be there for her during this crucial moment in her life... hayy.. I love you Nic!!! If you just want to cry, you know you can call me anytime.. hehehe :) *** Patrick, have a safe trip.. Bon Voyage.. Hinay hinay lang sa potatoes dun ah!

Anyway, I had my Math LT today.. It was relatively easy.. Pero I had this super careless mistake.. hahaha.. Sana maging considerate naman si Dr. Muga.. :) Haayy.. Aral na naman this weekend.. Math Midterms na kasi on Wednesday.. Lord, help me..

Oh yeah, I confirmed my membership in GenRev yesterday. :) It was so fun since I was able to meet people who share the same faith that I have. Of course, the ever hot Kiddo was there and Im just looking forward to our next meetings.. :) Ang astig kasi of course we had the Opening Worship.. I thought di ko alam ung song.. pero alam ko pala.. haha.. :) I just love that song.. "I just want to be with You O Jesus, I just want to praise Your name forever.. I just want to bask in Your glorious presence.. I just want to be.. With You O Jesus.." :) After ng worship, Din, this sophmore girl beside me told me na nice daw voice ko.. hehe :) .. Anyway, theres another GA tomorrow.. I hope I can attend..

Yesterday sa break, I asked AJ kung dadating pa kaya ung girl na makakapagbago sa kanya.. sabi nya "Hay nako.. Good luck..".. tapos nagbasa lang siya nung handout nya.. after a few minutes, sabi nya "Ay, dumating na ung girl na makakapagbago sa buhay ko.. Ikaw.. Dahil sayo, gusto ko na maging ganap na babae.." tapos nag-apir kami.. haha. ano kaya ibig sabihin nun? :)

I'll be getting my English Midterms grade tomorrow.. Shucks.. I hope I pass that exam.. Pray for me.. :)

Happy 1st Anniversary to Gladys and BJ! (August 10) :) I love you both! :)

I miss my family. I cant wait to go home this weekend. :) Oh yeah, after 10 years, naayos na din PC ni Tim.. Yey! hehe :) .. God Bless you all! Toodles!

2005-08-04T16:55:00.000+08:00

Hey there! :) There are so many wonderful things that have been happening to me lately.. hehe.. And I am super THANKFUL to the Lord for those.. :) Things that have made me smile recently:

1. I got 84/90 in my ES long test.. :) Highest un sa class.. THANK YOU LORD :)

2. Our group in Filipino got the highest score in our Sabayang Pagbigkas. :) I just love my groupmates.

3. Nic, Ate and I went to Gateway yesterday to buy Nic's and my outfit for billie's debut on saturday.. shopping is really an effective stress-reliever! :)

4. I talked to Ace last night on the phone.. Hayy.. I miss my Tropang Chums..

5. I get to txt with Tim more often now.. hehe. :)

6. I saw Kiddo Cosio yesterday.. (to the CSA people: Remember Kiddo? The leader guy in GenRev.. my crush when GenRev went to CSA in 1st year high.. haha..) Sadly, I wasnt able to attend the worship since I was about to go to Gateway when I passed by the GenRev room.. oh well.. next week. :)

7. Hanging out with L2 (Nic's block) is super kaduper fun.. :) i just love the L2 people..

8. "P.P" said hi to me yesterday.. :) [NIC!! beh!! :p] haha. :)

It's our "Hell week" next week and the week after next week.. I just hope I'll do well in those exams.. Oh yeah, pray for me, I'm gonna have my English midterms tomorrow..

I got this from Tini.. and for me, it's one way to fish compliments from friends most especially the people who visit this precious site.. :) ang saya nito.. kaya sagutan nyo okay? :) Copy and Paste this as a comment.. :) [click nyo ung "touch my heart" link sa lower right ng entry..] enjoy! :)

1. I ___ YSEL.

2. YSEL is ___.

3. If I were alone in a room with YSEL, I would ___.

4. I think YSEL should ___.

5. YSEL needs ___.

6. I want to ___ YSEL.

7. Someday YSEL will be ___.

8. YSEL reminds me of ___.

9. Without YSEL, ___.

10. Memories of YSEL are ___.

11. YSEL can be ___.

12. Worst thing about YSEL is ___.

13. Best thing about YSEL is ___.

14. I am ___ YSEL.

Hehe, ang fun noh? :) to my fellow bloggers, try nyo rin to.. :) It's one way to know yourself better.. :) mwah! :) God speed everyone!

2005-08-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

Big Boss, You're just AMAZING. :)

This day was super fun. :) hehe. After my ES class, Nic and I met up at the overpass since we were gonna go to UP. :) When we were dropped off at the Romulo Hall, Jam told us to just follow that street and we're gonna see the UP Press Hall.. (Jotham asked me kasi to buy this book in UP).. It turns out that we were going the wrong way... So we asked around.. We got so lost.. To add to that, we havent eaten breakfast yet.. We were soooooo tired.. Like my fingers are trembling na.. Buti na lang we found the building where Jam is waiting for us.. Then we went na to the Human Kinetics Gym for AJ's game.. Hayyy.. my H.L. is just so hot.. hehe. :) Anyway, UP won against Ateneo.. But yeah, AJ had nakakamatay kills.. hehe. :) I'm so proud of him. :) We didnt even finish the game since our next class starts at 12.. So we went back to Katipunan via the UP Katipunan Jeep and then we had our "fast" lunch in Kenny Rogers.. hehe. :) THINGS WE DO FOR FRIENDSHIP. haha. :) *we love you AJ!*

Nic went to her Botany Class and I went to my Math Class.. Dr. Muga returned our LT1 and he showed us our class standing as of now.. I got a C in the LT1 so my class standing is C+.. :) I'm so happy coz I didnt fail.. hehe. :) But I have to work harder since we have another Math LT next thursday and our Math Midterms 2 weeks from now.. :)

After my Math class, I hung out with Ed, Jose and Mikki.. Grabe those gays are soooo funny.. hehe. :) They never fail to make me laugh talaga.. hahaha. :) I love them. :) OH YEAH, I SAW JORDAN BAUTISTA in the caf. He's CHRISTIAN BAUTISTA'S BROTHER.. HE IS SOO HOT. Even hotter than Christian. hehehe. :)

Ballroom Dancing class was fun too.. We learned a new dance, chacha. hehe. :) I have this new partner, Jen. hehe. :)Our teacher postponed our practical exam to next Tuesday.. oh well..

After, we practiced for our Sabayang Pagbigkas in our Fil Class tomorrow.. hehe. Super laughtrip.. I just love my groupmates.. Then we watched Pala-palapag after.. The 2 plays were really good.. hehe. :) Super funny.. May some bastos parts pero okay lang.. hehe :) Kudos to Enta. :)

There.. I can't wait for tomorrow.. Nic and I are gonna go to Gateway to see if we could buy clothes that we could wear on Saturday (Billie's debut) :) hehehe.. :) ciao!

Tim, thanks for the text a while ago.. And yeah, I'm willing to dance with you anytime.. hehe. :) Anyway, as always, you completed my day. :)

2005-07-30T22:12:00.000+08:00

Our Math Prof hasn't returned our Math LT yet.. Oh well. I just wish I won't get an F.. Please pray for me..

It's a Saturday once again.. And I'm glad the past week is over. I had my ES Long Test last Thursday, and I guess that's the "academic highlight" of my week..

Last Tuesday, during our 3-hour break, my blockmates and I went to Mcdo since we wanted to eat there.. When we got there, there's this commercial shooting pala there.. So we just went to my condo and we killed time there.. After the break, we had our Math class.. Char was in Mcdo too and she asked us where we were seated.. And I told her that we hung out in my condo.. and she was like "So hindi nyo nakita si Drew Arellano?" OH MY GOSH. haha. I texted Nic right away and I told her I have kwento.. Nic and AJ went to my classroom since they were dismissed early.. I told Nic that Drew's in Mcdo.. and she went crazy! hahaha! :) On the way to the condo, we checked if the shooting's still on going in Mcdo.. And it was.. haha! We went there.. and we saw Drew! Nic called Drew and yeah, they hugged pa.. super kainggit! haha.. but Drew made me pansin naman when we said goodbye na.. :) haha.

Yesterday was fun.. I hung out with Nic's blockmates in the Caf.. I just love L2. :) Here are some pics.. :)

After, we went to our Fil classes.. :) after Fil, I ate lunch with Keanne (Nic's blockmate too) and we went to RSF.. When we got there, AJ's anitos were there.. (haha! puro kasi Dota eh!).. anyway, I opened my friendster and Tini made me cry.. Here. Look at her testimonial..

Leaving Manila must've been the hardest thing I had to go through but I tell you this, it all paid of. Baks, if I was there I'm so sure I wouldn't be calling you Bading/Bakla/Baks or Pinsan. Magaling talaga si Lord e. Kahit mahirap ung mga pinagdadaanan natin parating meron mangyayare na mapapasabe kang "worth it naman pala lahat ng paghihirap".

I'm sure narinig mo na toh sa iba at ngayon mo lang din maririnig sakin toh... Oo, swerte nga si Tim na bestfriend ka niya. Walang biro. Alam mo baket? Kase ako, hindi mo ko bestfriend pero feel na feel ko na ang kaswertehan. Ano pa kaya si Tim diba?:)

Baks, hindi ko man mapropronounce ng maayos ang Ysel alam mo namang heart na heart kita. Mula sa kabaklaan at sa seriosohan, alam mong andito ako para sayo. I love you Bading, Bakla, Baks, Pinsan! Love you Ysel:) You've been nothing but the best. Thank you...:)

*Uy ah, bawal umiyak! Kase naluluha na ko e! HAHAHA

Haha. bading talaga yon. Ang drama. :) Pero naiyak talaga ako. Kahit katabi ko sa RSF ung crush ko nung 1st year HS ako. haha. :) Pinsan, Bading: I heart you like a trillion caramel sundaes. Alam mo yon. :)

Anyway, after classes, Nic and I went to UP for her play and for this concert.. We took the UP Katipunan jeep and bumaba kami sa Romulo Hall. Lost talaga kami. Kinausap ko lang ung katabi ko sa jeep. :) While we were standing there, may dumaan na car na gwapo ung ngddrive.. :) tapos.. sabi ko "Si MARVIN CRUZ un!" .. Nic had this biggest crush on Marvin Cruz so sinundan namin siya and sa kanya kami ngtanong kung pano makarating sa Bahay ng Alumni.. :) haha :) Super nakasmile lang ako sa knya while he was giving the directions.. Di ko tuloy naalala ung lahat ng sinabi nya.. Basta! He's so gwapo and so mabango!!!! Anyway, sa concert, we met up with Mr. Jorda and his friends.. tapos dumaan na naman ung car ni Marvin Cruz!! wahhhh!!!

Today, I woke up early to watch the CSA vs Southridge game.. BADTRIP. SAYANG. panalo na, natalo pa.. hayyy.. the score was 69-68.. Overtime.. hayyy.. But on the other hand, ATENEO won over UP! :) yeah! JC Intal was superb! haha! Oh yeah, I like Zion Laterre!!!! :) # 21- ADMU Blue Eagles :) Oh well... Here's a pic of Daniel Fermin in action.. haha! (para kay Tini to actually) :)

Hayy.. Galing ako sa Glorietta and nakakainis kasi ang daming tao. Midnight Madness kasi.. Pero happy pa rin ako kasi I bought this colorful Esprit umbrella. Sana umulan sa Tuesday! :)

Parang tinatamad ako mag-tryouts for the Ateneo Golf Team. Waah. Ung Math LT ko.. *Lord, help me.*

...

2005-07-21T17:10:00.000+08:00

Take Me Out of the Dark

Just what is it in me?

Sometimes I just don't know

What keeps me in Your love,

Why you never let me go

And though you're in me now,

I fall and hurt you still

My Lord, please show me how

To know just how you feel

You have forgiven me

Too many times it seems

I feel I'm not what you might call

A worthy Christian after all

And though I love You so

Temptation finds its way to me

Teach me to trust in You

With all my heart

To lean not on my own understanding

I just forget

You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, my Lord

I don't wanna be there

You've never left my side

You gave Your hand to me to hold

Oh Jesus, I'm no longer in the cold

And yet, I leave You there

When I feel satisfied

I'd like to thank You every day

Not only when I feel that way

I've never known a Man

Who'd give His life for sinners like me

And yet, because He loves us so

He's promised us eternity

And we can have that promise

And be His if we have faith

And just believe

Teach us to trust in you

With all my heart

To lean not on my own understanding

We just forget

You won't give us what we can't bear

Take us out of the dark, My Lord

'Cause we don't want to be alone

Take me out of the dark, My Lord

We don't wanna be there, My Lord

I just had my Math Long Test a while ago.. I think I'm gonna get an F.. yes, my first ever F in my whole damn life.. oh well, i have to let go and let God .. But I just can't understand why this happened.. I mean I studied so hard last night for this test.. I answered all the items in the sample long tests.. Hayyy..

I felt so terrible.. so I decided to txt Tim.. and when he replied, that's when I cried.. His message went something like "F? R u sure? U alright? nything bothering u? I suggest u focus more on ur studies.. ul get the hang of it later on.. ur in admu nw remember? =) smile.. ull do better.." I guess he's right.. I have to focus more on my acads.. hayy.. in high school naman, I wasnt like this.. I don't know what's happening with me..

Also, I thought that maybe, God wants me to realize something.. I mean He wouldnt let this happen naman if He doesn't want me to learn a certain lesson.. He lets something happen because that certain instance has a significant purpose...

Guys, pray for me.. I need your prayers badly... "Don't worry about anything, instead, pray about everything.. Tell God what you need and thank Him for all that He has done.."

oh yeah, it's the 21st today.. happy happy.. ;) you know who you are.

2005-07-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

Im really not in the mood to blog right now.. But yeah, I want to update you with what has been happening in my life.. So here..

SATURDAY : Ace's 20th birthday bash.. :) It was fun since I was with my barkada again.. We were so noisy in the MRT.. hahaha. :) word for the night: NAGMAMAGANDA.. :) pictures at my multiply .. :)

SUNDAY : I went to Araneta Coliseum to watch the ADMU-DLSU game.. I saw some of my batchmates in CSA.. I saw Tim's classmates too.. Okay, we lost.. but yeah, there's more to life than basketball.. hehehe. :) WIN OR LOSE. IT'S THE SCHOOL I CHOOSE. :) *saw my dearest X.*

MONDAY : It was just a regular school day.. syempre, I got to hang out with my Hot Legs.. haha. Nic and I watched AJ's traning at the Blue Eagle Gym.. :)

TUESDAY : I hung out at Nic's condo with Nic and AJ during my 3-hour-break.. :) super laugh trip.. :) Dr. Muga gave us a quiz in Math as well.. boo.

WEDNESDAY : I had only one subject.. Fil11 lang= [graded recitation palagi]... my English teacher is out of town kasi.. :) Super happy ako nung day na to 'coz I got to txt with Tim.. hehehe. :)

THURSDAY : Muntik na magka-free cut sa ES. hehe. :) okay lang kahit hindi.. I got my Math quiz back.. 19/20.. whohooo! :D I had my PE practical test.. I got an A!!!! whoohooo! I love ballroom dancing esp. SWING! :) Nic, Jam, Aries and I watched the UP vs DLSU game.. yey! UP won! UP Fight! [MARVIN CRUZ, JINO FERRER AND BRUCE QUEBRAL ARE SO HOT..] :) Nic, Jam and I had a "slumber party" as well.. :)

FRIDAY : I didn't have any class at all.. My English prof's still out of town, and my Fil11 teacher texted me and told me that we're not gonna have a class.. I still went to Ateneo to pass my handbook contract.. Damn.. I got rejected by the ADSA.. hayyy.. :( this is so frustrating.. but yeah, I had baklaan sessions with Nic's blockmates.. [AJ, Edronel, Jose, Tonton, Keanne] :) I had so much fun with them.. :) Afterwards, Nic and I went to G4. She went shopping first, and then we watched If Only... What can I say? I cried all throughout the movie.. Im such a crybaby.. hayyy.. btw, the movie's REALLY nice.. :)

I don't know if I'll watch CSA's game tomorrow.. I think I need to rest... I have to attend the AMS OrSem pa tomorow afternoon.. hayyy.. anyway, here are some recent pics.. :) MORE PICTURES AT MY MULTIPLY.. :)

2005-07-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

I just love this day. :)

Since we had no classes in Ateneo, Nic and I decided to visit our dear alma mater... I got there around 12:15 and I went straight to the faculty room since my dear ate told me to give a certain letter to our Math coordinator.. :) I was happy to see some of my teachers again.. After 10 minutes, Nic arrived so we went to the Caf.. {oops.. to the canteen.. hahaha.. Im getting used to the Ateneo lingo na..:) }

When we got there, Nic tried to avoid someone.. haha. but unfortunately, that certain someone saw her pa rin.. yiheee.. :) hahaha. :) I saw my 4th year gal friends.. and I talked to them for a while.. then on to the next table.. it was Pon's barkada's table.. :) hehe.. I saw Gieo's barkada as well.. hayyy.. I missed them.. :)

As soon as they went back to their classrooms, Nic and I ate lunch.. I missed the Santie's Tapa so I bought that.. my goodness... it's Php 60 na! haha. :) so there.. Nic bought naman Santie's Chicken.. hehe. :) the food in our canteen is very different talaga from the food in the caf.. hayyy..

We went to the gym as well since there was a Welcome Freshmen program.. hehe.. I was surprised with the whole program since it was too short.. I mean there weren't even fun games like what we had last year.. And also, there was no inter-family cheering competition.. hehe.. :) I remember last year, Cheeze [our class president] was even called to the Head Teacher's Office since our cheers daw were kinda bastos.. hahaha. :) someone made sumbong kasi eh.. hmp! we had to change it tuloy..

Awwww... I miss my class.. I passed by our 4D classroom a while ago and I can't help but think of the fun times that we had in that room.. from the countless jokes.. the everyday eating session in the classroom {na bawal naman}.. to the bad trip-an moments kapag songfest or sabayan or readers theatre practice... hayyy..

Oh well.. My sister was right.. Dati kasi when I was telling her na I want to go to college na since I want to get out of HS, she told me na kakainin ko daw ung sinabi kong un... eto na nga.. hayyy..

But still, I love being in Ateneo. :)

I missed my *hot legs* today... Sana I'll see him on Sunday sa Ateneo - La Salle UAAP game.. :) AYAN EH! :)

2005-07-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

hay nako.. random stuff lang.. :)

happy birthday ace and julie! [july 4] * happy birthday bern and mico! [july 6] * happy birthday daddy! [july 7] hehe.. :) para complete na ung this week.. hehe.. :)

I'm one of those people who easily complain about the weather.. last month, it was so hot in Ateneo.. but now, that has changed since it's always raining/drizzling and I'm not loving it at all.. first of all, it's such a hassle to wear those comfy flip flops coz kadiri ung feeling pag it gets wet na.. and bad vibes din if you wear jeans since parang magkaka-polkadots dahil sa tumatalsik na water. bad trip.

anyway, here I go again. I'm really drawn to guys who are not into girls. gets? I hate this. :( he's just so hot. and i always get this giddy feeling when im talking to him/her. haha. laboness. :)

i met this new guy in our math class. haha. :) isa lang masasabi ko. super small world. :) and yeah, ang cute nya. :)

i saw some of tim's classmates a while ago in Xavier Hall.. punch and rudolf.. :) they made me smile.. feeling ko tuloy andito lang si tim.. :) oh well.. :)

ayoko ma-F sa P.E.!!!! shit.. mejo na-lost pa ako kanina sa steps.. siguro I wasnt in the mood lang talaga.. pray for me and my dancing partner guys.. hehe. :) next week na ung practical test namin..

oh yeah, i love the movie Monster In Law.. aside from the fact that Michael Vartan is so damn hot, i really like the story.. haha. :) nic, my ate and i watched in gateway.. hehe. :) naiyak kami ni nic sa movie.. ganda talaga.. panuorin nyo! :)

yay! no classes on friday.. i'm loving this.. haha. pero hindi rin.. i won't see him for like 3 days? ... hayyy.. :( TIPSY KO NA TALAGA SIYA. oh well...

ayun lang.. update lang on my life.. :) sana hindi malakas ung ulan tomorrow.. :)

People who I extremely miss right now:

1. mom, dad, mae

2. TIM :)

3. tropang chums

4. Laitera Gang

5. c-b-c-d people

6. tini

7. my 4th year boys

and a lot more. :) hehe. :) (yehey! ateneo - la salle game na on sunday!)

2005-06-29T08:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL FERMIN! :) love ka ni "ate ysel".. haha. alam mo yan. :)

Wonderful things that have been happening to me and things that have made me smile recently:

1. I passed my Fil11 Diagnostic Test. :) I got the highest score in the class. :) and my crush looked impressed. haha!

2. I passed my Ma11 Diagnostic Test as well. At first, I was disappointed when I got a B.. but what the heck.. that's still a 3. :) and that's what the Lord gave me. :)

3. I've been bonding like 24/7 with Nic.. haha! :) and I'm having so much fun with her.

4. I love staying in a condo. :) I don't get to complain about heavy traffic in katipunan.

5. My friendship with Tatan gets better and better everyday. :) I love the fact that we're in the same school now.

6. I get to talk to Tim more often now. :)

7. I found out that Tim's plan to go home on september is like 75% sure. :)

8. I already have tickets for the Ateneo-La Salle game on July 10. (thanks to L.A., of course. :) )

9. I love my P.E. Class! :) i just love ballroom dancing and fortunately, I dont have a problem with my partner... :)

10. Ocassionally, I bump into David, this upperclassman crush of mine.. :) too bad he's taken. but yeah, he's still hot. haha.

11. I'm so proud of my sister since she's now part of the CSA Volleyball Varsity Team. :) [o mae, u have to make us libre! conya amp!]

12. I just love Tuesdays and Thursdays.. :) my crush is my constant seatmate in our Math class.. :) and he's my groupmate in our ES lecture class.. :)

13. I saw Bea yesterday in Ateneo.. my gosh.. it seemed like i havent seen her in ages! :)

14. I'm loving my English prof.. :) haha. he's just so amazing. :) that's why Im lovin my English class.. [right Bern and Loren?]

15. Im excited for July 8. No classes for us Ateneans. so I'll visit my alma mater. :) I can't wait to see my friends back in CSA. :)

oh well. :) I'm loving my life. :) Thanks to You. :) *Lord, salamat. :) *

2005-06-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

i woke up quite early for my 11:30 class today.. so as usual, i went online to check if my dear tim emailed me na.. and yahoo.. he did. :) and his message made me smile.. you know why? coz he told me that his family decided to go home on september, but they'll stay here just for 5 days.. just to attend his tito's wedding.. oh well.. tulad nga ng sinabi ni tini, ayoko rin umasa.. coz i might end up getting disappointed lang.. but yeah, i just pray na sana nga matuloy yun.. kahit one day lang na makasama ko siya.. ill be the happiest girl on earth.. haha. :) ill kill him with my hug.. just playin.. haha! :) i just miss him so much.. grabe.. it's been like 8 months since he left and more often than not, i still find myself longing for him.. oh well.. lalo na now that i'm in ateneo na.. waaahh.. there are so many things that remind me of him.. boo.

i got this from jon-d's blog.. hehe. :) [sorry na.. gaya gaya.. haha.] this is for my TIM of course.. :)

"Missing you gets easier everyday 'cause even though i'm one day farther from the last time i saw you, i'm one day closer to the next time i will.."

i need to have good grades! my dad told me that if i have good grades this sem, i can go to the states and visit tim.. waaahh!!! i have to see him.. i have to be with him na..

but if wala naman sa plan ni Lord yung magkita kami this year, okay lang.. :) i know naman na He has better plans for the both of us.. hehe. :) *I can wait forever.. and I will wait forever..* :)

* i miss you dear. * :)

2005-06-23T17:17:00.000+08:00

grabe, it's been quite a while since i last posted an entry.. hehe. :) oh well.. i have this feeling kasi na parang there's nothing "interesting" thats happening in my life eh.. oh well.. a quick recap of my week:

friday: rica's debut! :) i had so much fun with my friends.. :) i was so happy kasi i got to be with "my boys".. awww.. i missed them...

saturday: i went out with my sisters lang. glorietta. as usual.

sunday: stayed at home... un lang. *kainis. sayang si james yap.*

monday: went to ateneo kinda early because of my guidance interview. he asked so many questions about me. sa lovelife part? isa lang sinagot ko. "ZERO." haha. :) after, i had my filipino class and then english class.. and then wala pa palang intac kaya masaya. hehe. :)

tuesday: HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKEE! :) after ES, we ate at yellow cab. libre ni nikee.. yey! :) kaso wala si MVP nun kaya di ganun kasaya. haha. :) tapos math. i love my math teacher. hehe. :) tapos PE. hehe. swing ung 1st dance namin. aliw. hehe. :)

wednesday: mass of the holy spirit sa gesu. :) my first time to celebrate mass with another community, the atenean community. :) hehe. :) AGUSTENISTA to eh.. hehe. :) fil and then english classes ulit.. yehey! di ako basic sa filipino! and highest pa ako sa diagnostic test! whohooo! :) *sana sa math rin..* i got to talk to my best friend tim. that made my day. :) he's just so amazing. i love him. :)

thursday: yehey! free cut ung ES lecture namin.. haha. :) went to moro. eh kaso closed pa ung whatever nila dun eh we were hungry na.. so we ate na lang sa HS caf.. haha. :) wala lang. :) after, ES lab class.. experiment.. early din kmi dinismiss.. then math.. lesson: equalities and inequalities involving absolute value.. hehe. :) katabi ko si *mvp* nun.. yehes. ang saya ko na naman. :) tapos, PE. ang sakit ng legs ko. haha. swing pa rin. mas marami na nga lang set ng steps...

GRABE. ANG HOT SA ATENEO. I SWEAR.

anyway, here are some pics taken knina. :)

haha. ayun. :) ang saya sa ateneo. pero ang init nga lang. grabe. :)

one helluva crazy day..

2005-06-17T08:21:00.000+08:00

hey! i woke up early today. hahaha. but my class is at 11:30 pa. i only have 2 subjects for today. filipino and english. hehe. :) after, im gonna go home and prepare for rica's party.. oh yeah.. :)

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY RICA PAZ!!!! i love you dear. :) and you know that. :)

so yeah.. im gonna make kwento about what happened yesterday.. grabe. sobrang crazy day.. so i had my ES classes (lecture and lab) in the morning.. :) for lab, we had to form groups of 5... groupmates ko sila fred, LA, kristine (this ican girl from Comtech) and Jotham (this uaap player from comtech).. he's my friend's ex pala. hehe. i like my group. :) sana lang may mangyari talaga.. we're gonna have our first activity na nga on thursday.. we were assigned sa Smokers Pocket Garden.. haha. :) weird naman nun.. magmumukha kming ewan dun kc we have to examine the site tlaga. like describe the structures there. the living things, etc. hehehe. :)

the prof dismissed us early so we went to the caf kasi we were starving na.. eh OA. sobrang daming tao sa caf down, caf up and caf up up.. so we decided to go to the ateneo HS caf na lang.. tapos biglang ng-bell na.. haha. hottie haven! :) lunch break na pala ng 2nd year and 4th year.. hahaha. and as what i expected, i saw HIM. MY EVER DEAREST EX-BOYFRIEND.... hayy.. super awkward moment.. i felt kinda tense. bakit kaya? waah. di ko na mahal un. so yeah, it seemed like we were running late for our math class so we went back to the college campus na.. :)

math class . the best part of my day. hahaha. :) my blockmates know why. hahaha. :) *The closer i get to touching you.. the closer i get to loving you.. give me time just a little more time.. we'll be together.. with a little smile.. that SPECIAL SMILE .. the twinkle in your eyes in a little while... * hahaha. :) mahal ko na ba siya? .. di pa... natutuwa lang ako sa kanya. hehehe. :) his smile makes me weak. .. sobra. :)

after my math class, i went back to the condo to change into my PE attire.. :) tapos went back to the college cov courts ksi my blockmates were playing bball.. hehe. tapos i txted my mvp where he was kasi i asked him to buy me an ES book... sabi nya di daw siya nakabili and he'll return my money na lang daw in a while.. sabi ko kahit wag na muna.. then to my surprise, i saw him.. and he was gonna approach me.. waaaah.. he is so cute.. :) hayyy.. haha.

free cut lang ung PE ko so yeah. nakakainis. so we went to mcdo na lang. super traffic kaya sobrang pnaghintay ko si nic. finally, i got to mcdo. guess who was there? yeah. my ever dearest ex boyfriend who i saw during lunch time.. his friends were there pa. awkward moment # 2. grabe. julie came and we went with her sa blue eagle gym kasi she tried out for the blue babble. hehe. :)

so yeah. ganun lang nangyari sa day ko khapon. kinda crazy huh. dahil sa "Case of the Ex".. haha. :) un lang. :)

2005-06-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

i wont make this a photo blog entry. haha. :) check my multiply site na lang for the pictures from last night.. :)

haha. last night was super fun. grabe. mica looked fab.. and we were soooo noisy.. hahaha. :) i missed my chums.. grabe. hehe. :) anyway, naging TK ako coz i went home early.. im tired na kasi eh.. hahaha. :)

friday: reg day. grabe. muntik pa ako ma-late. hehe. sabi kasi, we have to be there mga 15 mins b4 our ETA. haha. eh i got there 5 mins b4 my ETA. haha. buti nakahabol. :) ES ung nat sci ko and ballroom dancing ung PE ko.. o diba.. fun! :)

saturday: guidance test. haha. :) syempre ang bilis ko na naman natapos. went to mcdo with the Fab 5, the Spice Girls, and the 2 people from Asian Salad. (mike and gabe).. haha. :) went to g4 after. went home, then went to mica's party.

today: went to glorietta. mass. lunch. bought a shirt from Bayo. slept. had my Household Meeting. :) fun! :)

ayon. yey. holiday tomorrow. pero ill go to the condo tomorrow night na.. hayy.. first day funk on tuesday. haha. :)

Hauoli's over.. awww.. :(

2005-06-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

hey there! im sooo tired... haha. orsem day 3 was super fun! we were with our english blockmates.. so it was back to square one.. getting to know you GDs again and all.. hehehe. :) but it was fun naman.. i love my block.. E13.. haha. kahit na basic kami.. oo na.. bobo na.. hahaha! :) oh well.. so here are some of the E13 pics.. :)

we also had our org tours.. grabe.. 44 orgs.. kapagod sobra... hahaha. :) after, it was orsem night and we were allowed to be with our friends na.. hehe.. :) so many bands played.. and the most astig thing for me was when Spit came.. they're this group of comedians.. hehe. .astig talaga.. :) the yellow group was asked to name areas in the ateneo campus from A-Z.. haha. :) tapos letter L na.. someone shouted "La Salle!" and Gabe Mercado, the "Ok ka ba tiyan" guy, said.. "La Salle is not a school.. it's a state of mind.." hahaha! :) loko talaga un! :)

we also had the Orsem Idol- in singing and in dancing.. haha. :) kaaliw ung dance idol contest.. haha! :) astig talaga.. :) saya talaga maging Atenista.. :) saya ng orsem.. like whats written in our Hauoli shirt, "No other university does it the way we do..".. yeah! :) school spirit!

here are some of the orsem night pics with my Augustinian friends.. :)

reg tom! :) weee! first time ko na ienroll ang sarili ko! yey! :)

orsem day 1 Hauoli!

2005-06-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

hey there... im in the condo right now... and im nagpapaantok lang so i felt like blogging.. hehehe..

anyway, it was the first day of our orsem.. *Hauoli!* .. hehe.. :) the Akafellas performed during our lunch break.. hehe. :) astig.. hehe.. the 1st day funk guy was there too.. he was the TNT of block P5.. sayang di siya ung samin.. hehe. :) so generally, day 1 of the orsem was.. hmmm... it was fun BUT tiring.. grabe.. word for the day:MOB!=mobilize.. not barok na move.. haha!.. :) grabe we had our campus tours.. and kapag wer gonna transfer to another spot, they want us to MOB! (pron. mowb ).. hehe. :) so yeah.. the GDs were fun.. kasi i have a cool block.. hehe. :) astig talaga... mejo chums na kmi nung iba kong blockmates.. like sila fred, jj, nicole,nickee, benson, yvette, auda, etc.. :) tomorrow nga, we might hang out in nickee's place in eastwood after the SOM night.. sana naman matuloy.. hehehe! :)

hmmm.. SOM night.. grabe.. im so looking forward to it.. haha! Chris Tiu's gonna be there.. yey! :) haha.. he's so cute nga dun sa mga "SOM eye for the fresh guy" tarpaulins eh.. he's like part of their "Fab 5" or sumthing.. haha! :)

ateneo high's gnna have their 1st day of classes tomorrow.. so its gnna be super traffic na naman.. whew.. buti na lang, i just walk to ateneo. haha! :)

i miss my bed!!! :(

snew layout..

2005-06-05T00:28:00.000+08:00

new layout.. :) my heartfelt thanks to shari .. :) visit her site guys.. :) she's super talented when it comes to these stuff.. hehehe..:) i love ya my dear YFC sis! :)

anyway, im sticking to this layout na.. :) i got these lines from one of my favorite Hillsong songs, There is None like You.. :) and i super love the colors and the picture.. :)

hayyy.. i love You Lord! :) ... (ysel sings.. [and i lift my voice.. to worship You.. O, my soul rejoice... ] :) )

anyway, i watched A Lot Like Love with Nic last Friday.. the movie was sweet... there were a lot of scenes which reminded me of my best friend Tim ... hahaha.. but as for my favorite part, let this picture talk..

it was so sweet.. hahaha.. :)

ciao! :)

long distance relationships..

2005-06-01T11:51:00.000+08:00

Do long distance relationships work?

This is a question na hindi masagot ng mga tao with a straight yes or a straight no.. kasi masyadong complicated.. oo, ang mga LDRs ay sobrang complicated.. siguro, one saying na sumusuporta sa LDRs ay ang "absence makes the heart grow fonder..".. pero para naman sa mga non-LDR believers, may sariling version din sila nito.. ang "absence makes the heart go wonder..".. nakakatawa man ngunit totoong nangyayari to in the real world..

Hindi ko masasabing expert na ako sa bagay na ito pero i can't deny na ive beein in an LDR.. oo,hanggang ngayon, LDR believer pa rin ako.. siguro dahil yun sa katotohanang in love ako sa love.. in love ako sa magic that love brings me.. and para sa akin, kahit nasa magkabilang dulo pa kayo ng mundo, kapag mahal niyo ang isa't isa, nothing can ever go wrong.. hay nako.. umikot ang lovelife ko sa paniniwalang iyan.. ngunit anong nangyari? ayun.. nabigo ako.. I was back to where i started.. and there i was, empty handed..

naaalala ko pa dati, halos maubos na ang savings ko sa kakabili ng internet cards.. halos mamuti ang mata ko sa kakahintay na magring ung phone in the wee hours of the night.. everyday kong inoopen ung e-mail ko.. hoping na may new message from him.. nung una, okay lang sa akin un, khit medyo nakakapagod na.. if i dont see any email message from him, i would come up with different reasons kung bakit di siya nakapag-email.. "Baka busy.." or "Baka sira lang ung PC nya.." I may have not been aware of it, but ayun, nagpapakatanga na pala ako.. i was just fooling myself..

Anyway, sobrang daming attachments ng isang long distance relationship.. LDRs always go with expensive phone bills, a tendency of acquiring insomnia, countless email messages and messenger conversations, and syempre, a lot of trust.. and when i say a lot, i mean A LOT... a day wouldnt go by without uttering "I miss you..".. magiging sobrang gasgas ng "I miss you" na yan.. haaayyy.. theres this weird feeling din when u talk and he tells you how his day was, and ayun ka, wala kang makwento kasi magsisimula pa lang ung araw mo..

aba, meron din tayong mga theme songs for long distance relationships.. # 1 para sakin ung A Thousand Miles ni Vanessa Carlton.. and syempre, ang classic na Right Here Waiting.. First line pa lang.. "Oceans apart.. day after day..",I'm sure mapapaiyak na ang ating mga LDR darlings..

Bakit ko nga ba sinulat to? Ewan ko ba.. sawang sawa na kasi ako sa nararamdaman ko.. Recently lang, kinuha na naman ng Amerika ang pinakamamahal kong matalik na kaibigan.. ayun.. nangyari na naman ang mga cry me an ocean sessions.. i was back to square one.. eto na naman ako sa countless emails, expensive phone bills, gasgas na 'I miss you's...

minsan, naiisip ko, worth it ba tong paghihintay na ginagawa ko? worth it ba ung mga efforts ko na ibalik ung dati, ung parang wala talagang nagbago.. nakakapagod na minsan.. at nakakainis pag alam mong wala kang magawa para makasama mo siya kung kailan mo gusto.. ngunit sa kabila ng lahat, kahit parang walang pinatutunguhan tong mga efforts ko para hindi kami mag-drift apart, okay lang sakin.. alam nyo kung bakit? mahal ko kasi.. mahal na mahal.. at sa huli, masasabi ko sa sarili ko na "even though it seemed like i should have let go of you, i held onto you.. kahit na you're a thousand miles away from me.." for sure, when that time comes.. ill be EXTREMELY HAPPY.. :)

wala lang.. just thinking out loud.. hehe.. :)

atenista na to! official na. :)

2005-05-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

hey there.. im stuck at home right now so i just feel like blogging..and tim isn't online.. so what else is there to do..

anyway, i had so much fun yesterday with my friends... i met up with renz and jam in g4..and surprisingly, i saw so many people who i really miss... i saw my 4D friends.. ronne (my sports editor successor).. and i saw david <3 pa! hehehe.. he was with his blockmates...i saw jiggs too... he was also with his 20+ blockmates.. grabe.. they looked like they were on a field trip.. haha..in glorietta 4? hahaha! :) he introduced renz, me, emman and victor to his blockmates..grabe.. i remembered a single name lang.. Peter.. haha.. ung iba i cant remember na.. hehehe.. :) i met up with ace and mark too.. and we hung out lang in food choices.. hehe.. FOR A CHANGE.. hehe.. :) * i kissed david! yay!:) *

we went to magallanes around 7 pm... for audry's party... we were the first ones to arrive.. hahaha.. but we met nico, audry's cousin.. he's so cute.. he has appeared in some commercials and in this certain movie.. in My First Romance.. he was John Pratt's best friend in the film.. hehe..he's so nice.. chums na namin siya agad.. hehehe.. :) it was so fun to be with my DLSU friends... grabe.. we kept on laughing lang.. grabe... i missed them so much.. :) my dad picked me up around 1030 coz he was worried that i might get sick again.. hehe.. oh yeah, may bet nga pala kami ni allenie and renz.. ang unang magka-boyfriend sa amin, manlilibre sa Dad's.. hahaha.. :) alam kong hindi ako yun.. hehehe..

when i got home, i just went online and i was chatting with my course-mates.. Jamie's so nice.. :) unfortunately, we arent in the same block.. the block lists are out na... i'm in block P.. ralph and mian are in P1.. jamie, miggz and jizlynn are in P3.. but thank God, i have a friend in my block.. fred santos.. i met him in YFC.. "batchmates" kami sa YFc.. :) he came from La Salle Greenhills.. yey.. and i "miss called" him knina.. and he called back.. ayun.. astig talaga.. cute pa un.. and basketball varsity siya dati sa LSGH.. at least may chums na ako sa block ko.. :) im happy rin coz 162 ung random number ko sa registration... yey..:)

i love carrie underwood's song.. *I.. wanna be inside your heaven... take me to the place you came from.. where the storms blow your way * hehehe.. i just love her.. :)

i have to end this now.. wala na ako makwento.. :)

ang hirap pala kapag sobrang hinahanap hanap mo yung isang tao pero wala kang magawa para makapiling siya... malayo kasi siyang malayo.. ilang araw na kaming hindi nakakapagusap.. at sobrang nalulungkot na ako... bakit ganon? sa kanya, parang okay lang kapag di kami magusap nang matagal.. pero ako, nababahala talaga ako?.. nagiging malabo na naman ako..

new layout

2005-05-27T12:49:00.000+08:00

hey there.. :) i have a new layout.. hehe.. actually, i dont really know this band but i just got amazed with the layout since it has a big Y ... hehehehe.. :) ang cute..

anyway, it's my friend's 18th bday today.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDRY DIONISIO! hehehe.. so we have a get together tonight at her house... i can't wait to see my friends again.. hehehe.. i miss my La Sallian chums.. hehehe.. :)

i'm missing tim right now.

havta go. wala rin ako makwento. ciao! :)

new AI!:)

2005-05-26T11:33:00.000+08:00

carrie underwood ROCKS!

im off to glorietta.. later!

sick again..

2005-05-23T12:52:00.000+08:00

hey there.. i hate it.. im sick again.. this started last saturday afternoon.. im not sure pa how it happened.. but yeah, after having my treatment at slimmers, i had a fever.. boo.. now.. im stuck at home.. and i guess i can't go out for several days pa.. boo.. anyway, an update on my life:

saturday : woke up at 9 am. went to the gym to watch my team's game against the Magallanes boys.. yeey.. we won.. after, the players had lunch here at our house.. Phoenix won.. yey! i love Steve Nash.. after lunch, went to slimmers.. and after, stayed at home and watched PBL.. yey.. Welcoat won! when my dad found out that i had a fever na naman, we went to the hospital.. kainis.. ng-CBC na naman ako.. ang sakit na ah... basta.. sumthing's wrong with my blood daw.. konti daw the white blood cells to fight bacteria.. shit.. i felt terrible that day.. coz of my fever nga..

sunday : stayed at home.. di pa ako nakapagsimba coz my head's pounding me kapag bumabangon ako sa bed.. Sorry Lord... txted and txted with tim...

haaayyy.. sana gumaling na ako... pray for me naman guys.. my DLSU friends are in school now.. first day of classes.. hehe.. :)

this is for real.. COLLEGE NA TALAGA KAMI..

2005-05-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

haayyy.. i went out with my Tropang Chums a while ago.. :) it was so fun syempre.. as always.. hehe.. we had lunch at Friday's.. (o diba.. mayaman kami eh.. hahahaha! :) ) so yeah.. and dun pa lang, we were so noisy na.. eh hello... magkasama kasi kami ni monch.. so diba.. what do u expect.. haha.. grabe... syempre allenie was making us saway... haha.. and i was like "Monch! feeling mo nasa canteen ka lang?" :) hehehehe.. hehe.. while waiting for the food, we were talking about allenie's debut.. right, we were planning for her debut.. haha.. it was so gulo.. i swear.. we always end up changing the topic.. and then allenie goes sumthing like "oy, wala pa rin ako plano sa debut ko.." hahaha.. :) ang kulit talaga sobra.. :) we ate Chicken Fingers, Fettucinne Alfredo, Fish and Chips.. and for dessert, we had the strawberry crepe and the Oreo Madness.. kaya we became sooooo hyper after.. hahaha.. :)

after eating, we went to G2 to buy monch's belt.. and then we went window shopping na lang.. hehe.. Monch was OP coz we went to stores like Mango, Kamiseta, and the like.. hehe.. :) afterwards, sum people left na so kami na lang KARA ung magkakasama.. :) KARA stands for kristle, allenie, renz, ace.. :) hehehe.. and we hung out at Food Choices lang.. the usual people-watching... hehehe.. they were making me tukso to this certain guy.. BOO. hahaha.. :) we were talking about college life.. Renz had her orientation na kasi at College of St. Benilde.. she even won the Ms. Bibbo Kid Award.. haha! :)

there were like so many familiar people at Glorietta 4.. which makes it so fun! haha. :) i saw Eric Abella, my crush 2 years ago.. since he was from CSB too, i introduced him to Renz.. hehe.. :) George, Bert and JC were also there.. so i introduced Bert to Renz since Bert's a freshman in CSB too.. hehe.. :) Renz was like "ang dami mo pa lang friends sa benilde, di mo pinapakilala!" hehehe.. so yeah, JanB, Celina, Ta also joined us sa table.. and then i saw a familiar face who was withdrawing in a nearby ATM.. haha. it was Paolo Orbeta!:) Paolo Orbeta is Ace's cousin's boyfriend.. He's a PBL player too..astig coz he plays so well!and he's J.A.'s teammate.. so yeah, ace introduced me to Paolo.. Paolo was like "taga executive heights ka din?" and i was like "hindi. i met J.A. somewhere lang." hehe.. :) astig.. ang cute nya.. kainis kasi ng-golf si J.A. .. namimiss ko na un ah.. hehe. :)

Von also came and he sat with us.. bad trip.. he was singing DLSU's Alma Mater Song.. and i was like.. sige lang.. haha.. tas sbi pa nya "kristle pano ung Alma mater nyo?" blah blah.. ngccheer pa siya.. D.. L.. S.. U.. Animo La Salle! :) haha.. renz was like Animo Benilde! :) hehehe..

nagsi-sink in na sa akin.. college na kami.. sa monday nga, papasok na ulit sa school ang iba sa amin.. grabe.. magkakahiwalay na kami ng schools.. wala nang everyday lunch kulitans.. siguro every month na lang kami mgkikita.. ang sad nun sobra.. dalawa lang kaming super chums sa Ateneo.. kami ni mary.. although anjan naman sila nic, iba pa rin talaga pag Tropang Chums.. grabe.. ang senti na nito.. haaayyy.. ganyan talaga siguro ang buhay..

naiinis ako kay tim kasi naka-off palagi ung phone nya.. hehehe.. :) puro na lang "Hi.. You know what to do.." ung naririnig ko pag tumatawag ako sa kanya.. hehehe.. :) miss ko na un ah.. grabe...

haaayy.. nakakainis kasi kung kelan kmi umalis sa g4, andun pala si Wesley Gonzales.. daim.. hahaha.. :)

i must go to slimmers tom.. :) tag na lang kayo okay? ciao!

i want those sweet days back again..

2005-05-19T13:36:00.000+08:00

i really want those sweet days back again.. and i think they're coming back.. hehe.. :)

you see, Luigi* and i are "okay" na.. :) hehehe.. i talked to him 2 nights ago about our friendship.. and yeah, i told him that i miss summer 2004.. :) and i was hoping that we could relive those days.. and last night, hmmm.. i guess things started to be better for us.. i watched his game.. sadly, the villamor team lost again.. haha.. 0-2 na.. anyway, mae left something kasi at home so she and luiee went back to our house to get it.. and i told mae to get the 2 bottles of tropicana in our fridge.. one was for me.. one was for luigi.. so she got it and i gave one to luigi guingon.. since i wasnt that thirsty naman.. and the other one, i gave to Luigi*.. eh he was sitting on their bench.. ayun.. i slipped the tropicana sa may legs nya.. hindi man lang nya nafeel na andun un.. hehe.. since Lan was seated beside him, Lan placed it in his armpits. haha. :) of course, he got it na.. and Lan was like "galing kay isel yan.." and Luigi* was like "iinomin ko ba to?" ... hehehe.. :) ang cute.. i was watching him lang then i noticed ubos na ung Tropicana.. hehe.. :) ayun.. after the game naman, he thanked me tapos pinalo pa ung arm ko.. labo talaga nun.. hehehe.. :) we went home together.. around 11 na siguro un.. hehe.. and nag-beso pa kmi.. first time un ah.. :) hehe.. :) he made me happy talaga last night.. may time pa na while we were watching, nakaakbay siya sakin.. hehehe! :) *kilig*.. george asked me nga if patay na patay na daw ako sa knya.. and i was like "hindi noh.." hehe.. di naman talaga eh.. :) happy lang ako kapag im with him.. :)

when i got home, i became happier pa.. hehe.. kasi it was like 11:47 pm na.. eh in cali, it's 8:47 am.. so i thought that tim might be awake na.. hehe.. so i called him.. :) hehe.. and yeah, he was awake na nga.. he's gnna get his driver's permit na daw... yabang... hehe.. :) i said good morning to him.. and siya naman, he said good night to me.. hehe.. :) sabi nga ng sister ko, magkaiba na daw kami ng mundo... and i said to myself.. MAGKAIBA NGA SIGURO.. PERO MAHAL KO.. :) AT KAKAYANIN NAMIN TO.. ang drama! :) hahaha!

i didnt go to slimmers today.. hehe.. coz celso's gnna go here to get the guitar later.. hehe.. and i dont know.. i want aiman to miss me naman.. diba.. :) hehehe..

got to believe's showing on cinema one. haha! :) ciao!

new layout!

2005-05-17T11:23:00.000+08:00

hey there guys! :) new layout.. haha. i know.. it's so cheesy.. but yeah, im a sucker for love.. haha. :)

anyway, im hating this.. ive been stuck at home for like 4 days na.. and it's so boring... :( boo.. i wanna go to the gym coz i think i gained weight again.. boo..

im currently missing so many people..

1. TIM.
2. aiman.
3. tropang chums
4. LG
5. tini
6. my 3rd yr boys
7. wesley
8. and so many other people.

hahaha. :)

i want to talk to this friend of mine.. coz she really bothers me.. she's living an angry life.. if u read her blog, it's full of f*ck.. and sh*t.. she cusses in every sentence.. and i dont know.. i just dont want her to be like that.. i wanna share God's love with her.. but yeah, i dont know.. that's the image she wants to have eh.. a rocker=angry image.. whatever.. haha. good luck na lang sa kanya.. oh well..

I WANT TO GO TO THE GYM. :(

2005-05-15T17:15:00.000+08:00

hey there... im still sick right now.. ayaw talaga mawala ng fever, colds and cough ko.. nakakainis talaga... buti na lang Aiman is there.. at least mejo nakakasmile ako despite my condition..

it makes me sad to think that tim isnt here to take care of me. it's not like he's obliged to do so but yeah, i cant help but think of the time when i took care of him... he was confined kasi at makati med.. and thank God.. malapit ang makati med samin.. so i spent my saturday afternoon there... monday and tuesday after school, i was there too.. oh well..

mas mabilis siguro akong gagaling kung may nag-aalaga noh? BOO!! hahaha. :)

aiman, thanks for being there.. :) i appreciate it talaga.. :) what else can i say? you're the best dear..

here are some of the pictures during Renz's 18th beach bday bash....

              ME AND THE DEBUTANTE

               jam, renz and me..

                magic sing ladies! :) kanta pa!

           aren't we just adorable??? hehehe! :)

good morning sunshine! :) me with my sexxxy chickas.. hehehe! :)

hmmm.. kami ng dati kong best friend... cute ba kami together? :) hehehehe!!!!

        MORE PICTURES HERE!:)

im still not feeling well... till next time.. ciao!

it feels good pala..

2005-05-13T10:49:00.000+08:00

would you believe okay na kami ni josue?

yes. okay na kmi. thanks to renz's 18th bday beach bash. hehe. :) it feels good pala na maging okay na kayo ng taong naging importanteng bahagi ng buhay mo for 5 years... hehehe. :)

ang bait ko talaga. nagkasakit kasi si josue nung umaga. so i got breakfast from tita's room and brought it to ours kasi nga di siya makakuha ng food niya dahil nga he's sick. o diba. breakfast in bed. hehehe.

we had so many pictures. pero later ko na iuupload. tinatamad pa ako eh. hehehe. :) and along with the pics will be the blog entry tungkol sa beach trip namin. :)

slimmers again today. then g4. then blue ridge for gui and pon's party.

tim, i miss you.

let the pictures talk..

2005-05-09T14:17:00.000+08:00

nic's debut. one helluva crazy night. hehe. :) i had so much fun. kahit na mejo sabog ung dance number namin.. hehe. nic was so beautiful.. hehe.. aww.. 18 na ang bruha.. hehe. :) DREW ARELLANO SMELLED SOOOOO GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!! okay.. after the debut, ngstay lang kami sa suite.. ang saya sobra.. :) WASTED ung iba.. hehe. :) as for me, for the first time, parang di ako nakatulog sa isang inuman thing. hahaha. :) andun kasi si david and edward. haha. nagka-boylets pa ko. pero for just one night. haha. :) konti lang pics ko nung after ng debut.. namatay kasi digicam ko.. so cam ni junica ung ginamit.. hehe. :) bsta.. isang sobrang astig na gabi.. hinding hindi ko makakalimutan.. :)

anyway, here are some of the pictures..

              ME AND THE DEBUTANTE

               ace, me and kent..

                oh my! it's drew arellano! faint! :)

           me and gui.. :) one of the 4 birthday celebrants..

with gui's twin brother, pon.. :) also one of the 4 birthday celebrants..

with the boys.. hehehe. after my brkada's dance number.. kaya di na ko nakagown..

        MORE PICTURES HERE!:)

slimmers time.. hehe. :) ill be back later.. ciao!:)

just a day.. just an ordinary day..

2005-05-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

hey. im so bored right now. so i just thought of blogging. and yes, i am doing so right now. haha. :)

i just got home. from the park. haaay. buhay villamor air base. haha. tambay sa protacio park. hehe. :) anyway, i went to slimmers again kanina. did the usual stuff. AeroJam! fun! hehe! :)but super tiring too. now, i have a new inspiration. hehe. i like this guy, he's a fitness trainer in slimmers' world - salcedo. ehehe. :) after the aerojam, i went to the girls' shower room to change my top. and my sister told me that Aiman was looking for me daw. he was like "uy britney,(thats what he calls my sister)nasan si JLo?(yeah. thats what he calls me) hehehe. :) i found that cute. :) and while i was working out, he was talking to me. haha. :) he was making me kulit. i swear. i so crush him. :) eh i had to have my "treatments" so i went to the other room. and after my treatments, i saw him again. and he invited me to join him kasi he was gonna eat somewhere. and im like "diba sabi mo ung diet ko?" and he was like "ay oo nga pala." hehehe. :) daim. HE IS SO HOT. :) im gonna TRY to get his # tomorrow. haha. :)

anyway, our practice for nic's debut was cancelled. so sa friday na lang daw. so after slimmers, i went home agad. rest lang. tapos went out {haha. buhay villamor. ikot ikot lang dito} hahaha. :) ayun. joined the VYC meeting. went to the park after, watched guys who were playing bball. un lang.

boring day. haha. tomorrow, slimmers again. and maybe go to the mall to get nic something for her bday. and maybe gui and pon too. hehe.

ciao.

wala lang..

2005-05-03T13:30:00.000+08:00

can you ever say that you love a person because you miss him? never confuse such thing because missing doesnt always mean you love, but it could mean that you're only used to live life with his presence..

finally.. after 5 days..

2005-05-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

hey! finally.. after 5 "miss-you-days", i got to talk to my best friend.. that completed my day.. as usual... hehehe..

after chatting, i went to slimmers.. did the usual workout.. the usual treatments.. my personal trainor is SO HOT. i swear.. hehe.

im too tamad to blog. tomorrow will be work out day again.

im getting sick of this boring routine.

..::i feel sad because i won't be able to serve in the Youth Camp.. as much as i want to, i really can't.. it's gonna be on the 6th-8th of may.. and those days will be busy ones because of nic's debut.. may 6- rehearsals.. may 7- debut itself.. may 8- after debut "bonding time"... awee even txted me last week and asked me if it's okay if i deliver the talk 5.. the "heavy" talk.. "Growing in the Spirit".. haay.. i really want to.. it's really hard pala to say no.. lalo na to God.. haaayy.. im getting kinda frustrated because of this.. i'll be missing the wonderful praise and worships.. the amazing entertainment night.. the touching one on one sessions.. the great and inspiring talks and sharings.. the overwhelming tongues session.. the pleasure of bringing the participants closer to the Lord.. the bonding.. the "corny-but-kailangan-mong-tawanan" jokes.. my service teammates.. oh well.. *Lord promise, babawi ako.. * ::..

2005-05-01T13:45:00.000+08:00

my heartfelt thanks to all the people who commented.. in a way, naliwanagan na ang isip at puso ko.. i have to fight what i'm feeling.. because i know that eventually, ill get hurt lang.. and ayoko mangyari yon.. i guess the Lord gave him to me just to be my BEST FRIEND.. :) siguro alam ni Lord na sobrang wonderful tong tao na to and gusto nyang forever na siya nandun sa buhay ko.. kasi if i pursue what im feeling, it might not work out lang.. so sayang talaga yung friendship.. tama nga si jech tiu, baka im missing him so much lang..and siguro dahil may times na i become too lonely, siya lang ung taong iniisip ko and hinahanap-hanap ko.. siguro in college, mag-iiba na to.. hehe. :)

"OH GOD IS ENOUGH FOR ME, NOTHING ELSE WILL EVER BE.." --> yon.. :) ito lang dapat iniisip ko.. :)

I'M THANKFUL 'COZ I HAVE THESE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE

1. carme - thanks for the commment.. :) i know parehas din ung pinagdaanan natin..and i appreciate what you told me.. i know hindi ako mabibigo dahil nandiyan lang si Lord to give me strength.. :)

2. tini - bading! haayy.. yeah, ill be easy on this lang.. :) si ano un. si best friend. gets? :) i love you!

3. jam - my beloved thacks.. haaayy.. yeahp.. ill hold on.. no matter how hard it may be.. it's gets frustrating na kasi when it seems like ur waiting for nothing eh.. but yeah, ill be there for him.. na-promise ko na yun sa kanya before.. and ill fulfill that promise.. tama ka,our friendship is not worth throwing away..:) i love you too! :)

4. vince - oy! :) nagulat ako ah.. in fairness napatawa mo ako dear.. hehehe.. oo nga vince.. kasama sa paglaki to..thankful ako kasi anjan ka.. lagi kita maaasahan kapag gusto kong magsmile.. :)

5. shari - hey sister.. :) yeah. even the "geniuses" like us fall into this kind of situation.. hehe... ill take your advice.. ill let my heart lead the way.. :) thanks for lightening my burden.. :)

6. pearl - "we always want something more. minsan nasasaktan na natin sarili natin." BINGO. hehe. :) siguro nga i should just treasure what we have.treasure every minute of it with him.. :) kasi i know na it really makes me happy.. :) i love you too dear. :)

7. nic - LDR buddy ko.. :( see.. sa sobrang pangaasar ko sayo, nakakarma na yata ako.. ako ung nahihirapan ng sobra ngayon.. sige, im assuring you, i will HANG ON. :)

8. miko - *HUGS* awww.. naiyak ako sobra sa sinabi mo.. sobrang naliwanagan na ako.. nag-guilty nga ako kasi nakuha ko pang magsulat ng ganung entry when i should have justprayed and sought help from the Lord.. gaya nga ng sinabi ko, enough na Siya for me.. diba.. pero yun.. tama kang i dont deserve to be waiting for someone who isnt assuring me of something big.. kay Lord na lang ako diba.. sobrang great things pa ung mangyayari sa buhay ko.. I'LL FLY TO HIS ARMS.. :)

9. pattee - *HUGS* dear.. hindi ko siya tatalikuran.. hahayaan ko lang na mangyari ang mga bagay in the "natural way.." ill go with the flow na lang.. kung siya nga ung gusto ni Lord for me, diba.. bakit ko pa mamadaliin ang mga bagay.. siguro through this, i won't regret anything.. :) ill go back to being the best friend.. hindi ko muna papansinin for now ung kakaibang feeling na nararamdaman ko for him... :) i love you too. :) salamat sobra.. :)

10. renz - haaay.. i wouldn't let him know muna.. kasi di ko naman talaga sigurado kung LOVE nga to or namimiss ko lang siya sobra.. haay.. :) thanks for being there..
sobrang naappreciate ko yun.. :) i love you! :)

and to all the people who tried to help me with this certain problem of mine, THANK YOU. May the Lord God continue to bless you and your family. :)

** sadly, di pa rin siya nagpaparamdam.. its been 5 days since last kami nag-kausap.. haaay..

last night, i went to JONG's house.. to my 4D classmates.. jong.. still remember him? the ASEAN guy? baguio guy? hehehe. :) i was with jc kasi.. since we were soliciting for the VYC summer activities.. and we went to their house.. close pala si JC sa mom ni jong.. since classmates ung dad ni jc and dad ni jong.. so pinapasok pa kami sa house nila.. and un. tinawag pa si jong.. OH MY GOSH. he looked so good. :) hehehe.. this is the start of a wonderful summer adventure.. :) hahaha. :) i'm happy kasi he'll live na here sa manila.. :) yehey!:)

shit ayoko ng ganito.

2005-04-29T23:11:00.000+08:00

WARNING: KINDA LONG BLOG. :)

i went to nic's house a while ago.. i got there around 12 nn.. hehehe.. always the early bird.. my sister kasi has her volleyball thing at 1 so inuna na ako ihatid.. :) haha.. when i got there, naliligo pa siya.. so feel at home naman ako, i turned on the tv and the pc, tapos nag-internet ako.. hehehe.. :) i was hoping na tim would be online.. but he wasn't.. for the nth time, na-disappoint na naman ako.. siguro he was just busy with school.. i dont know..

gladys and jam got there at nic's house.. and i made pabili zagu kay glads.. thank God she bought for me.. hehe. :) ayon.. nuod lang kami wowowee.. hehehe. i super love that show.. :) sobrang laughtrip talaga pag nanunuod ako nun.. hehehe.. around 3 pm, renz arrived.. so we had to start practicing since our official choreographer arrived na.. hehehe. :) hay nako.. mejo mahirap pala gawan ng steps ung Get Right.. hmmm.. knowing renz, kung madali un, tapos na namin ung song.. eh hindi eh.. kasi its based on the beat, not sa counting.. hehe.. we were trying to copy JLo's steps pa sa music video.. hehehe. :) OA.. ang hirap.. ang bilis kasi.. hehehe.. :) anyway, junica, von, loraine and fran arrived too.. and they worked on the steps as well.. :) hehehe.. ang fun. :) ang kulit nga eh.. sabi ni nic, mgpapalit na lang daw kami into casual clothes para di hassle magsayaw kasi naka-dress.. and jam and gladys were like "okay lang.. may tagadala naman kami ng gamit eh.." and kami ni renz were like "ah.. okay pala eh.. kami rin eh.."{in the sarcastic sense of course.. } ehehehe.. :) hayy.. buhay single nga naman..

anyway, we finished the chorus and the verse after it.. so yea, we had merienda.. :) hehehe.. and un.. kwentuhan galore.. fran's date pala nung grad ball nila was josue.. and i was like.. "oohhh.. yeah.. okay..." hehehehe.. :) hayy.. i guess ill be seeing him sa 18th bday celebration ni renz next month... hmmm.. okay lang siguro un... last encounter with him..

i was watching Full House kanina.. final episode na.. sobrang nakakaiyak.. i dont know.. i like Rain kasi talaga.. so lahat ng gawin nya, nakakakilig.. hayy.. kahit na its my 3rd time to watch that, naiyak pa rin ako.. hehehe.. oh well..

kailangan ko na yata ng tulong. hindi ko na talaga maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon.. ayokong isipin na mahal ko na siya.. kasi hindi pwede.. hindi talaga maaari.. mahihirapan lang ako.. masasaktan lang ako.. kilalang kilala ko na kasi siya.. alam na alam ko na yung ugali niya pagdating sa mga relasyon.. madaling magsawa.. malapit sa iba pang mga babae.. pero bakit ganon.. kahit alam ko na ang katotohanang iyon, ang hirap pa rin pigilin ang sarili ko na mahulog sa kanya... masyado kasi siyang OKAY. gets? masyado siyang mabait.. mabait na anak.. mabait sa mga bata.. tapos sobrang lambing sakin.. at napakabango pa nya.. GWAPO pa sobra.. nakakayamot naman.. kahinaan ko ung mga un eh.. {kahinaan=weakness..} ilang beses ko nang sinubukan na labanan itong nararamdaman ko.. pero parang napapagod na ako.. kasi naman.. pagkagising ko sa umaga, siya agad ang una kong iniisip.. tapos hindi ako mapakali kapag hindi ko siya nakakausap.. parati kong tinitingnan ang telepono ko kahit alam kong imposibleng may ipadala siyang mensahe sa akin.. adik na nga yata ako.. hinahanap hanap ko siya parati..kapag tinatanong ako ng mga kaibigan ko kung kumusta ang buhay pag-ibig ko, sinasagot ko sila na wala akong ganon.. pero sa loob ko, ayos lang iyon sa akin kasi nandiyan naman SIYA para punuan ang pagkukulang na iyon.. para bang dahil nandiyan na siya, ayos lang sa akin kahit hindi na ako magka-nobyo ulit.. alam kong HINDI PWEDE ITO.. kasi naman.. lumayo pa siya sakin.. at ang masakit pa doon, noong nandito pa siya, nasanay ako na NANDIYAN LANG SIYA PARATI.. at sobrang SINANAY KO ANG SARILI KO NA DUMAMAY PARATI SA KANYA. kapag nakadama ako ng kalungkutan at kabiguan, siya agad ang kinukulit at iniiyakan ko. kapag nakadama naman ako ng kasiyahan, siya agad ang binabahagian ko ng kasiyahan na ito. ewan ko ba. sana sa ibang tao ko na lang ibinaling ang atensiyon na naibigay ko sa kanya.. sa ibang tao na alam kong hindi mahuhulog ang loob ko.. sabi ng isang kaibigan ko, i don't deserve this daw.. this=parang naghihintay ng wala.. mabuti daw akong tao.. obvious daw na i deserve someone better.. paano nga kung i deserve someone better pero para sa akin, you're the best na? shit. ayoko ng ganito.

im sorry. i just had to let it out... i would appreciate all your comments. :) batangas tomorrow baby. :) hehe. ciao! :)

my body hurts big time...

2005-04-27T20:35:00.000+08:00

my body hurts big time.. i swear.. i went to slimmers' world in salcedo a while ago.. i just want to lose some weight.. so yeah, my mom enrolled me.. i swear it was so fun.. the aerobics thingy was so fun.. hehehe.. and super aliw pa ung mga songs.. :) and the instructor..asteej. :) hehehe.. i have to go back tomorrow for my workout and for this "treatment" for my arms and my thighs.. hahaha. :)

i want to watch a movie on friday.. but i guess we'll be practicing for nic's debut on the 7th.. me=so excited.. :) hehehe.. but i want to watch gui's game also on friday.. decisions.. decisions.. :) hehe..

i was chatting with jorge, rica's boyfriend, a while ago.. ang kulit talaga nya.. :)

yselbautista1721 (7:57:58 PM): hehehe.

malupeet_29 (7:58:31 PM): ang saya mo a! bkit kya???

yselbautista1721 (7:58:38 PM): wala naman.. hehehe.

malupeet_29 (8:00:18 PM): pwede ba un? lam ko sa acp lang uso un e! d b pag tinanong k ng officer kng bkit ka tumatawa, ssbihin mo wala! tpos sasabihin ng officer syo, "baliw k b? masaya k ng wlang dahilan!" lalang... nagrereminisce lang!

yselbautista1721 (8:01:01 PM): haha! ang kulit mo jorge!

hehehe.. :) baka batchmates ko lang maka-relate jan.. :) hehehe..

i didnt get to chat with tim kanina.. and maybe pati tomorrow... but i think its okay.. i want him to miss me rin naman.. hehehe. :)

bonding with my Laitera Gang.. :)

2005-04-27T10:12:00.000+08:00

g'morning! :) kat woke me up today.. we were supposed to play golf.. but my arms still hurt and my mom wants me to go to slimmers today.. haha.. :) around 11 am pa naman so i just went online.. :)

friends.. i have a new YM id.. its yselbautista1721.. i changed it coz i was afraid that someone might hack my account.. like what happened to my sister's account.. :)

anyway, yesterday, i had fun with my Laitera Gang girls.. :) we just hung out at nic's house.. hehehe.. we watched White Chicks.. [favorite movie mehn!] hehehe.. and we just had our usual chikahan.. :) i missed those girls.. :) i can't wait to practice for nic's debut.. hehehe.. :) when i got home, i was bored so i went to the park.. :) and george invited me to join their youth club meeting.. :) so there.. i was with my friends once again.. :) sobrang saya.. :) hehe..but there was this girl na ang sungit.. whatever talaga siya. hahaha. kala mo naman siya ung president.. galit agad.. hahaha. anyway, luigi went there.. nung una sobrang pawis siya.. haha. :) then he went home and took a bath.. pagbalik nya, DAIM. HE SMELLS SO GOOD.. un ung smell na cn-crave ko everyday last summer.. :) hehehehe.. namiss ko talaga un.. hehehe.. :) then we went home around 11 pm na coz i was kinda sleepy na...

there.. :) im just updating my blog.. :) hehehe.. ay guys, u have to visit this blog.. http://49.raindown.org ... i swear.. i love her site.. :) hehehe.. ** i love you badingerz!**

hey, i have to end this now.. ciao! :)

new layout!

2005-04-24T13:31:00.000+08:00

hey! i have a new layout. i dont know. i just got bored with the previous one. and it was so sad. haha. and i like JLo. haha. :) my friends once told me that im like JLo daw coz of my butt. hahaha. :)

im currently chatting with tim right now. its a sunday and im stuck here at home. i heard mass na kasi yesterday. i went to g4 yesterday, watched Guess Who with Bianca and Katie, my AC friends and with Adrian. hehe. the movie's so funny!:) if you wanna get a good laugh, u should watch that. hehehe. :) anyway, after the movie, we just went to starbucks and bonded there.. after, my family and i heard mass there at glorietta too. :)

yey. i got a new course. BS Management. thank God. i got out of ECE! hahaha. :) im too tamad to type. ciao!

had a blast yesterday!

2005-04-21T11:20:00.000+08:00

hey there.. yeah, it's the 21st today.. yeahboi.. 20 months.. and counting.. haha. :) i love ya bestfwend..:) anyway, i had a blast with my friends yesterday.. :)

left the house around 11-ish.. met up with my friends in gb3.. red box baby! :) hahaha. sobrang grabe si renz! hindi nya pinapahiram ung mic! haha... :) it's fun kasi we were with cat once again.. after how many months.. :) oh well.. sobrang napaos na yata kami sa kakakanta.. hehehe. :) we stayed there til 3..

anyway, we went back to g4 after.. and my other friends watched Guess Who.. since i promised Gui im gonna watch their game in merville, i got a cab and i went there.. :) when i got there, 1st game pa lang.. so i bonded with Jo first.. then Sandz and Kat Fernando arrived.. and un.. sila na ung kabonding ko.. kainis.. Light Blue Team lost.. sobrang sayang.. actually, mali kasi ung mga calls ng referee.. boo. ah yeah, i had a crush on this guy na kalaban nila.. he kinda looks like LA tenorio in one angle pero iba talaga.. tapos ang cute pa nya when he's smiling.. :) harold daw ung name nya.. haha. funny. :)

after the game, we went to luigi's house.. and we hung out there.. we cooked pancit canton.. like 15 packs of em.. and we made padeliver liempo.. hehehe... ang kulit.. sobrang disaster pero okay lang.. hehehe. :) it was fun bonding with those guys.. :) i went home around 10.. and gieo brought me home.. hehehe. :)

i was supposed to go out with Angel today but i can't.. la na money eh.. next week na lang.. hehehe. :)

i so envy Sher, who's in the States right now.. and Bianca, who's gonna go to the States next week.. and Sassa, who's gonna go to the states on May 7. daim.. hehehe. :) im dying to see HIM. boo.

till here.. ciao!

katangahan. haha.

2005-04-19T21:48:00.000+08:00

hey! :) today was a "minimum" day. hehe. :) got up around 10. txted tim.. [-15 bucks from my prepaid].. haha. :) ate bread sticks. i so love those stuff. :) watched tv. and then tim txted me coz he's gonna go online daw. THANK GOD. :) hehehe! :) so yeah, after lunch, i was left here at home alone. :( boo. my dad has his conference. my mom was in Basa Air Base in Pampanga with her amigas. my ate's in ateneo coz of her summer classes. my younger sister's in ateneo too because of her milo volleyball. :) so yeah. all the doors were locked. haha. :) after quite some time, i wanted another bread stick. so, i went to our kitchen and got one. :) then i read the newspaper. and biglang humangin ng malakas. and voila! the door sa kitchen namin closed and i was locked sa kitchen. boo talaga. eh sobrang lahat ng doors ng house ko locked. buti sana if the main door was locked sa mismong door talaga. i could just get the key from someone. but hindi, ung screen door ung nakalock. haha. i felt so so stupid. buti na lang, my cousin, who was just working at an office near our house, went here to rescue me. and she opened the door with a prepaid card. hahaha. boo talaga. :)

anyway, i watched PBL kanina. :) it was J.A.'s game. haha. he is so HOT. :) hahaha. and ang galing nya kanina. i swear. :) unfortunately, Welcoat lost. :( boo talaga. sayang. overtime pa naman un. siguro i should watch his games live noh? haha. :)

im so excited for tomorrow. :) nic and mary's gonna go here around 10 am. and we're gonna go to redbox. weee. cat's in town! :) hehe! i miss that girl.:) after red box, i promised my boys to watch their game in merville. :) i so miss those guys. :) haha. i have to sleep na. ciao! :)

my deepest gratitude... :)

2005-04-18T12:54:00.000+08:00

I got inspired with reeca's entry so im gonna do somehow what she did. haha. :)

Since I didnt get the chance to share with all the dramas, dito ko nalang ibubuhos lahat. True enough, high school life helped me develop my skills, talents and personality. Sa apat na taon na ibinigay sa akin ng Panginoon ko rin nakasalamuha ang ibat ibang klase ng tao, na sa huli ay naging mga kaibigan ko na din.. Special mention(s) to the people who have made my life happier and more meaningful, but not in order ah..

* Jam - uve been God's precious gift to me. sobrang thankful ako kasi anjan ka and naging karamay kita sa halos lahat ng bagay. kulang na lang magsawa tayo sa isa't isa. haha. :)

* Ace- baki! :) haha. wala na ko masabi sayo. mahal kita baks. haha.

* Allenie- i love you! :) my friend since nursery... thank you for putting up with me kapag i have my lovelife-related rantings. :)

* Mary- PPG and YFC sis! im looking forward to our college adventures.. hehe.

* Mica- spongy.. mamimiss ko sobra ang "wag ganun!" and "ang sweeet naman!" hirits mo. hahanap hanapin ko yun..

* Renz- backy! haha:) i love you kasi u never fail to make me smile and make me feel na sobrang saya mabuhay.. mamimiss ko ung kaharutan mo sa college.

* Anica- hayy.. ang ateneo boys na sayo nagsimula.. mahal na mahal kita nix.. wala ako sa mood mabadtrip ah!!

* Jobelle- ang ulirang gf.. haha. :) mamimiss ko ung mga bonding natin.. ever since grade 5 kasi, naging malapit ka na tlaga sa puso ko.. naks! :)

* Audry- Jmown! hayy.. magnet memories!!! i love you kinder besty! hehe. :)

* Dee- papsy! :) mamimiss ko ung mga basketball talks natin. and ung mga kalokohan natin. mwah!

* Kent- never ko makakalimutan ung masakit na comment mo sakin.. hahaha! :) pare sana di mapariwara ung buhay mo! hahaha!

* Raf- T-rex.. awww.. im gonna miss you talaga.. dont worry.. bibisitahin kita sa states.. :)

* Monch- best turner!!!! :) HAPPY memories.. never ko makakalimutan yun.. gud luck sa pagiging pilot!:)

* Sassa- ah-ten-ei-ow buddy! :) ill see more of u in college! :) exciting!

* Nic- my LDR buddy.. :) sbrang mahal kita.. :) magsasawa yata ako sayo sa college ah? :) walang give up-an to! love you!

* Reeca- BES!!! mahal na mahal kita! as in!:)

* Gladys- Kleenex ko! :) mahal na mahal kita bruha! :) thanks sa pagdamay sakin lalo na pag umiiyak ako:)

* Tin, Viv, Reena, Tep, Jigs, Billie- Junior Council was the BEST? haha! :) i love you for making my 1st council stint memorable:)

* Dani, Dan, Pearl,Billie, Carlo, Steven, Ms. Blaqz- HSSC 05.. sobrang daming memories.. :) mahal ko kayong lahat..

* THE HIGH AVERAGE CLASS(1C, 2B, 3C, 4D)- till we meet again.. :) thanks for the 4 wonderful years ng sobrang kaingayan and kakalogan.. :)

* Mika- baks! :) salamat sa mga bestfriend related advices mo! :) mamimiss ko kakulitan mo korean girl!

* Eman- idol kita pare!:)

* Josue- thanks for the friendship from grade 6-4th year. just so you'll know, uve made me stronger.

* Gui, Gieo, Weej, Vince, Ejen, Pon, Paul, Caloy, Aaron, Carlo, Manny, Daniel, Ron- my 3rd year boys.. mamimiss ko kayo sobra! :) babalikan ko kayo! :) ang gwapo nyong lahat! :) hehe! love you!

* CMLI delegation 2003 and 2004- never kong makakalimutan ang baguio mems natin.. KAMPEON! :)

* "Solids"- thanks sa pagiging guy counterparts ng barkada namin.. hehe. :)

* Ayo- ikaw pa rin ang batch king para sakin! :) ill see you in ateneo!

* Jigs- my tag team partner.. mamimiss ko mga hirit mo.. and i love your body! sexy! :)

* Kim- :) ang nagpalit ng name ko to puerto rican.. im gonna miss you grade 3 best friend! :)

* All the Junior Treasurers- :) pinatatag nyo ako! :) hehe!

* Justin- kabs ko! :) i love your butt! :) and i love you more! :)

* Huckie- daddy!!! :) thanks for all the memories filled with laughters! :)

* Al- 1st year crush! :) thanks sa pagiging gentleman.. and sa pagpapahiram sakin ng MRT prepaid card mo nung sobrang kailangan ko! :) mwah!

* Wesley- theart! hehe. :) thanks for being my inspiration during the last quarter of my 2nd year life. hehe. :) astig! ang taas ng average ko nung tayo!:)

* Ate Toni- thank you sobra sa lahat ng help.. sa calculus.. sa geometry.. basta sa lahat.. idol kta! :)

* Mae- my twin sister! haha. :) thanks for all the kulitans. :)

* Ise, Ian, Ian, Adrian, Ave, Wil and all my Camp Math 11 friends- astig kayo! :) im so happy nakilala ko kayo!

* My Parents- thanks for everything ma and dad. hehe. :) mahal ko kayo. alam nyo naman un eh. :)

* Tini- badingerz! :) mahal kita! :)

* Ara and Karla- thanks sa pakikinig sa mga kiligish kwentos ko! :) mwah!

* Tricia - i love you girl! :) swimming tayo ah!! :)

* My Red Skin Senior Batchmates- till we meet again.. it was such an honor serving you! :) SENIORS HAOW!

* Tim- my everdearest best friend.. :) , my bro, my angel.. thank you for inspiring me and for being my source of strength..:) kung wala ka, di siguro ako magiging kung sino ako ngayon.. :) sobrang saya ng buhay ko kasi anjan ka.. :) kahit malayo ka sakin ngayon, i have faith naman na magkikita tayo ulit soon.. kaya natin to besty! :) i love you so so so! :) i miss your fabric softener smell! :)

and dun sa ibang na-miss ko pero alam nyo namang naging bahagi kayo ng buhay ko, salamat. :) i love you all! :) ciao!:)

"very seriousness.." hahaha.

2005-04-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

hey! :) im so hyped up right now. here are the reasons:

1. i got to buy the "Enjoy California" tank top a while ago. :) [but di ko pa nabili ung Billabong skirt.. bad trip kasi ung ATM ko, tinopak. boo talaga. ]

2. i saw my ex-crush, Martin, at the church a while ago. hehe. he txted me after. :)

3. i got to chat with TIMMYBOO knina! :)
**** excerpts...****

yselplayer16 (1:04:39 PM): haha. hey! i saw this "Enjoy California" tank top at people are people. haha. i love it! so im gnna get it later. haha.

tim_impossible (1:05:23 PM): really? but your not in california?

yselplayer16 (1:05:45 PM): hmmm.. just wait for me.. im gonna go there soon. hahaha!! feeling

tim_impossible (1:05:52 PM): haha cge ah

yselplayer16 (1:05:57 PM): oo naman!

tim_impossible (1:06:13 PM): oh yeah my lola and my tita and tito are here na

tim_impossible (1:06:18 PM): lalang

yselplayer16 (1:06:18 PM): really?

yselplayer16 (1:06:19 PM): sayang.

yselplayer16 (1:06:22 PM): dapat sumama na ko.

tim_impossible (1:06:27 PM): oo nga eh

yselplayer16 (1:06:33 PM): alam ko naman kasi na sobrang miss mo na ko eh..

tim_impossible (1:07:02 PM): syempre nmn

yselplayer16 (1:07:18 PM): seriousness?

tim_impossible (1:07:34 PM): very seriousness

yselplayer16 (1:07:44 PM): hahaha. its so barok. hahaha.

tim_impossible (1:07:58 PM): i know

im_impossible (1:08:02 PM): but its funny

tim_impossible (1:08:03 PM): hehe

<3 (",) yselplayer16 (1:12:16 PM): ung escort nga ni nic, darating pa lang from canada. hehe.

tim_impossible (1:12:32 PM): really?

yselplayer16 (1:12:58 PM): yeah.. ung escort ko darating from rocklin eh.

yselplayer16 (1:12:59 PM): hahaha!

tim_impossible (1:13:36 PM): hahaha talga? ok sya ah

yselplayer16 (1:13:47 PM): ay di nagets. haha!

tim_impossible (1:14:06 PM): haha yeah i know, il go get a ticket na

tim_impossible (1:14:13 PM): haha

yselplayer16 (1:14:17 PM): you better! haha.

tim_impossible (1:14:28 PM): hehe

<3 (",) yselplayer16 (1:29:21 PM): haha. i was at NBC tent yday.

tim_impossible (1:29:38 PM): ah yeah nbc tent

tim_impossible (1:29:50 PM): memories

tim_impossible (1:29:55 PM): daming tao!

yselplayer16 (1:30:29 PM): i know! grabe! haha. we made takas pa from our songfest practice just to see you. haha!

tim_impossible (1:30:49 PM): hahaha

tim_impossible (1:30:54 PM): ok nmn ah!

yselplayer16 (1:31:09 PM): oo nga. seeing u was worth the takas. haha.

tim_impossible (1:31:36 PM): and im glad i saw you that day

<3 (",) tim_impossible (1:41:52 PM): but im not, i just have to finish abit more in my hw

yselplayer16 (1:42:07 PM): ur so studious na.. im not sanay..

tim_impossible (1:42:55 PM): dami kasi stuff to do eh

yselplayer16 (1:43:03 PM): yeah.. im proud of you.

tim_impossible (1:45:54 PM): thanks

tim_impossible (1:46:11 PM): means alot to me

yselplayer16 (1:46:15 PM): awww.. really?

yselplayer16 (1:48:08 PM): iba ka na kasi compared to b4.. when u were an atenean.

tim_impossible (1:49:29 PM): ok....

tim_impossible (1:49:47 PM): how am i different now

yselplayer16 (1:50:09 PM): i dont know. mas serious ka na sa studies mo ngayon. ehehe. mas mature na.

tim_impossible (1:50:54 PM): really? i guess it just happens

yselplayer16 (1:51:22 PM): yeah. and i like you this way. hehehe.

yselplayer16 (1:51:32 PM): i get to love you more.

tim_impossible (1:53:14 PM): really? even if i get abit too busy?

yselplayer16 (1:53:19 PM): yeah. ive learned to understand u.

tim_impossible (1:53:30 PM): but then i still try to make tme for yah?

yselplayer16 (1:53:45 PM): yup. and i appreciate that.

tim_impossible (1:54:12 PM): im glad i have a very understanding bestfriend

yselplayer16 (1:54:25 PM): im glad i have you too.

tim_impossible (1:54:26 PM): actualy lucky

yselplayer16 (1:54:35 PM): lucky? VERY. hahaha.

haha. wala lang. natuwa lang talaga ako. hehe. :D i so love my best friend. haha. :) im gonna be stuck lang at home tomorrow. nako. sana wednesday na.. red box kmi! weeee! :) ciao!

The Wedding Date

2005-04-16T14:10:00.000+08:00

hey there.. i watched The Wedding Date with my sisters last night.. hmmm.. it was a feel-good movie.. actually, the story is very predictable.. so i didn't really enjoy the film.. in a way, i loved it coz the leading man IS SO HOT! i swear. lalo na kapag he smiles. and yes, I LOVE HIS BUTT! u know naman na i have a thing for guys' butts. haha. :D there were like butt exposure sceneskasi there. haha. :D hehe. :) and his character in the movie is really sweet.. but yeah, it's a "date" movie. kaya siguro i didn't enjoy it that much kasi i was with my sisters. hehe. :D but if you want to have that kilig feeling, then yes, you should watch that film. :)

i was chatting with nikki yesterday.. and natawa ako bigla sa conversation namin. hehe. :)

yselplayer16 (5:18:21 PM): oo nga naman.. musta ang <3 life?
nixie_bu (5:19:13 PM): hala!! haha... okay naman.. nothing serious! as usual.. pero okay naman! ikaw?
yselplayer16 (5:19:52 PM): ako? ok lang.. zero. haha. pero anjan naman si tim kaya ok lang.
nixie_bu (5:20:35 PM): hahaha!! asus, if i know, you'll take ateneo by storm!
nixie_bu (5:20:38 PM): kamusta na si tim?
yselplayer16 (5:20:41 PM): ganon? hahaha!

hehe. take ateneo by storm? haha. :D i love you nikki! :)

after watching The Wedding Date last night, we went window shopping.. window lang coz i didnt bring that much money with me. and i saw some great stuff!

1. Billabong skirt at U
2. "Enjoy California" tank top at people are people
3. White platformed "flip flops" at Kamiseta.
4. White convertible capri/pants at Penshoppe
5. "California" capri at people are people.
6. Roxy gidget belt at Surf world.

haha. im gonna get these stuff next week. weee. :D this morning, i went to NBC Tent for this bazaar... bought new slippers. hehe. :D then went to Market Market. there were so many people kaya i wanted to go home na. haha. i'm so happy coz i satisfied my Teriyaki Boy craving. hehe. :D i have this choir practice tonight. sana andun si celso. hehe. :)

guys! ill recommend this great film. later siya sa ABS CBN. mga 9 pm siguro. :) "Kung Ako Na Lang Sana".. hindi corny yan.. i swear.. para sa mga taong may "best friend" pero mahal na rin pala nila ung best friend nila.. :) hehe. basta. watch in na lang. :) iniyakan ko yang movie na yan. hehe. enjoy! ciao!

* update on my life...*

2005-04-15T10:26:00.000+08:00

***HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONAH!***

hey there.. :) it's friday once again.. and im stuck here at home.. i was supposed to watch daniel fermin's game later in merville.. however, nic wasnt allowed by his dad to come with me.. so i dont want to go alone nman.. so yea... feeling ko ill stay lang here at home today..

yesterday was great.. i got to talk to tim for like 20+ minutes.. haha. and then na-cut ung conversation namin coz ubos na ung card.. hehe.. sobrang miss ko na siya.... :( hmm.. i got pissed pa coz we planned na ill call him around 11 am here.. so 8 pm dun.. and yeah, i was calling around that time.. tapos busy.. nakakainis.. then sa YM, his status was "I'm mobile".. and im like "what?.. eh wala pa nga siyang phone eh.." it turns out na last month pa pla siya may cell.. like he thought nasabi na nya skin... hayyy.. pero its all good.. at least we got to talk ulit.. after like 2 months? hehe. :)

my legs hurt right now.. yesterday afternoon kasi, my dad invited us to come with him sa gym.. coz may tae-bo daw.. so kami naman sige.. okay lang.. tapos un..sobrang nkakapagod ung tae-bo.. hahaha. matagal na rin kasi ako di nakakapag-engage sa ganung activities eh.. puro na lang ako mall. hahaha. :) so there..

last night, i bonded with my friends sa park... hehe. :) im happy lang kasi i was with luigi again.. i miss summer 2004... hayyy.. yeah, there's this new guy.. basta he was playing basketball.. eh he was kinda cute.. so i asked miking, my guy friend, to approach him and ask for his name.. hehehe. michael daw name nya.. :) so yea, gusto ko ulit lumabas tonight.. baka andun na naman siya.. hehehe. :)

im chatting with tim right now..but he's busy with his english paper.. haha. too bad.. :) summer na kami dito.. hahaha. :) ciao!

o r d i n a r y d a y

2005-04-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

g'mornin sunshine! :) haha. i used to greet tim every morning with that. and you know what he says to me? "good morning sunrise!" hahaha. boo.

so.. yesterday i was in my school.. in AH-TEN-EI-OWW.. haha. we went there around 9 am coz my ate had to register for her summer classes.. we were supposed to hang out sa condo kasi 1 pm pa ung milo volleyball ng younger sister ko.. eh wen we got there, it turned out na we got the wrong key.... :( so ng-tryke kmi puntang ateneo and we just bonded with my ate and her blockmates.. there were so many familiar faces that i saw... i even saw earl young.. haha. when i saw him, i kinda made tago my face.. but yeah, he went up to me pa.. he was like "hoy ano ginagawa mo dito?" me: "ngpapacute. bkit?" him:"dito ka na mgaaral?" me:"bkt? gusto mo dito ako?"..... hahaha. bsta. dami pa npagusapan. :) ang kulit. tagal ko na rin pala di nkkausap un... :D

went to mcdo lunchtime to get some snacks... ng-lunch break kasi ung RegCom kaya di umabot ung random number ng ate ko.. and when we were waiting for a tryke, i saw marco tarog. haha. sayang di pa si bry ung nkita ko. haha.:D in fairness, cute siya.. PERO MAS CUTE PA DIN SI TIM. :) [with full conviction yan.]

haha. i watched the volleyball thing of my sister.. ang kulit. haha. nakkatawa:D pero feeling ko nakakahirap din.. parang patayan eh.. haha. ate at TOSH after..

i guess im jst gonna stay at home today. as much as i want to watch the wedding date, i cant. i have to wait for angel til she gets back from bora. bye!:D

im back!

2005-04-12T02:17:00.000+08:00

hey there! im back! :) i had an amazing weekend! you see, i was in subic during the weekend.. i attended the Youth for Christ 12th International Leaders' Conference for the first time.. :) i went with my cluster-mates.. :) the trip going to subic was fun.. i sat beside my crush, celso. hehehe. kulit niya. :) when we got there, we had to rest first.. and it was SUPER hot.. i swear.. kaya sobrang umitim na naman ako.. :( boo. hehehe. okay lang. :) anyway, there were 9000 people who attended from all over the world {since there were foreign delegates..} the praisefests were so amazing! i really felt the presence of the Lord.. and you could see how 9000 people from all over the world united to give praise to HIM.. :) so i would like to share with you some realizations i had because of the talks..

the theme of the ilc for this year is GOD IS ENOUGH. indeed, He really is.. :) *SOLO DIOS BASTA! *

talk 1: LIGHT TO THE WORLD
* this is a challenge for all the youth for Christ.. that we must live a life dedicated to God and to others.. as we experience God's grace in our own lives, we must indeed strive to share that grace with other people.. so that YFC may truly be a light to the world.. we are challenged to be a missionary.. to detach ourselves from all the worldly lures that we enjoy and serve other people who need us badly.. we are also challenged to be a champion for the poor.. to be a patriot... this country needs US.. and thus, we must let the whole country bow down to Christ...

talk 2: VALLEY OF SHADOWS
* indeed, each yfc member is eager to be a light to the world.. however, we cannot avoid some valley of shadows that will somehow, make our journey very difficult. our generation is faced with shadows of temptation, fears, insecurities and poverty... and indeed, these all bring us to sin.. if we sin, how can we become light to the world? even though we have been in the valley of shadows, we should decide to go out of the valley and WALK ON THE RIGHT PATH.. which is the path towards God.. :) we must learn to surrender to Him... and live nothing less than a righteous life.. :)

talk 3: GOD IS ENOUGH
* GOD IS ENOUGH is a declaration of faith.. to really follow Christ, we must take up our own crosses and submit to the will of the Lord.. :) even the little area of our life must be offered to Christ.. we must offer our hearts, our bodies, our minds and our slouls to the Lord.. GOD IS ENOUGH.. no ifs, no buts.. no matter how life presses us with trials, we believe that we will not be shaken coz the Lord is with us. :) {oh God is enough for me.. nothing else will ever be.. and i am satisfied.. for i have found my peace.. :) }

talk 4: SEND ME!
* we have all said "YES, Lord!" ... but how can we really follow Him? we must become missionaries.. in our minds, in our hearts, and in our spirits.. we follow Him by loveing Him and all the people He loves..even if it means we have to detach ourselves from our dearest attachments.. we are challenged to CONQUER ALL! * 150 in 1* --> we will go out to the world and be in 150 countries by June 2006... this may seem impossible.. but with the Lord, it isn't!

The Lord gives us the Great Commission.. "Go therefore and make disciples of all nations.."

we should boldy answer {as I have answered..} "HERE I AM LORD, SEND ME.. "

*Lord send me, I will go! :) *

gone for the weekend..:)

2005-04-08T14:38:00.000+08:00

hey there.. since nic has been making me kulit for the past 2 days, here are the pics during the graduation ceremony and the grad ball.. :) enjoy! *just click on the LINKS then click PICTURES GALORE.. to view my multiply page.* feel free to visit this link.. :) ill be gone for the weekend.. so just add ur msg sa tagboard ko.. gonna be in subic for the YFC international leaders' conference. ill be praying for you guys.. i love you all! :)

i miss you tim.

random things...

2005-04-07T12:02:00.000+08:00

*Leaving someone behind means you only want the best for them even if it means the best is not you...*

daily report: :) went to CSA at 11-ish.. gave this lunch treat to my teachers.. we stayed for a few minutes to view the AVP for the teachers who are leaving CSA.. i cried.. i found out that Mr. Jorda is leaving CSA already.. :( i'm gonna miss him.. i really won't forget our Sports Club adventures last year.. oh well..

went to g4 after to meet up with angel, my AC friend. we went to kodak and had our pics taken.. then we watched The Pacifier.. i swear. :) it's so nice. and Seth is sooooooo cute! :) i kinda cried in one part. :) here is what Vin Diesel said to Lulu, the small girl. :)

***No matter how far or how long life takes me away, I'll always be thinking of you..***

aww.. TIM. :(

yes. i miss him so much. i swear. i want to hop on a plane right now and visit him in Rocklin. :( if only i had superpowers.. :(

tomorrow: might go to school to get my grad ball pictures. on friday, ill be going to subic for the YFC ILC. :) im excited. :) ciao!

IT'S OFFICIALLY OVER

2005-04-06T02:09:00.000+08:00

my high school life is officially over.. we had the grad ball last sunday.. the last freakin event that i didnt get to enjoy that much.. the songs were not nice.. and i didnt like the band show. im sorry. oh well. so i just went outside of the ballroom and made telebabad with tatan. thank God for sun cell. hahaha. :D and when jam and audry went out too, we just made lait. we gave "awards" to everyone. like based on what they were wearing that night. haha. i know, that's kinda mean but it's fun. :D

im proud to announce that i had 2 "official" awards that night. hahaha. :D those were pre-determined awards. and ballots were given out to the batch siguro last week pa. so there. :D hmm.. i got the Female Jester Award.. [Patrick Manlapaz was my guy counterpart..] and the Barkada Woman Award.. [Patrick was again, my guy counterpart..] hehehe. :D ang cute nung prizes namin.. :D *sorry, i havent all uploaded the pics yet.. soon talaga promise.* here are some of the pics during the grad and grad ball..

after the grad ball, people got wasted na. hehehe. as for me, i only had 2 shots of vodka. i dont really drink that much. im a good girl. :) hehehe. i slept from 6-8 am only. haha. and we were 3 in the bed {jobelle, kent, and me}. imagine that. 3 in a supposedly single bed.

so much for the drama that night. me+josue=cry me an ocean. he said bati na daw kami but i think it was kinda pilit. they thought i was sleeping na kasi but i heard ace talking to him. and telling him to talk to me. i heard pa na ayaw ni josue. and ace was like "last na eh.. to naman.." so yeah. i dont care. whatever. minsan naiinis ako sa mga ganon. parang ako kasi ung nagmu-mukhang kawawa. naiinis talaga ako.

when i got my card the next day, we went to ateneo to confirm our slots. had our ID pics taken pati ung signature for the ID. kainis. ang pangit ng kinalabasan ng signature ko. di ko kasi makita eh. :( boo. :( june 14 ung start ng classes namin. and june 7-9 ung orsem. im so excited. i cant believe this. new world. new people. new friends. new experiences. I REALLY CAN'T WAIT! :)

GRADUATION DAY...

2005-04-02T16:41:00.000+08:00

it's over.. after surviving 16 grading periods from year 2001-2005, i cant believe my High School life has finally come to an end.. surprisingly, i did not cry a while ago. i was expecting that the tears would roll down my cheeks once we start to sing our graduation song.. but that did not happen.. hmmm.. i really dont know why... oh well.. to the CSA Seniors 2005.. i shall see you on sunday.. in our grad ball.. after sunday, thats the time when ill be saying mushy stuff.. :) hahaha.

last night, i was going through my 1st friendster account. and i read josue's testimonial. nalungkot agad ako. i really dont know what happened to us. so since it's gonna be our graduation, i decided to write him a letter. honestly, i miss him. i miss my "seahorse"- thats what i used to call him.. i miss the guy who i surprise with Go Nuts Donuts, or carbonara, etc every week.. then after the grad ceremony, ace and i were on our way to the parking lot near the chapel.. and we saw josue and his parents. hmmmm.. i didnt even have the courage to look at him. oh well. that was it. our 4-year friendship was really over.

anyway, i wish tim was there kanina sa graduation ko.. hmmmm.. siguro he'll be proud of me.. hahaha. ciao! :)

*pictures will be uploaded tomorrow*

My Life's full of DRAMA. Live with it.

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snew layout..

long distance relationships..

atenista na to! official na. :)

new layout

new AI!:)

sick again..

this is for real.. COLLEGE NA TALAGA KAMI..

i want those sweet days back again..

new layout!

it feels good pala..

let the pictures talk..

just a day.. just an ordinary day..

wala lang..

finally.. after 5 days..

shit ayoko ng ganito.

my body hurts big time...

bonding with my Laitera Gang.. :)

new layout!

had a blast yesterday!

katangahan. haha.

my deepest gratitude... :)

"very seriousness.." hahaha.

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*** update on my life...***

o r d i n a r y d a y

im back!

gone for the weekend..:)

random things...

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GRADUATION DAY...

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IT'S OFFICIALLY OVER